The Loss of my First Child

Long before I lost Molly, I lost my first baby, Gordy from a heart defect and his loss followed me. I didn't plan on having kids, but Gordy was the first in a chain reaction of interesting events, and through time has shown me each of my children have played an important role in my life. In this episode, I discuss the trauma of losing my first child and how that affected my outlook when I had my other children.   Key Takeaways:  [3:58] Going off the pill and finding out I'm pregnant  [10:50] Finding out my baby has a heart defect  [17:56] The crushing realization that my baby wasn't going to live  [20:26] The nerves from giving birth to Gordy  [22:58] The aftermath of losing my baby and donating his body  [28:11] Having my second child, Gracie and getting married  [34:58] The importance of each of my children and the pain of child loss [36:44] Thank you to the people who helped me    Resources from this episode: Ellie's way grief group Ellie's Way   Connect with Barb: Website Facebook  Instagram YouTube   November 9, 2021 Podcast: A Thousand Tiny Steps Episode #: 10 The Loss of my First Child