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EPISODE · Nov 17, 2025 · 44 MIN

The Darkness Before the Holidays: Finding Your Worth with Dr. Ed Newton

from Enneagram and Marriage · host Christa Hardin, MA

As the days get shorter and the holidays approach, many of us feel that familiar darkness creeping in, doubt about our gifts, questions about our worth, uncertainty about whether we're enough. Pastor Ed Newton, Lead Pastor of the 27,000 member Community Bible Church in San Antonio and author of Why Not You?: Believing What God Believes About You, sits down with Christa for a conversation about finding faith, truth, and doing the deep personal work required to believe you're worthy, even in your weakest moments. Ed shares his own journey of therapy and spiritual work, unpacking how he learned he was loved despite his weaknesses (not because of his strengths). Drawing from Moses' story, Eminem's famous rap battle where he humbled himself by exposing his own flaws first, and his own experience with imposter syndrome and almost total darkness, Ed explores how we prove, please, and pacify others when we don't believe we're enough. Whether you're a person of faith or just someone searching for truth about your own worthiness, this conversation meets you where you are. Ed and Christa discuss how this shows up in marriage (one spouse overperforming to earn love, the other hiding their true self), how to break these exhausting patterns even for men who often want to display competency or machismo, and why ordinary people are exactly who get chosen for extraordinary things. As we head into the holidays, a season that can bring both light and strain, this episode offers the spiritual and emotional replenishment we all need to shore ourselves up for what's coming. Watch on YouTube! Follow Ed here at his church: https://www.communitybible.com/ Get the new book here: https://a.co/d/5RJTLGm Find the personality test here: www.5voices.com Find more about your type, the pod, freebies, and SO much more at our website right here! ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠www.EnneagramandMarriage.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Leave Christa a podcast question anonymously by sending an MP4 recording to [email protected]. Love what you're learning on E + M? Make sure you leave us a podcast review so others can find us, too⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ here!⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

As the days get shorter and the holidays approach, many of us feel that familiar darkness creeping in, doubt about our gifts, questions about our worth, uncertainty about whether we're enough. Pastor Ed Newton, Lead Pastor of the 27,000 member Community Bible Church in San Antonio and author of Why Not You?: Believing What God Believes About You, sits down with Christa for a conversation about finding faith, truth, and doing the deep personal work required to believe you're worthy, even in your weakest moments. Ed shares his own journey of therapy and spiritual work, unpacking how he learned he was loved despite his weaknesses (not because of his strengths). Drawing from Moses' story, Eminem's famous rap battle where he humbled himself by exposing his own flaws first, and his own experience with imposter syndrome and almost total darkness, Ed explores how we prove, please, and pacify others when we don't believe we're enough. Whether you're a person of faith or just someone searching for truth about your own worthiness, this conversation meets you where you are. Ed and Christa discuss how this shows up in marriage (one spouse overperforming to earn love, the other hiding their true self), how to break these exhausting patterns even for men who often want to display competency or machismo, and why ordinary people are exactly who get chosen for extraordinary things. As we head into the holidays, a season that can bring both light and strain, this episode offers the spiritual and emotional replenishment we all need to shore ourselves up for what's coming. Watch on YouTube! Follow Ed here at his church: https://www.communitybible.com/ Get the new book here: https://a.co/d/5RJTLGm Find the personality test here: www.5voices.com Find more about your type, the pod, freebies, and SO much more at our website right here! ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠www.EnneagramandMarriage.com⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Leave Christa a podcast question anonymously by sending an MP4 recording to [email protected]. Love what you're learning on E + M? Make sure you leave us a podcast review so others can find us, too⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ here!⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

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