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EPISODE · Oct 8, 2026 · 43 MIN

The Death of my 5 Year Plan ~ Ep 59

from Up Past Bedtime · host Bella Messina

SUBSCRIBE HERE: https://creators.spotify.com/pod/profile/up-past-bedtime-messina/subscribe I used to know exactly what my life was going to look like. Marriage. A big family. At least four kids. A home. A career. I had a very clear picture of where I was going and what I was working towards. Now? I have absolutely no fucking idea. In this episode, I’m talking about the death of my five-year plan and the uncomfortable reality of finding myself at 30 with more freedom to decide what comes next than I’ve ever had… but absolutely no idea what I actually want to do with it. After learning the hard way just how quickly life can change, making long-term plans doesn’t feel as easy as it once did. And after spending the last two years keeping myself incredibly busy, slowing down and deliberately creating more space in my life has left me with a lot more time to think about the questions I may have been avoiding. Up Past Bedtime with Bella Messina is your go-to for late-night, unfiltered chats... the kind of conversations you’d have with your closest girlfriends. From relationships to motherhood, no topic is off-limits as Bella, a 30-something mum of two, invites you into candid conversations with inspiring women and shares her own raw stories. This podcast is where you’ll feel seen, heard, and completely understood. So get comfortable, because the best conversations happen when you’re up past bedtime. HAVE SOMETHING TO SHARE?! Contact us on the UPB Hotline: [email protected] UPB Socials: Instagram: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠@uppastbedtimepodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Tik Tok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠@uppastbedtimepodcast⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Watch on Youtube: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Or Email Us: [email protected] Bella’s Socials: Instagram: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠@bellsmessina⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Tik Tok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠@bellsmessina⁠

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