Wait, I think I sang myself maybe I don't know I hear differently I Might have look up. I feel like when you've had a lot of concussions your brain is swishing around You know and then when you run out of swishy. Oh, there goes now sound like me, but that could go That's why you gotta make the most of it because you never know when it's gonna go, you know Like recently I discovered You're gonna have a hairy chest never had a hairy chest which camera my one certain for you my this one How do you okay, so I never had I was like a bold kid, you know like I had blonde hair and I was like pretty silky smooth And then you know that's a thing when you're because that's a good thing. I when I was 18.
I look 12 Which means now I'm 53 and I look like 43 Depending on the day, you know So I'm definitely younger for how all that how long I've been here also I am What's a craft single? I'm like pasteurized. Yeah, like I'm I'm I'm wrapped You know how McDonald's french fries you can leave them for like 10 years and they still look like McDonald's french fries That's me like I I should look worse Everybody from my era My town my age And then I look in that good, you know, and that's wearing tear and I was a part of the wear and tear you know I was one of the champs of wear and tear ville. It's just pretty hard to beat me black rifle coffee Black rifle coffee and then black rifle you can get these Sweet and smooth premium coffee pouches.
No don't nicotine just coffee and put it in the fires you up works in a pinch Anyway, yeah, I feel like Recently my chest hair so my stomach hair is still normal color, but the chest hair is starting to have I have white hair I have like Santa's chest That's not that hot But my girlfriend seems to think it's cool because I was gonna shave it off and she was like no keep it. I like it so It's sexy Santa time I Don't know what you gotta look you gotta make the most of it But look at one point I had no hair on my chest and now I have a lot of hair And now the top part is sexy Santa time So, you know, you gotta embrace your times, you know, it's like sometimes you have bad times and they break people, you know That's how this thing starts where you um People have bad times and then they run from the bad times by doing things that are bad for them And that that gives them another reason to run yet again And then then you're off and that's the way it goes in society, you know, we're all running It's very rare for somebody to face things You know, I think there's like athletes out there and some people that are high caliber jobs They're putting a lot of work and depending on your career choice How long it lasts because when the career comes to an end that can be in again another trigger to start running Where people will You know a lot of athletes do it, you know, because it's like they're cool They're the guy or they're the girl and then they're just a person and now they can't face reality of the reality of just being a person Which is pretty crazy because that's all we all are, you know It's a weird thing to To find it difficult to face reality that you're just a guy You're just a girl because at the end of the day that is what we all are, you know, we're just people There's nothing, you know, I've said this a lot. It's like we're not special but we all are, you know, that's the thing that I have Realized, I almost said came to terms with because at one point I thought I was special, you know And then I realized that I am but so are you, you know Butterflies taste with their feet They're special There's millions of butterflies. Is one butterfly better than the other butterfly?
It's your choice. It's kind of like some people think that certain skateboarders are better than other skateboarders Some people think some people think that no effects is the best band in the world. I'm not saying they're bad I'm just saying no They're not You know like Ian finance thinks Creed is good No, they're not but that's my opinion Ian thinks they're great You could argue that Ian's a moron Millions of people that bought Creed albums would argue that he's he's spot on I just think if you had a musical race Or a musical fight if you will Or a musical contest of sorts and it was Metallica versus Creed I think you'd find Creed would lose that battle I don't know how you would equate the battle But I Shut up, you know just shut up. I think you got you guys you one guy on the guitar Yeah That's not that's not the real stuff.
Yeah, I'm just saying like that's he's like oh yeah Did a little egg and cook with like that should riff dude Try this, you know Okay, you made it's not like a banjo because that's what it sounds like to me. Yeah, it's a twanging turd By the way, you want to call out super chats as we go. Yeah, yeah, yeah, shut out super chats Yeah, we got Thomas and Jen so far in there. Yeah, Jen.
Yeah, Thomas. Did I say Thomas the other day? I've been around man. I think he's in Utah Um, but yeah, I did a show in Utah Did I went I shot a machine gun I Um I did a lot I helped uh kids skate.
I helped a little girl let it drop in for the first time Um, I sold a lot of skateboards at the skate park. I went to ex-insurance This is insurance company that it costs more to have their insurance But if something goes wrong, they give you the money Crazy, right? Like that's the thing is yes, it's more expensive But if your house floods they give you the money All the money, you know, like if you can't you know somebody still should cut they give you the money That's it So it's like this whole it's kind of sad, but it's kind of cool It's cool. They do that, but it's kind of sad that they're the only people to do that and it's like a brag It's like other insurance companies will Argue that they don't have to give it to you That's uh, that's where we're at these days I smell like horse right now because I went and saw my horse And uh, we rode for a second We did some wheelies.
We did some burnouts. We did some jump farts. We did some rolling polies, you know, we did it all It's good to be back. It's good to be with my friend He was incredibly excited to see me.
I was incredibly excited to see him. It's very exciting I guess right probably needed that before the podcast today. Yeah, I'm all right, man Yeah, you know like just good to center, you know Yeah, yeah, it was a good like He's just a good guy to hang out with but it hasn't been that difficult because uh, you know I was in Utah for a while and I had some friend a new friend of mine brian Who works at x insurance who is potentially offering my girlfriend a job? And that's really exciting Because maybe she would make a lot of money.
You know, there's some dudes don't like it when they're their partner makes more money than them I've never had that So I can't say it for sure, but I'm pretty sure I'm absolutely 100% sure if Juliet makes more money than me. I'm gonna be so pumped Like I will not feel insecure about that. I think it's weird when dudes feel insecure about girls making more money than them I'm like, but it's it's us. We have more money now What the problem is it makes no sense, but I think that goes back to um You know little wieners, you know things got something to do with that.
I know people are tricking about my little wiener thing super chat Oh, yeah, who's that? That's kasey said 32 days j's kicks Man, I'm more excited about your 32 days than that and I need money. That's cool. But That's what's up, man.
That's what I love about this show is I just wanted I was like look if it doesn't make any money It's already made like 40 bucks. So in your face But um it's helping people j's and i'll show 2.0 is helping people So You know, even then if I go a little bit of a tangent about little wiener people and it's like, you know I said I made a comment about you know little thing and people like girls that are younger and people got mad I mean, I'm like you're either one or the other if you're mad at that Think about that It was interesting to watch everyone guess at who you said that didn't listen to the podcast Because none of them got it right. No, they didn't Yeah, I saw that too. Yeah, they like projected what they viewed as that.
Yeah, I'll tell you look I'll tell you who it isn't for sure. It ain't Joe Rogan. You never seen the interview Joe does I think I think bill burs there and he talks about this a video of a guy that grabs a sign off a girl And he's harassing a young girl and Joe goes if that was my daughter and Joe starts to boil like he's like if I was there And bill goes calm down man calm down like it's not really happening, but that's that's a protector You know like Joe's a protector. I don't know Joe that well, you know I'm happy for his success and has he said some things that I've seen on the internet where I was like, I don't really agree with that Sure, that's everybody.
I don't care But is he is he somebody that I was referring to absolutely not you know when it comes to You know, I don't I don't I don't I don't it's a weird thing you put in there It is the person that I was referring to has he been on that podcast. I think so maybe once yeah, I think one time Yeah But you know I still I don't I don't really care, you know like I'm just pointing out that I think when you're always attacking people that are Less fortunate than you You're not the coolest person in the world. That's all you know, but if you want to go for it free country Another super Jeff and jin said your girl is rad also beautiful. Soak to watch you be happy also.
Thanks for helping scott drop in I've helped a lot of people drop in lately. I can't I don't know which one it is I really have helped a lot of people do that and that's the only I I went to ex insurance and I held mitts for a bunch of people that I'd never fought or had a couple of lessons and It's just this thing where You know, it's you know, you get caught up in being cool and and having money because if you have money things, you know, it's easier a lot's easier, you know But helping people You know, I really am starting to realize like I do have a certain set of skills And they make people happy and it's cool, man. I'm very fortunate I feel very fortunate to be able to help people learn how to box and and to help people Skateboard better and see the joy in their face when they when they learn something and then the other big one is you know sobriety and Because that's the other thing. It's like it's not so much sobriety.
It's more um Facing your fear, you know Like uh, I was thinking because I knew I was gonna do this show, you know, a lot of people go through a lot of stuff You know, I think it's funny. I've always noticed this when it comes to men when men go through a relationship trial and tribulation We tend to be gun shy to get back into the dating game like where no one's gonna break my heart again You know, we get a little tough around the edges for it Girls are a little more Well, they're there won't happen again. You know, I'm willing to try again. I think guys kind of get a little scarred if you will And it goes with these these are the things you got to watch out for because these are the things that make you start to run And when I talk about sobriety, it's not really sobriety.
It's more running, you know, it's not you don't have to use drugs and alcohol. It's it's Food it's Wasting time doing stuff that isn't improving your life or your day You know, you know, there's video games. Some people look use video games sometimes great But if you use it in a way where you're kind of uh disappearing from your friends and family Then it's a problem, you know, like you eat a bunch of stuff that isn't good for you because it makes you feel good for a second The quick fix that makes it worse the next day It's the same thing, you know the uh The sex, you know, addictions and love addictions. Those are these little things where you know, I because I am So well versed in these afflictions.
It's made me realize that we we do this we all do this in certain ways with certain things It's just a lot more obvious when you're um, you know, you're drinking your life away or something It's you know, it becomes it's pretty apparent to everybody around you. It's like, hey, man, you're losing it, you know, but if it's uh, you know Taco Bell by yourself It's you know, it's not as apparent, but it does chip away, you know, you're not as fit You don't fit in your pants. It makes you a little sad about the day And you're a little sad about the day. So what do you do to make yourself feel better?
You get some more taco bell. Sorry to bash taco bell, but You had it coming Um, but you know my father passed away. This is the thing that I wanted to say is my father passed away It's um, it's been over 10 years now. It's been 20 Um, but my father passed away pedaling up a mountain Because my brother Uh, was training for uh for supercross and he pedaled up on top of the mountain So it was the hardest thing he's ever done in the next day.
My father Woke up took my brother's bicycle and tried to pedal up the same mountain And he almost got to the top and he passed away of a heart attack up at the top Obviously the altitude uh, he did have A high condition that he hadn't they hadn't figured out what it was because he didn't really tend to it We'll see the right doctors or whatever for whatever reason I think drinking and stuff like that Didn't make it better And so anyway, he passed away and that for me was um the beginning really for uh, There was a traumatic experience that kind of Blasted old traumatic experiences back into my life where I was like, oh, because I was pretty sure that I was one of the lucky ones You know like my life was pretty good, you know everything kind of worked out for me like sure I didn't go to school I didn't want to go to school, you know, and I failed all that stuff But I got into skateboarding and skateboarding was I was a professional athlete So I dodged a huge bullet and I was like I didn't even really get an education and I'm still making money from riding my skateboard Like how cool is that? And when he passed away I didn't realize at the time, but that had really scarred me to the point where I never really told anybody this but I could not ride a bicycle For at least two years I couldn't use an exercise bike. I remember the first time it was probably about two years And I was at the gym and it was I was trying to um I was trying to get in shape because I had got a little out of shape because I had been drinking and partying excessively and uh I lived in Temecula And I went to the gym with the the mother of my children and I was like you got to do cardio And they didn't have rolling machines. It was a it was a bicycle and I remember thinking I don't want to get on it I swore that I would never get on a bicycle again because my because the bicycle took my dad That doesn't make any sense, you know, but I'm just telling you that the scar of That happening scared me to to simulate anything that caused him to die and I remember the panic that I had and the The how traumatic it was to pedal this exercise bike, you know It took a long time for me to even think about doing it and when I did do it There was a huge war going on in my head about pedaling a bicycle stationary bicycle In a gym let it own an actual bicycle because that was what I swore that I would never do that But I remember thinking on the bicycle that you if you pedal this bike You could get fit enough To have better cardio so that if you do have to pedal a bicycle You'd be less inclined to have a heart attack because that was the other thing My father passed away from a heart condition pedaling up a mountain I now think that that's what's going to happen to me to the point that in 2020 years later my 53rd birthday I I think I'm because he died on his birthday So I think on my birthday on my 53rd birthday.
That's when my deal runs out It makes no sense I'm just saying That's how scarred I was from it for two years. I wouldn't ride a bicycle when I did ride the bicycle I had headphones on I was trying not to cry Because I was in a gym I didn't want people to see me pedaling a bike and crying at the same time in an exercise bike Figured that'd be a bad look But I remember The the will that I had to beat it and what it took to beat it It was everything I had to keep to pedal and not get off and to do whatever I think it was 20 minutes My feeling my heart my heart rate going up Still to this day pedaling a bike with my hands on the grip at an exercise bike where it shows your heart rate I don't like it. I don't like watching my heart rate go up There's a trigger in it And then you know 20 years later my 53rd birthday I am in the mountains in altitude I don't it's hard to terrified. I'm terrified, you know My ex-wife sent me an email that day saying I know how scared you are today And I just wanted to wish you a happy birthday and I don't think she's a huge fan But she's like she knew that on that day that I would have been freaking out Um So it's like these scars that we deal with and how we deal with them It just seems easier to run You know, you don't even really that's the thing like you don't really stop long enough to think about it You know like am I gonna die at 53 because my father died at 53?
No You know if he died on a bicycle and I ride a bicycle, am I gonna die because he died on a bicycle? No But it hurts and it's scary so I choose to run from it which is what we all do We all do it It just depends on the scale of trauma, you know like your father passed away big trauma from me very traumatic experience I can't ride a bicycle for two years I remember I think after I did that then I did right I pedal to BMX And it was like it was like I learned to walk as a toddler like I broke through the other side I faced my fear And looking back and telling this story what a ridiculous fear to have but at the time it was legit I was legitimately terrified and with every time the cranks went around I was like you're still here. You keep going. I want it to be fit I wanted to stay alive for my kids But if you pedal you might go for your kids and I'm like dude don't be silly You can keep pushing you can keep pedaling you can build on your kite This is the thing the gift that MMA gave me mixed martial arts and all the people that I was watching They were like getting fit and doing sprints and doing kettlebells and circuit training And I was like that's a lot of cardio And if you build your cardio up you are stronger when when necessary your heart rate can take it if you practice it It was just this initial getting fit Maybe I'll trigger something that the doctors don't know about And I'll die I don't want to die but just knowing the You know, I'll never forget the panic Of pedaling and then like I said 20 years later, man 20 years later, I remember getting invited to go to the Red Bull rampage thing and I'm like where's that?
They're like it's in Utah Am I like isn't that in altitude? Yeah, and then you go into a mountain to watch it I'm like isn't that even higher than just normal Utah? Yeah, and I was like I don't think I can do it I remember telling Brianna's like I don't think I I need the money But I don't think I can do it It's like I'm being called to my end You know, it's like on your 53rd birthday. You're going to the mountain and there's the other thing I thought maybe someone might make me ride a bicycle In the mountains on my 53rd birthday You're being set up to die I had to argue that and because I was sober, I sat with it And was like that is in irrational thought But man, it would have felt way better to not go It would have felt way better to smoke some weed Stay at sea level and not really think about it But instead, you know, these are these things where it's like I had a discussion with somebody who was very angry about life And he's a fan and was like, you know, I said something about You know how God puts you in situations and When you're ready, that's when the good stuff comes He tests you and this person was like, if God's so cool or he's so watching or this or that How come my friend has some sort of disease and he's going to die And I'm like, look, I don't, I think religion It can be good You know, I think when you're talking about, you know, uh, you know, I'm sure Jesus Christ Jesus was a person But I don't, you know, to me and it's just to me, I'm a channel friend, anybody But a guy, you know, that's up in the clouds, it's watching you and helping you or teaching you a lesson It doesn't, I can't know, you know And I think that's the thing that gets in the way for a lot of us to accept that there is a higher power Because when you do accept a higher power, you know, these are the things that help me Get through my day without running Is it's, it's God's plan And I know that that's like, it sounds hypocritical Because now I start to sound like I think that a dude has a plan for me It's not a dude It's life, life has a plan, the universe has a plan It could be good, it could be bad You can't do anything about it That's the thing that I take from it is I am not in control, you know, and I think we try to control things I don't like what's happening to me I'm going to control it by avoiding it Thinking about something else Maybe sometimes life is trying to tell you something that you should be paying attention to And that's the thing that I've got from this God thing Is my higher power, you know, something bad happens What do you need me to do?
What can I do? You know, is there something that I can do about it? Am I avoiding something? Well, if I am then, what is it that I'm avoiding and let me face it?
You know, like when my father in the bicycle thing, I rode bicycles, I went to the gym, I got fitter, I made it I made it to 53, I went to the mountain and I was in altitude and I didn't die And I didn't use and I didn't run and I thought about it and it scared me, I was scared I was scared all day, but I kept going because I'm not in control I don't call the shots, the universe calls the shots You know, and that's the other thing about what's going to happen is going to happen You know, like we get scared about being in planes with this turbulence, but you're okay to drive in a freeway If you've seen people drive in a freeway, do you know people purposely select the purchase of a vehicle called a rad 4? That person has a car and they're driving next to you That's way more terrifying than turbulence Why would you buy that car? You know, why would you listen to Creed? These are the things we should fear Not turbulence in a plane How many planes crash?
How many cars crash? You don't sit there and accept it and face it, you know, don't have a snack, the dodget, don't get hired to dodge it Don't dodge anything, face it, move into it And those are the things that, you know, if it wasn't such a big deal Maybe I would have taken it all for granted, you know, the, you know, the creative thing I talked to somebody yesterday about, they were saying that there's a thing you can do NAD, apparently if you do NAD, intravenously, it will stop the detox and you won't face the stuff that I went through for those four days Also, it's $500 to get it and you do it for like, oh, I think it's like three or four days, it's a lot of money So I don't think everybody has that option But when this person told me that, I said, I'm glad I didn't know about that Because the struggle that I went through to not use and stay in that room, shaken back and forth was so scarring to me that it's so much harder for me to be interested in doing something like that Once again, to me, just to me, God's plan, the universe's plan was noted No one's gonna tell you about NAD and make you sail through this Because if you sail through this, you're more inclined to go back and waste more time I don't have any more time to waste All these things that I've been given in my life, you know why I don't think I've got time to waste Because I've been on a hospital bed where they're like, you're gonna die Three times, four, four times And I've been there with the hard monitors, I'm like, this is it, man Like, why did I have a beef with this person? Why did I say that to that person? Man, I should call that person if I make it down and be like, hey man, I didn't really mean it Like, I love you, like it's silly stuff, you know?
It's not important You don't have a beef with people, it's not important It doesn't mean anything getting riled up about certain things that you see in the news or on TV It's not important You know, you're forgetting what's important in life and that's having a life Because there's people out there that don't get one, there's people you know You're gonna die soon You know, all these people that have passed away this last couple of weeks They're not here anymore, man You know? They had their run and now it is done That is coming for you Getting caught up in the smoke is just You're wasting your life, you know? And I wouldn't know this and I wouldn't appreciate my day Like I do if I hadn't had all these scars afflict me And also learning that when these scars happen That I must face them I must move into them and pass them, not avoid them Why does it scare me? Why am I angry about this?
Why does that person make me mad? Why am I, why am I, why do I care that I don't have something that someone else has? Really? Why?
Is there something that I can do about it? Well then, quit your bitchin' And do the thing that you're supposed to do to get what you want And if there's no way around it and you cannot have it Then accept that And move on with your life Because no matter where you go, what you do There's always someone out there that's got more and doing better than you But also at the same time, no matter where you go There's always someone out there that's got something worse than you So you're lucky, the people that are watching this right now If you're watching this right now, you're doing alright You got time to watch your podcast You know? Some people are not watching this because their loved ones are dying Oh, they just died Oh, they don't have any money They don't have a phone, they don't have food You know, they're wrapped up in drugs and alcohol And I don't know whatever it is debt and fear And they're crushed by life And they're like, the last thing I need to do is watch some illustrated penis I can talk about how to make it Got a $50 super chat from Zack Whoa! Zack!
Yeah You're cute, dude, we forgive them Yeah, I wouldn't have even known Someone said, happy, fat, I'm not saying it Friday Yeah? Hey, Jack, can we all just take a minute to congratulate Jason? 36 minutes in, not a single cursys Not one! Thank you!
Thank you! Thank you! Name and illicit drugs by name, that keeps us out of trouble, we look great Thank you for recognizing that it is possible for me not to be completely offensive Can I recommend a movie review? Uh, I mean, you can do it for Patreon, but I'm not doing it here Um Oh, for people watching, Jason is looking at his phone because you can text the show when you're a Patreon member And talk to Jason and he'll answer you sometimes It's true Uh, I need to apologize big guy You should apologize for calling me big guy, I hate that I talked a ton of s-word going through divorce and drinking my dumb behind through it I really think you are a hero to me and I'm sorry if I was a little bit nuts at one point or two I'm really sorry, I'll probably never hear back from you But I definitely want you to know I'm sorry and you are one of my coolest guys on the planet If you know who that is when I'm saying it to you, I forgive you You know, I don't want to carry a grudge Maybe I was annoying, maybe I had a comment, you know But that's the thing, man You know, when I'm in my right mind Having beef with somebody, you know, like the fan that was saying something about the guy I'm thinking I'm not trying to, I'm not trying to argue, I'm just telling you for me It's not, I'm not like I got my life back I'm like, I got a life I've never had I'm not back I've never been here So I can't say I'm back, you know Like there was a time there where I was like, I'm gonna get back I'm gonna get back on top, you know I'm gonna get money and everyone's gonna know me and I'm gonna be a big success That's back And now, I don't, if you offer me that, I'm not gonna say no, I'm not out of my mind But it's not what I want It's a bonus, you know, like if someone was like, hey man, I take this pill and your hair will grow back I'll take it, that sounds cool I'll be like, whoo, I'll have all different hairstyles, I'll immediately get a convertible I'll be like, dah, dah, dah, dah, dah, dah, dah, dah, dah, dah, dah, dah, dah, dah, dah, dah, dah I wear like headbands and stuff, I get corn roses for like a week I mean, I don't know, whatever, I'll do every hairstyle It'll be great, but it's probably never gonna happen And that's okay, you know, I can, I can help people, yeah This podcast, I get DMs all the time from people like, how'd you get sober?
How'd you do this? If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't have done this, the person's gonna, I forgot the number, it's got sober, I had something to do with it That's his life, he's got family, he's more together now for his family I was a part of that You can't beat that, money can't beat that Money can't buy that You know, helping a little girl drop in in an escape park Where she's completely terrified and she trying to hold her dad's hand I was like, hey man, let me help And then she made it, I did that And he watched it, she dropped in in front of her dad in a big concrete bowl Eyes on the deal with that That's what's important, I finally get it now My sponsor that passed away Jimmy, I love that dude forever Would tell me, you know, he used to own night clubs in Miami, had all this money And all the women and he had a chopper and all these things And he's like, now, you know, I have like a Honda Accord And I live at a sober living and I help people get sober And I've never been happier And the, all I could think was, oh, I don't want a Honda Accord Like, I don't know if I want to be that content I think I kind of want to be a bit of an asshole Who always needs cool stuff And I'm not saying I'm there I don't want, I said I want a Honda Accord But the people that listen right now be like, dude, I can't afford a Honda Accord Well, right now it's just stands, I probably can't afford one either But I do already own a car that's pretty cool And it's getting decked out to the point where I'm terrified to get it back I don't think I can go faster than it, and it's 10 times faster than it was I'm scared, what if I wear the tires out? I don't get any tires What about the brake pads? You know, but what I'm trying to say is You know, we get caught, it's another version of running Being successful is another version of running We think success is money Is bottle service, is popularity And I'm not saying that those are bad If you have popularity and you use your popularity to make people's lives better Then okay But if you're just doing it for you Those people aren't that happy, you know That's just what I've noticed And I think the ones that say they are happy are lying You know, like I think, um You know, like the Joe Rogan thing, people go, oh man, Joe Rogan verse or whatever it's called The guy has a club where he pays comics more than they usually get paid Oh, but they do all this material and I'm like, I don't Dude, if they're happy and if you are friends with him and you do shows And you make more money than you've ever made in comedy And he had something to do with it, that's pretty cool, right?
So it's like those things that he might have said are done that is annoying Like I don't, I don't, you know, everybody makes mistakes, you know Like people do things for the wrong reason sometimes Because you get caught, you're busy And you know, somebody be annoying and you say something annoying back Because you're frustrated, you're tired, because you're so busy You know, people with their parents and they're taking their kids to school And you cut them off and they're like, man, and you're like, no, man, man And they're in this weird little thing where you kind of sound like a butthole You know, got a 49.99 super chat Whoa, is that for not cussing? I think maybe the one sent off Mally craft, Ben through the worst right here with you Keep that iron chin up, my friend What's up, I love you I really do And the person you helped drop in that $20 from Jen, another $20 from Jen She said, I swear you changed his mental game, I have no clue what you said to him Aside from calling him a p-order Okay, now, now who it is Yeah It was a sarcastic B word Yeah, they knew it Well, it's like, you know, every time I... When you help people train you, you gotta give them that Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah Now, I gotta watch that because sometimes I do that in boxing where I'll get a little demanding, you know, because it's almost like I really do know how to talk to people, you know, and it's like, whoa, man And it's like, yeah, I'm waking you up I'm snapping you out of it because I can tell some people start thinking too much And they can't do what I'm telling them to do Because they're trying to tell themselves to do it When it's like, no, shut up And listen to my voice Because your voice is telling you to do the wrong thing Because your voice doesn't have my training Listen exactly what I'm saying And cut your brain out of it Your hands listen to my voice And it works You know, it just works I don't know how to explain it for sure, but I just know it works But yeah, man, the more I do this work The more I don't run from things You know, the greatest things in life to me now is I see the beauty in other people I will now from time to time take time to complement other people For the work they're doing in their lives and for other people And that will make that particular person feel better about themselves And then do more of whatever it was that they were doing in a more powerful way You know, and that's just kind of like, like I said, I don't know how long I'm going to be here And I've been taken Always take, you know, I want, I want, I want, give me, give me, I will have stuff And then you will love me, you know, like I understand how it works now You know, like if I do a bunch of cool stuff Then people will act like they care about me And then I will feel loved because I didn't feel like I always loved when I was a kid Like it's very sad, it's all very sad, you know, angry people I'm angry, I've been angry, you know I've been a very angry person because the anger is sadness It's sadness, I feel sad and I've turned the sadness into anger Very angry people are the saddest people People that are always chopping down at other people are sad inside It's an insecurity, that's why you're lashing out at others You know why I know, I can't really read, I mean, I can now, but like, I didn't read any of this I lived it, I've done all the wrong things And now, thanks to like, really clearing it out And being completely sober, I, this is never, after all the times I've hit it It's never worked better than it does right now Part of that is sad and part of that is good Because I'm 53, you know, this could have been firing off You know, my skateboard career I'm not in Tony Hawk's video game You know why? Because I was like, I blew it, man You know, I blew it Party did all the things for all the wrong reasons Party with all the other mentally-scared people And all those other people that are mentally-scared, where are they now?
If you didn't get your stuff together, you're gone or basically not here They both of them same, other same Uh, just Chills said this version of Ellis is so deep I don't remember him like this at all back in the XM days, much more relatable Because he wasn't here, that's the, that's what I was saying before I've never been here, I've never been me I've never, I had an inkling That I might be a good guy But I didn't have the paperwork to prove it I've always kind of been about myself He's still there, make no mistake I still want to be cool, I still want to be successful You know, like the comedy thing, I love comedy You know, I, I, I, Australia got canceled, they canceled it You know why? Nobody bought a ticket I mean, if you were not enough, they canceled it That hurt a lot What did it hurt? Why did it hurt? It hurt my ego I'm not successful enough to sell a lot of tickets in Australia I'm from Australia, Australia You don't like me?
You never liked me That's why I moved to America The scars, they attach, they make up things that aren't real You know, that's what I thought Australia's never liked me You're never going to make it in Australia America's the only place that cares about you and Canada It's not real You've been in comedy for five years You haven't been in Australia for 30 Nobody knows you in Australia You have like, I don't know, 20 videos on social media If you're doing stand up You're not even anywhere near ready to do a special Nobody's buying your ticket Because no one knows who you are And if they see a video, they might not even know you're from Australia It's not Really, if anything Booking me for Australia You know, because that was the thing when I got told, hey, do you want to go to Australia? I said, for what? And they were like, what do you mean for what? For comedy?
And I was like, really? Who's asking? And he's like, they are Well, I don't think they are I think maybe they thought I'm from Australia I have a big, I have a lot of followers on Instagram Surely I'm big in Australia I'm not And that's okay You know, but initially It really hurt, it made me sad It made me want to run It made me want to, you know, these days Eat a donut Because these are the, this is how loose Jscets get It's a donut and it makes it all better And then he wakes up in the morning and he's like, oh man, you had two donuts It's not so bad I don't feel so bad about that But it's not that bad, you know I used it now Like to me, Australia, I didn't sell, I'm not going I'm not going I didn't sell enough tickets You know, I almost sold out Wise guys in Utah last weekend I didn't sell out But I sold more tickets than I've ever sold before When I've done a show at Wise guys when I've headlined I think it's been three or four years now And nobody, one person from Skateboarding came Everybody else didn't come Also, that hurt a little bit Why? Your peers don't care, maybe they don't think you're funny Maybe they start last year and was like, I'm not going back, he sucks It doesn't matter All that matters Is that you wake up and you keep going How can I be funnier?
What can I do? How can I write some more jokes? I wrote seven jokes on the plane the other day I don't know if they're good or not I've got a pretty good feeling that at least three or four of them are good And I'm going to use those, I'm going to power them up And I'm going to start slinging them out And I'm going to have like a whole bunch of stuff to use I'm going to get better Because I'm not going to quit I'm not going to get but her Look, I'm going to get but her for a second But then I'm going to get back on the horse and keep going Because that's how it works You can't dwell on it But you do have to face it I think that's like the biggest lesson is I think I would dwell on it And not face it You know? Like I'd be like, oh no, nobody cares, nobody cares, nobody cares That's it That's all I'm doing It's just like here if I was going Nobody cares, nobody likes you Nobody cares, nobody likes you And you just walk around like that all day This is the gift in the curse You know what I'm saying?
It's like, how do you do very good with anybody job? How do you do very good with anybody job? How do you do you keep thinking about you? How do you keep thinking about you You're front-hand and you're front-hand And then you slip over to your back-hand And then you go to your tail You go to your tail You go to make sure you tell your tail And then you go to the ramp and you do it Because you're obsessed with it Why am I obsessed with it?
Because I love it Comedy, I'm obsessed with it I love it How do I do it? How do I make it funny? How do I run another joke? You know what?
You got a lot of gay jokes Maybe you don't make me Let's run a joke that doesn't involve Dude's wieners Okay Let's do some different stuff Different stuff, believe in doing different stuff You're not just a wiener boy You can do other stuff Ehhhhhh Didn't sell tickets Figure out how to get funnier Figure out how to get more stuff on social media Tick-tock until you don't stop Until people buy your tickets Until you get out there And do bigger shows And until then Keep going Just keep going Wake up in the morning Go to the gym, eat right Keep going Can you help somebody? Because that's the biggest one to me Is helping people All of a sudden I don't care about it anymore You know? I help people learn how to box I helped a child learn how to drop in Guess what I was thinking when that child dropped in It wasn't about anybody selling any tickets in Australia It wasn't about Jason Ellishow Is not some huge crazy podcast That everybody's talking about You know? And that's like the I mean a spot now where I don't You know like I don't There's certain people that could want to come on this podcast That obviously wouldn't That if they hit me up I would be like nah Because I don't care about This whole big thing I thought that this podcast Called the Nelk Boys or something I thought it was the Milk Boys Cause the British have has a list I guess it's the Nelk Boys or something And they're just like you know They got uh uh Oh man UFC guy Whatever Iliya punching him I did that 20 years ago But not Tappy Tapp I thought Shane can't punch my brains out of my butt And they took look at these guys And they got the guy at the President of Israel on them I'm like Why?
I don't know who that guy is I don't care But you don't know who you're talking to You're getting played They're playing you Don't let them play you Talk to the kids about Cars or something Speaking uh Speaking of podcast guests Uh we haven't I don't think on a public one yet We haven't talked about Everybody's asking you know where's Tully And uh oh So this would be the first public Exclamation of what's going on with that Okay so yeah the Jason L show the podcast It doesn't make any money right? Well okay Um and we still do the patreon patreon.com Where we do two Jason L shows a week With Tully The podcast There's no there's no point anymore It's not working It's never gonna pick up I think I finally came to the conclusion When I realized I was like If Joe Rogan For some crazy reason was like Jase Can I do your podcast? Which is Hilariously awesome And I go yeah It wouldn't nobody would care It wouldn't do any numbers Nobody would watch it Uh I mean I'm sure it would move the needle But not in a way where we would have a sponsor You know So you know Tully's You know he's not here all week Cause he's going He's in Japan I think Yeah He's a dad man Like his wife works And he's trying to do all that stuff And I'm like I'm making you do another hour of show For no reason You make zero money Zero And it costs me money to put it on I pay Zach Zach's in one makes money from the show And it's not a lot It's not a great vibe So to me I was like I'm gonna try and do something else The Jason L show is still a patreon thing For subscribers Those people are the people that care about the Jason L show And those people pay enough money That Tully gets a check That's worth him being here But the podcast He makes zero money So I was like don't even Don't worry about it Don't do it I'll do it by myself And I'll put in A different angle Different effort Where I'm a little bit more serious Where I try to help people Cause that's the thing that I've come to the conclusion of It's At this point I don't care about popularity If I can help one person This is why I continue to do this This is why I put my thought into it before I get on the mic Is what can I say for an hour That might help one person And I believe in it I believe that this episode Will help one person So that's what I'm doing And now it doesn't make me any money But I help one person So it's worth it Until I can go home With his family You know It's not changing anything People that watch the podcast I don't even know if they do I don't know I don't care I've done analyzing it You know I gotta do what I believe in I believe in doing this Send in this message So the Jason L show on patreon Is still the Jason L show With myself and Tully and Zach The Jason L show podcast The name is changing It will be Alice 2.0 And the photo that goes up there Will be just me And the show is just about What it's about today Making it through life You know With my I can tell you what not to do You know And that's it That's what I have to offer And that's how I'm gonna keep it You know And look If it turns around And you know All of a sudden everyone's like Whoa Alice 2.0 is the coolest thing ever And then you know I don't know Some you know Manscape or somebody wants to pay me $100,000 Then yeah man Bringing back But at this point why You know It's just dragging people So yeah He didn't die and he didn't get fired I'm just sort of I'm doing I'm doing I'm doing me on this show You know I really wanted to do something different Anyway You know And this gives me an opportunity To try and do something different While still keeping the Jason L show Like trying to have extra shows While I'm doing the other Patreon shows While I'm doing stand up While I'm coaching boxing It's just too much You know I'm getting burned out This is something new I'm excited about it You know I'm excited about knowing That this helps people I'm not saying that Jason L show doesn't help people too I'm just saying Alice 2.0 is Directed only at that You know If I say something slightly funny That's cool too But I really am just trying to like Make somebody's life easier By giving By being open and talking about What I've done to get where I am Because I think that that's Quite an accomplishment You know To be so dark You know I really was going to give up man And I feel like a lot of us Go through this And it's like how do you do it You know The creative stuff man Like I'm not going to stop with that either It's my personal war against that You know So you'll take credit from not taking Another one of you dude I'm just saying You better watch out You know Also Andrew Huberman sent me his last episode About Cratum and had a specialist on And he's going to come on here And we're going to talk about it You know So that's That's where that is That's where we are And you know I hope it doesn't bum anybody out too much You know I don't think anyone Like I said I don't You know Is anybody in the chat like Noooo What do you saw or anything like that? No No all those people Those are people that you know They come across here and there But most of them Like I think One person complained about the last podcast And I just was like You know I got onto my personal account And answered them Just to say Go look at every other comment It's like hundreds of people Thank you It's like You're the one person that's like Well yeah Because you didn't get Whatever you know You want to else to do jumping jacks With a monkey or something You know I can still do that with a patreon Exactly Yeah Yeah If you really care You pay $15 You know To surprise you Require 100% No alcohol Or can I have a couple of tricks You got to do what you got to do Alright That's all I'm going to say When it comes to that Somebody shouted out the shirt too By the way So I love that shirt Yeah Art L-Ray Art Yeah He's making my new t-shirt And skateboard So I'm excited about that To drop too Alright everybody Thanks for listening Thanks for supporting I hope it helps Somebody once again If When the podcast comes out And you listen to the podcast And you need help You can reach out to me on Instagram You know And if you miss Tully App Wolf mate If you miss Tully Join the Patreon Lowest five hours a month Get in there Some to get you some Tully There you go Alright everybody Have a good one Don't die