The Life of a Showgirl

Episode 27 is what happens when you hit your vape pen and accidentally open every tab in your brain. I start by revisiting all the weird jobs I’ve had — the questionable interviews, the unhinged managers, the “how did I even end up here” moments — and somehow spiral into a conversation about people who are too much.The good kind of too much — funny, loud, magnetic — that everyone loves. Until it flips, and suddenly you’re “too emotional,” “too opinionated,” or “too much work.” Because apparently being human comes with a return policy.I talk about feeling boxed in by what people expect from me on this podcast — how the minute I started talking about Tinder, Bumble, and threesomes, everyone wanted that version of me. But that’s not the only story I have. Being a creator means still showing up when you’re not in the mood, still filming when your hair’s falling out from Mounjaro, and still finding ways to make chaos entertaining.Somewhere between burnout, event planning, and my sister’s Gossip Girl–slash–murder mystery birthday, I realize maybe this episode doesn’t need to make sense — because neither do I right now.Call it unfiltered, call it a breakdown — either way, it’s a show.