The Light I Learned to Turn Off: A story of protection, memory, and returning to self

In this deeply personal episode, Laura shares a powerful realization that unfolded after a recent Wachuma journey… not during the ceremony, but in the quiet days that followed.What began as a simple, repeated vision revealed something much deeper - a moment from childhood where a part of her learned to turn off her light in order to feel safe.Together, we explore how the nervous system protects us, how childhood adaptations shape who we become… and what happens when those protective parts begin to come back online.This conversation isn’t about fixing what’s broken.It’s about recognizing that nothing was ever broken in the first place.It was protected.And when safety returns… so can we.✨ In this episode, we explore:The moment Laura realized when and why she dimmed her lightHow the body stores memory beyond what we consciously rememberWhat integration actually looks like (and why it’s not instant)The role of safety in reconnecting with yourselfMoving from protection into agency… at your own paceThis episode closes with a gentle guided reflection to help you reconnect with a younger part of yourself… and begin building safety from within.🎧 Thank you for joining us for this episode of Selah: A Deep Pause.We hope this conversation offered you a moment to reflect, breathe, and feel seen. 🔔 Subscribe to the podcast so you never miss a moment.💌 Connect with UsFollow us on Instagram: @SelahDeepPauseFacebook: Facebook.com/Selah-ADeepPause 🎙️ Host: Laura Deir🎛️ Producer/Editor: Krissi Burdette🎨 Artwork Credit: Mural featured in the video by E. Guenthner 🎵 Music Credit“Dreamcatcher” by Onycs  Licensed under Creative Commons (CC BY 3.0)http://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/3.0/Artist: https://youtube.com/channel/UCNQ6vKZ5ogEZ0tM2TvxLhQAMusic promoted by BreakingCopyright: https://youtu.be/gUgyfUIhGQc  ⚖️ Disclaimer: The conversations in this episode reflect personal experiences and opinions. They are not intended as medical, psychological, or legal advice. Psychedelic substances are not legal in all areas and may carry risks. Always consult qualified professionals and honor your local laws and your own readiness before exploring any healing modality discussed.