THE GUT FEELING * IN WHICH YOU CAN TRUST*

HI (GH) - LIFE! switch-fuerimmerpunk 210523 live 23pm * turtles have lived since more than 220 mio years //* this is no fastrepair hopp hopp// * verlässlicher nachrichtensprecher des universums: DAS BAUCHGEFÜHL es weiss schon mehr als der rest von uns <3//* secure newsreader of universe: THE GUT INSTINCT it knows almost more yet than our rest of us//* evrenin emniyetli haber spikeri : KARNIN- ICINDEKI HIS bizim tüm geri kalandan daha cok bilir// maybe you touch your stomach there & then ?! * ...THEN NOT!! => then not <3 ! it has took a while... to can speak it out like this and also to feel like it // i´ve lived, what it means to be indigent - being it in love, ive confused it with love- in its many facets-but that the mind can´t do very well alone- immeasurable deep humility, very deep shame overwhelmed me, as i noticed, how indigent ive acted- caused through fear, losing this special human,who has turned away from me then just more-and somewhen- ive noticed, for what reason i had done this and it took a lot of work, to forgive this myself. or my at that time, unknowing self,who doesnt knew better. ive hugged it <3 true love,living inside,this divine gift- in you in me- gave me ultimately a kick- and strengthened this wonderful dreamteam connection between heart & brain pushed me all times deeper there - what wasnt only very pleasant- ya! why? cause, never before ive lived such deep connection to one human, so true, so beautiful- warmed me someone my whole life with his love. yes, i love that! i like that! but it does not feel good unfortunately anymore :( cause..what does he shows me? are my needs and values respected? no. do i have done it on my own??i dont invest therein anymore- i dont analyse anymore, wont come into a vortex of thoughts- in hope, that something will change, i wont let myself be lulled anymore - cause: WHAT ARE THE DEEDS??i let go-what doesnt feel good anymore in me,i dont choose anymore-im allowed to give myself respect-now, i choose something new- i choose it in me! there, in my world i am very happy!i laugh so much!there is no indigence anymore- iam precious and i am major - that one is allowed to notice learn again oh ya, it takes "a bit" maybe..so then, what stabilizes me? do i have desire- i ask myself, ya now what is missing there for me on my own actually? what brings me joy? who i want to be?how sickcoolbeautiful actually i am my mirror face is grinning now at me! i am a queen- with so much heart- i have huge standards and values, which are important for me, and: i´ll stand by them! now i can handle also uncomfortable feelings. and grow with them- into peace.i feel safe. in myself.i choose something new, i choose true love i choose freedom ohh beloved universe, i trust into you (who you´ll gonna send me?*) i claim it, that everyone in our lifetime plays a role- & anyone or thing or happening can bring you into your authentic being. it is more, what we believe we are- to find out in your heart! to be in peace with every (ex-)& lover, parent, friend..in the past gives you more energy to.. create- if we loose once our ego´s reactions & watch them from above in love,speak our truth with,in a peaceful mind.. facing &loosing fear..feels just so well. well, challenges will come & go until lovely daddy death is knocking..so...trust into your inner voice & instinct! YOU CAN DO THIS ...then ive thought with fullest reverence at our creator- who has for everything a solution - it is an overwhelming feeling, being in the basic sense of trust, to recognize that one is always at the right place at the right time- thanks to my chucks..ant that ive found there now one real, green, serpentine stone! i am telling also about superlovely meetings with mother earth& its creatures - <3 ( in june i´ll tell the very first meeting with a so special animal, which plays such a huge role in my life, (i dont know why) on which i do think again & again with so much grace & gratefulness) please, follow your heart.