The Need To Be Noticed

Before alcohol… before gambling… before any of the obvious addictions… there was something deeper driving it all.The need to be noticed.In this episode, I talk about how chasing attention, approval, and a sense of belonging led me into a life filled with drinking, gambling, and smoking — three addictions all tied to one belief: that I wasn’t enough as I was.From owning racehorses to chasing wins that never came, I was building a version of myself I thought people would accept… while slowly losing everything that actually mattered.This isn’t just a story about addiction.It’s about identity.It’s about the quiet ways we try to earn our place in the world.And what it costs when we believe we have to.If you’ve ever felt like you had to become someone else just to be seen… this one’s for you.