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Give me all! That's right, people. A raw impressions number 64. Have you heard the news?
Have you heard the good news? Raw impressions has been nominated for five. Five pammies. They've been invited to the Pammier Awards in Las Vegas next week, hosted by Mark Merrin.
Ron Prashins is in the running for five different categories. Best music related, podcast. Best sound design or podcast. That has a lot to do with me.
Votirac Man, best family podcast. What surprises me considering how filthy you two can be? Of course, the best free form podcast. And the best new podcast.
You are a new podcast. I have the one you nominated for five pammies. That's amazing. Votirac Man is back.
I'm so excited. It's a big news. The pammies. I kind of didn't know about that.
The podcast Grammys? Yeah, surprise. I didn't know. I didn't know.
I'm psyched. I mean, it goes from like the Golden Globes to the Grammys to the pammies. The Grammys were last night and the pammies are next week. It's hard for me.
I have a cousin named Pam. So that's what I think of Pamie. Pam. Pam.
Pam is a real 80s name. I feel like there was a lot of pams running around in the 80s. I wish someone at our progressive school would name their child Pam. Hey, it's a little pammie.
No, that's not going to happen. What? What do I have? Wait a time soon.
Now realistically, you will win none of these. You are against some very heavy hitters. But it will be exciting to be at the awards hosted by Mark Marin. Yes, it's going to be great.
Too bad you're not going to be around you. Lou is going to be an Australia. I'm toured with Dinosaur Jr. Then I'll previous commitment.
You could have never known that you would be nominated for a pammie. But you were. And Adele and I will be attending the pammies together. We're going to make the best of them to be a dog.
You and the Unhand Vegas at the pammies are in blue 10,000 miles away. Um, wait, isn't that exciting? Well, without further ado, I'm going to hand the mics over to the dynamic duo. It's true.
Australia is pretty far away. God, what am I going to wear? Ooh, I'm excited. I'm going to go swimming.
You'll be swimming. I might not go swimming. I don't know. And Australia, some of the beaches have beach mites.
What's that? They're like these little mites that live in the sand and crawl up your legs and bite you along your belt line. Oh, Gee. Yeah.
Your belt line. Yeah, I wore some short. I was in Australia years ago. I've been there a couple of times.
And yes, you have. I went swimming in my cutoffs with my belt on. Really, it was like, I don't know. I'm your Brisbane.
Were those my old denim cutoffs? I don't know. This could have been before you graced my life. Oh, OK.
But I went swimming in my cutoffs. And when I got back and took them off, there was a line of bites like right around where my belt was. So it's as if the mites had climbed my legs and then reek got as far as the belt. They couldn't go any further.
So they just settled hands and did a dance around your waist. And then they feasted upon me when I just had like a little itchy ring, ring, worm, but I was bitten by mites around my waist. Have you seen the mites? They're tiny.
Ooh. Which I'm kind of thankful for because you don't want to see them. Do you want to take off your body when you're hanging out on the leash? How are you?
You kind of didn't even notice. I didn't even notice that it happened until I took a shower. Mites. Mites.
Mites. Mites. Can the Ossies please weigh in on that? And that's interesting.
You're like, so what? Another thing that bites you here? You're lucky it's just a little bite. The things that live in Australia, there's bats there.
Bats. The size of foxes. What? Flying in like just information.
Bats. The size of a fox. Yes. Why did you pick a fox?
Because they kind of look like foxes. The bat looks like a fox. Yes. But they're huge.
Holy shit. Yeah. Excuse me. Wow.
Okay. So I guess you're not coming with me to the pammies then is what you're saying. I'm not. Oh, I'm so sad.
I am too. Gosh, we're up for all these awards and everything. And it's so exciting for us to cap off such a where we banner year and a half now with pod living and you're not even going to be attending with me this field song. I'd like to point out that I've never heard of the pammies.
This trip to Australia was set in motion a long time ago. Yeah. I'm a little bewildered by the information. I get to see who else is going to be in that hollow space.
Is this going to be in a convention center in Vegas? I don't know. I guess I have to attend with Fort track man. It's just, you know, I got to go.
I got to represent for Ron Preshins, right? I haven't seen anything in our inbox, the Ron Preshins podcast at gmail.com. I haven't seen anything about this. But I would imagine if it's real.
We'll be getting a notification. You'll be getting a notification in the PD. Approximately five for five nominations. My lucky number.
So we might sweep it. It's like boy genius just swept the Grammys. You know, I saw Phoebe Bridgers just trying to juggle like five Grammys. So it's our turn next.
Phoebe, you're not the only one who's going to be juggling Grammy-noms and Grammys. You're juggling those Grammys. I'll be having pammies. Exciting.
Would it be inappropriate for me to say that Pammie sounds like a word for breast? Oh, I don't want to think of it. Me and my pammies. I've never thought of that.
I don't think of it inappropriate. I just know. My ex-manmate, Bob Fay, he said that people were known to refer to breasts as tammies. Tammies.
Tammies, which I thought was pretty funny. I kind of like that. Tammies. Tammies out.
I, yeah, I've never heard that. But then you brain you went to pammie. Hmm, pamm, tammies. Well, there's a reason for that, but I'm going to have to edit out.
Yeah, we're not going to, that's not going to make you a final cut. This is raw. This isn't rude. Oh, that's cool.
I mean, that's right. It's raw impressions. It's raw, but not rude. Yeah, I like that.
I mean, I try not to be rude. That's good. It's kind of like the difference between stupid and dumb. Yeah.
I think there's quite a difference actually between dumb and stupid. Stupid just feels like you really fucked up. That was really stupid of you. Like there's just this like this real scolding behind it and dumb is kind of like, okay, that was kind of dumb, but move on.
Better luck next time. This is an experience that you can learn from. Right. Stupid is you've already learned.
And you did it again. You've already learned. You went ahead anywhere. Perhaps many times, but you went and did it again.
That's stupid. You stupid mother. Yeah. It's an aggression behind it.
Dumb is kind of like innocent. I'm so relieved that, you know what I follow on Instagram a lot of like, you know what I follow on Instagram a lot of like healing. Well, I, a lot of healing things. And Snoop Dogg who seems to post a lot.
Snoop Dogg shits out the posts. Well, he's not actually, he's just reposting, right? I don't think he, I don't think he necessarily snoop. Are you reposting?
I could, I bet it's a family member. I bet it's a family member. I don't know. But it's constant posting.
Wow. Snoop, it's so much though that when I first started to follow him, I did consider after the second day like, this is too much. This is too much. Yeah.
And sometimes what he posts are like people getting hurt. Oh, yeah. I was like, I don't want to, because I don't like to see people get hurt. Oh, I don't either.
But then it was just, it was just too entertaining. So I still follow him. Anyway, so let me just say this real quick before I've already forgot what I was saying. Yeah, go ahead.
No, you didn't forget. I was saying that when the healing, yes, the healing posts that I read, the spiritual posts, the self improvement, yes, the little messages of self improvement. The book isn't enough. We got to just now add.
I've done the books now. Now I get it like just a little bit of it. Constant feed, yeah. You know, I don't really call myself stupid anymore.
You know what I mean? Do you think you used to call yourself stupid? I think I called myself stupid constantly. I think I was like always, and I think very many of you could relate to this.
I mean, like an almost constant like, wha, wha, wha, wha. Oh, oh. That tiny little guy. No.
I don't mean to interrupt. I just thought of something. I wanted to tell you something occurred to me that Lou, Lou has been in show business. He's been an entertainer for over 30 years with some success.
But after one year, one year with you, Adele, for the podcast, Pami Noms, five Pami Noms, and I think it's interesting that Adele here, here we go, Lou's been working hard for over 30 years himself, but the real talent game, then the accolades, the accolades are pouring in. Okay, sports back now. I just want you to remember that. Because Lou will, he'll tend to start talking and talking and just choking in the praise, but it's really, he's a pretty deaf person.
He's been a long time. He's had a long, long series of ups and downs, and, you know, he's been waiting for this moment, but let's not forget, it has almost everything to do with you. Oh, thanks. Stop it.
This is rather the biggest. No. My pleasure. Okay.
To be some bringing you there. He's sounding rather pervy. Rather, rather pervy. To be honest, I thought, I thought he was gone after the walk through me debacle.
He accused me of stealing song from him. And then he questioned why I was even with you. Was it stupid of me to invite him back on the podcast? Or was it dumb?
Because I mean, all of this, it's like, it's happened before. I kind of know his angle. I don't trust him. I don't like his tone.
You know, like you said, raw, not rude. And I think the way he's talking, I'm like, I don't know. I'd like you to apologize to Tina Yothers. Okay.
We're going to just go, you, Mr. Self-Help meme here. I think you need to say something. I'm sorry, Tina Yothers.
I'm sorry, Tina. I didn't, I was shooting my mouth off. That was stupid. That's what, exactly.
Because you can't speak. It's totally, it's gone. You know where it's entertaining to just sort of tear other people down? You know, tear other people down to disparage them.
Yeah, it's a lose word this week, you guys. It's not why I... Round the house. It's disparaging.
Throwing that one around. I actually spelled it for the first time recently. Okay. Disparaging.
In your journal. I've abandoned the disparaging self-talk. Can I come back to that in all seriousness? I do want to say...
Wait, can I... Wait. I'm sorry, Tina Yothers. Did I do it already?
Oh, you can you keep apologizing? Yeah. She's alive and well, by the way, living like a great life. I did not say she was dead.
Well, no. Well, we were just saying that you weren't really like, what's up? We don't need to re-say it because then that would be rude. That would be stupid.
What was the woman in different strokes? Who fell in some hard times? Ahh. Dana, somebody.
Dana. Moving on. What else did you have to say? I don't.
Okay. Sorry, I think it sounded really loud there. You might have to soften that when you go into whatever, wherever that place is you go and work your magic. Like three feet from here.
Hence why we're getting all these pammies next week. The sound design. That actually shocks me. Oh, come on.
You're the mister. I love it. I mean, Jack Antonoff, watch out. Yeah, I don't know.
He was a winner last night at the Grammys. He'll be a winner at the pammies. Wait, I want to come back to something in all seriousness. Okay.
Please. And I'm going to try to not get too emotional here because it's creeping. It's creeping up in me. Okay.
I can hear it already. I can hear it in my headphones. So close. Okay.
Well, it makes me sad to hear you say like they used to call yourself stupid for so long. And I think it makes me sad because I don't know if I called myself stupid, but I've definitely been very hard on myself when I think back on like just, I think my early twenties, I feel like in particular, I have like so much just regret and I just wish I could do it over, but I don't want to do it over. I don't want to go be 20 again. I want to be done.
But I think I also have to like let it go. I think that, you know, I was like working in coffee shops and living in Minneapolis and this is long before, you know, Lou Barlow overcame it to my life, but I don't know. I just wish those years hadn't been so bumpy for me. So, and I think I blamed myself for them for so long.
Like you just weren't smart enough to, you know, whatever, go to college after high school. And I just think that it's true. There is a time when you have to start looking at that person and stop calling them stupid and or something disparaging and say something loving. Like it's okay.
You were doing the best you knew then at the time and you've grown a lot since then. Yeah, I'm not being facetious. When I actually say that it does all the stuff, I mean, changing the way that I talk to myself has been a huge change. I mean, it's happened recently.
I'm 57 years old. Yeah. So, you know, I'm not joking. It actually.
It really takes a while. And I kind of need to be reminded as I go along a lot and it takes so long to change, you know, to fundamentally change any of your behavior and to really change and find like one day, like, wow, I'm not doing that anymore. It takes years. Like it and you have to let yourself be slow.
And I used to really admonish myself for being slow because I am. I'm kind of like, I consider myself a late bloomer. Me too. Yeah.
Exactly. I've always felt that I would be a late bloomer. So when opportunities arose when I was young, I wasn't really ready for a lot of it. And I wasn't ready to bloom.
I mean, I thrive. There is a part of me that thrives and is always thrived. And it's, you know, it's with my soundtrack and it's with my music. And then, you know, and then clinging on tenaciously to someone who approves of me, you know, and just clinging on to them and holding on to people.
So I've had my moments of clarity and happiness in there. But yeah, to really just make it like a habit to consistently speak positively to myself, you know, or just kind of chill, you know, not just, you know, think away the microscope. You know, just let things be blurry. I really, you know, enjoy blurry.
I think also for me, one of my things and I've talked about this before is kind of raining myself in before I get too carried away, you know. And in the past, that time I was just talking about, right, you know, for most of my life, I have looked at it with such sorrow and regret. I think now, and my depression was really pretty wild then, you know, like it was strong and hard and all-encompassing and I had really, really hard times. And now I just recently was having some kind of a wave of depression again, maybe three or four days ago.
I was feeling it creep in again. And I was seeing myself kind of like fiddling with the knob of the haunted house, you know, my mind and like deciding whether or not to enter is sort of like on the doorstep. And I realized that my growth is that I was pausing. I was waiting.
I wasn't just charging right in and diving into the depression and, you know, wrapping it around me like a big sad blanket. And so I, you know, I was actually able to like turn around and go, not today, not today at all. And I think when I tell myself too, like one of the things that I've grown with is stopping and asking myself, what is that place going to give you? Is it going to give you something?
And if it is, then yeah, sometimes you have to enter the haunted house and I get it. Listen, that's my life. But like, it wasn't the time, you know, and it wasn't going to give me anything. It was only going to take.
And so I am grateful for that growth and that clarity. And it's funny because it does happen slow. That being said, I, it also, I'm aware of it now, like I'm more aware of it. And I do feel like the more you practice working on yourself, you do actually kind of get better at it faster.
I mean, fast and like, I just mean that you do kind of feel yourself able maybe to reign it in a little quicker. And I think that that's true also of like our interpersonal kind of relationship, you know, the, like when, if you and I are having a conflict, I just wanted to say, I think you and I are able to reign it in a lot faster than we used to. Yeah. But when we met, I sort of started advancing pretty quickly.
It was a reward for boys in some places. Whoa! You know, I started to... Hey!
Save it for another show! Oh! Oh! You two penny-wars!
It just comes with a penny-wars. There's beauty in brevity. And some could say that that's even the secret of the wrong impression success. I know that I don't want to hear more than five minutes of lose voice.
Nobody does. It's been proven. Adele. I couldn't listen to you all day long, and I will.
I guess I'll be coming to you from the pammies next week, stay tuned. I'll be seeing a picture of me cradling. Five podcasts. A bosom full of pammies.
A bosom full of pammies. Oh my gosh, well, to our listeners, thank you for letting me touch all the, all the, all the places today. The happy place and the sad place. Man.
I was not expecting that. Neither. The kind of roller coaster. Yeah.