The Danger of Living for Other People's Expectations | Joseph Malan

What does it actually look like to grow up without knowing who you are — and be okay with that? In this episode, Matthew sits down with his brother Joseph for a raw, unfiltered conversation about childhood, identity, dating, heartbreak, and the strange comfort of not having all the answers. From vegan pizza with no cheese to organizing a DIY prom, to working EDM events with a Polaroid camera, Joseph's story is equal parts hilarious and surprisingly profound. This one's for anyone who's ever felt pressure to have life figured out before they're ready.Key Takeaways• Filling in your "dream slot" for other people's benefit is not the same as knowing what you actually want.• Allowing yourself to say "I don't know" is one of the scariest — and most freeing — things you can do.• The path to homeownership, career, and relationship isn't one-size-fits-all. Rushing it often costs you the chance to find what you're actually passionate about.• In dating, flow matters more than strategy. If you're bending over backwards to make it work from the start, pay attention to that.• Once you stop being afraid to lose, you start actually living.Chapters- 00:00 - Welcome & introducing Joseph (Matthew's brother)- 00:48 - Kid Joseph: Legos, being called "Pumpkin," and the vegan phase- 03:53 - Selling Halloween candy back to mom and dad — and the DIY mini prom- 08:37 - What young Joseph was really like: Legos, creativity, and filling in dream slots- 11:29 - The pressure to have a plan and saying "stem cell researcher" for dad's sake- 12:55 - The shift: leaving home, embracing "I don't know," and finding yourself- 17:00 - If passion led the way: EDM events, ranger work, and Polaroid photography- 22:28 - The paradox of meeting hundreds of people and still feeling disconnected- 25:49 - The Nebraska sales trip: impulsive travel, door-to-door selling, and free jacket- 30:19 - Why being charismatic doesn't automatically make you good at sales- 34:09 - Wrapping up the "figuring yourself out" chapter — we're all consciously young- 35:30 - First crushes, first kisses, and double dates gone sideways- 47:51 - Real talk on dating: flow over strategy, self-standards, and post-cheating healing- 52:10 - Attachment styles, trust, and why letting go takes courage- 58:05 - The fear of loving someone for decades — and then losing them- 01:00:50 - Nothing is truly ours to keep: on impermanence, the body, and the universe- 01:02:21 - What happens when we die? Heaven, rocks, carbon, and the comfort of uncertainty- 01:07:47 - Living in the present when the future feels blank- 01:13:42 - Why not being afraid to die might be what frees you to actually live- 01:16:13 - Closing thoughts: "At the end of all of this, I got nothing to lose."About the GuestJoseph Malan is Matthew's brother — a 24-year-old Phoenix-area native currently in the thick of figuring life out. He's worked EDM events, sold Polaroids in festival crowds, taken impulsive trips to Nebraska, and thought deeply about love, loss, identity, and what comes after death. He's the kind of person who's living the questions instead of pretending to have the answers.Connect• Instagram: @nature_astronaut