the dress ups - distant pheromones (distant impressions)

despite what you might think i haven't forgotten you there's no way to let you know you've advanced in the queue D:\samtab temp\camera demos dress ups samtab march 2026\more\20260328_001627 (thinking of you but i cant post my pheromones on social media).mp4 9 minutes pheromone maxxxing (haven't forgotten you - the actor part 6) how can i tell you I haven't forgotten you trying to use all the tools at my disposal but i feel i've overstayed my welcome with my proposal how can i tell you I haven't forgotten you how can i let you know when i'm so far from you and every day the distance grows we get further apart this trash i post is like small talk it's garbage I know but how else can I escalate how else can i communicate with this interface when you don't wanna see my face and I am all over the place I am in such a mess and feeling so stressed i'm throwiung shit against a wall trying to see if anything sticks instead of teling you what you want to hear because i can't assume anything about what you think because everyone is really different to how they present and i don't want to judge or assume but it means i am always confused the shortcuts others can take are not available to me because i don't match my persona to how we look visually Its garbage and it's a throwaway cuz i can't think of anything to say I'm scent deprived and touch starved it makes long distance relationships hard I feel like I'm falling apart because I can't keep my options open as long as i need to don't any ESP telekinesis telepathic thesis you can't smell me through my screen so you don't know where I am or where I have been in a world so visually obsessed i'll never be recognized or processed because i never want to be percieved because with humans the cover always decieves because i never look the way i feel inside so i just want to be invisible and hide if you were casting me for a movie i'm the wrong archetype i can't read the lines that you expect me to write i've been typecast in a role someone i can never be and that's all that is ever expected of me (another impossible task expected of me) competing in a battle of images is too taxxing i just sitting here pheromone maxxxing my inside and my outside never matches there's never any correlation all these aesthetic shortcuts give only misleading superficial information it makes it so hard to get into the deeper parts the real beating things inside our hearts cuz they only wanna hire us if we look the part so i feel i'm falling apart maybe the pheromones, if we had smell-0-vision would be more a more honest reflection but I am sick of the inside never matching the outside I'm always misleading consumers leading to the wrong interpretation because there is no aesthetic associated with my situation there is no symbolic device i can employ