The Podcast Is Over

Welcome to Thunderdome. So, first things first, shows... ...over. I'm not gonna do the podcast anymore.

Not that anyone cares or they're listening, but I'll wait till a few people. I'll do one every now and then if, like I know that it's a creative guy that I wanna be on. Yeah, alright. But the bottom line, and don't feel sorry for me, I don't care.

Life is what new thing is, it's just like what it is. You know, you get to listen to the music. Ellen Watts, I don't care what happens. I'm not in control.

But the podcast cost me too much money. I don't have any money. I have to pay off the debts and the X and all this stuff. And it's way more than I can afford.

And I don't wanna do bankruptcy, so... I can't do the podcast anymore. It's just not even like, it's like an irrational move. I know that it helps people.

I was like, I just wanna help one person. That'd be worth it. And I'm like, yeah. But I got to, I'm gonna sink me.

So I can't do it anymore. I can't afford to pay anybody to do the podcast. I have it come out. The Patreon is still going, patreon.com slash Alice.

If anybody wants to hear the Jason Ellis show, and it's myself, Zach, and Tully. That's right. Tully's still there, which seems like, I don't wanna get dark, but it seems like, you know, like that's it. Like you like, you know, look, that's why I gotta, I gotta, this is the end of the podcast thing for me.

I don't really, you know, for now. I don't know, you know, who knows what happens later. I don't know. But the Jason Ellis show, you know, I stopped having Tully on the podcast because I'm like, dude, there's no, you're just staying.

You're here for no reason. You're not getting paid. You know, any person gets paid is this dude that uploads it. And then Zach, that's it.

They're the people that make money. I don't have any reads. I guarantee I haven't used it. I don't really care.

Don't use my promo code. I don't care. Fire me. I quit.

So it's gonna be a great read. Also, the people that produce my show, I don't even know who they are. My manager talks to them. I don't know who, I don't know anything about it.

They don't know me. They don't care. It doesn't do anything. This doesn't do anything.

And I'm spending time on it. And I'm like, you know what? I don't, it's like, you think you can control things, you know? I think that if I fight to get it back to popular or, and I think I've just decided that, um, I'm old and not really relevant.

I was, you know, I was cool. So you got to look at it like positively. Like it was, it was cool. I did cool stuff.

People thought I was cool. And now I'm not that cool. Maybe I will be again. Maybe I won't.

I know that even if it does turn out to work, I'm cool again. I don't really care. It doesn't really mean anything, you know? Well, man, is it is.

I'm happy with my day. I'm happy with my girlfriend. I'm happy with my children. I'm happy with my children's mother.

They're all happy with me. I got a couple of friends. Not many. But they're good friends.

I can count them and they can count on me. And that's really all life is about, you know, out to the nature with the with the bow. You know, I learn to use a bow. Maybe I don't learn to use the bow.

Maybe I miss everything. And that's God's like, I don't want you to kill anything. You're eating it. I don't know what's going to happen.

Maybe I'll become a master. And I'll have my own signature bow line. And everyone will be calling me, you know, mean Jason Bo Jackson Ellis or something. I'm just like out there, bow and fools.

You know, or maybe, you know, it just gets worse and worse. And I'm so broke. I just every morning I get up and I shoot a bow up in the air and I pray to God it lands on the top of my head. I don't know.

Oh, all right. But yeah, this is it. This is the end of this show. So I would like to thank everybody that ever listened to the Jason.

I'll show I would like to thank raw dog because people love raw dog, you know, and a tally, obviously, and Kevin craft Christian hand, all these people that did all these cool things on the show that made the show cool, Brian Cullen, the jingle, the dingle berries, you know, Will Pindavas, Scott Greenstein, the CEO of Sirius XM. It was like, yeah, man, it's Steve Bladders and all the. The people that had to put up with me, you know, complaining about this or why I know this, why I that Jude for coming on the show, making the some cool appearances. You know, I'm sorry to everybody.

If I let you down, I'm sorry to people that have ill will towards me because of my attitude or, you know, I'm sorry to Christian still hates me. He thinks everyone is laughing. I'm sorry. I didn't want to.

I really hope things work out for you. I'm sure they all do when I disappear. But I am grateful, you know, the music that we did, I was amazing. And we always have that.

So I'm always grateful for that. I'm even grateful for a Rodogs big fat, pawn star secret girlfriend that was married to somebody else that made me apologize to her three times and Rodogs kind of quit the show because of her. But I had a I had a play, you know, I was a part of it. Could have I handled it another way?

Yeah. At the time did I have the tools to handle it another way? It's not an excuse. It's just what it is.

I didn't have it. Ego. Yeah. Whatever.

Okay. For Katie for helping the show. Yeah. Produced it when we're podcasting.

You know, I'm sure I'm forgetting a bunch of people. A bunch of people made the show. You know, wasn't just me. It was a bunch of people.

Yeah, I probably should have wrote it down, but I was at the dentist facing a root canal. I was like, oh my God, or an implant. I was like, that's pretty bad. I was like, you can't gas me.

They're like, no, we're just going to grind your teeth down. I was like, man, I was hoping to spin stress. Oh, like when you're watching everything now, never, never, never, never, never paid attention. This is the price that I have paid for not paying attention.

And now I watch everything and I'm like, how much money do you get? I actually feel rude asking, you know, when someone's like, this is how much are you? Oh, me and I'm like, can you itemize that? I'm scared to say that.

Like I'm scared to ask the web guy. What exactly did you do for that money? Because I feel like I'm being rude. Because I'm so not, you know, I just let people pay people, you know, now I'm I see bills for people where I'm like, wait, I don't work with that guy for like three years.

What do I owe him money for? I want to call him be like, hey, man, have I owed you money for fucking four years? Because first things first, I'm sorry. I did not mean I did not call that.

I didn't go, hey, don't give him anything for four years. Like I would never do that. I definitely like to pay my dues, you know. So there's a lot of stuff is it's changing and and you know, it's hard to accept it to let go, you know, to let go of something that you thought would be a success forever, you know.

And you know, it's podcasting is tough. You know, it's different thing. And I'm older just like when I was at the skate park the other day, you know, there's two kids in the bowl and I was like, hey, you guys going to get out. So other people can go in the guy was like, fuck, you think you are.

You're too old to be here. And I was like, am I? I doubted myself. You know, that's the tough thing about, you know, you break your ego.

You know, ego is good for some things, you know, because you just believe in yourself when nobody does. But there's other tools than ego, but still I'm very touchy right now, like some dude said that and I was like, am I? I'm like, I'm just trying to explain you the etiquette of skating. Like you can't just stay on the flat.

People are trying to skate it as well. And like, and you can't skate. But I didn't say any of that. I just was like, yeah, man, I'm like, well, you want to do something about it?

You know, and I was like, oh God, that's embarrassing. And I'm so old. I can't tell if you're 19 or 25, I'm like, I can't punch a 19 year old, you know, like Chris, the leader of fighting. I just can't do things that teens in any, in any capacity, you know, but, you know, I think about all the good things we've done.

And they're still the patron, you know, and I know this is kind of like, oh, this shows over. You don't care, you know, no, if you can, it's still be gone because people would download it. And then I'd have a spot, a read and a read would pay for everybody to do the show and I'd do the show. But that's the game, man.

It's not that good. I'm not that good. I don't have, you know, I don't know what it is that I've done, but whatever I've done, you know, I know changing the Jason Elis at 2.0. Now you don't download it from the same link.

I don't reckon that helped. Doing a show by myself talking about sobriety. Are you all addicts? No, you know, I don't want to hear this bullshit whining about surviving in his life.

It's just what I have, you know, I got to be who I am. So this is what this is what I am. This is what I have. I haven't.

Not enough people like it and I don't have any money in. But I have friends, you know, like Lucy Block is letting me live at her other house for a way that I can't afford to live there if I didn't know her, but she's given to me a good deal. And now I'm like living in on a ranch out in the middle of nowhere in Utah in two months or now. I'm selling everything I own.

I'm selling all the couches selling painting shoes materialistic stuff, you know, the Gucci shoes, you know, the life of the young Jason that was still not even young man. So like, which is where I had dinner with my girlfriend's parents and they were like, why do you keep saying you're old? Like you realize you're not all right. I'm like, uh, to you, but like in the world of podcasting.

Yeah, I'm old and it's like comedy. You're getting better, man. You know, by the time you get to where everybody else is peaking, you know, it's going to come for you. You're very funny.

You know, you're skilled at my I'll be 65. Mate. I mean, maybe I am freakishly like young for 54. I can do a lot of stuff.

65. Can I travel all the time and not get sick? I don't know. I sort of think, uh, freaking Jordan Jensen saying she's getting on a bus because she's on the bus.

Cause she's on the road all the time. And it's getting a six. She's like 34. So that's me future tripping worrying about it, you know, worrying about being a successful comedian at 65 when you're 54.

That's a ridiculous thing to do, but it's shock. I mean, shock. You know, what I'm like, wow, all these things that are that I was not paying attention to again and again and again. How many times you can't blame anybody?

It's the same as like you're divorced. So many times it's all it's there for us. That's your fault. You know, you're douche.

You're only thinking about yourself. You said that other people you got caught your dickhead. The end, you know, all but there's it. Let's just be real.

You're dick. Yeah. Yeah. It's a dude's man.

Nothing wrong with that. But I mean, you mentioned to me married. I mean, you're going to do your scruff. Dude, you're gross.

So now you're going to give up his all my money. I'm drowning because of it too. But I've been drowning for like three or four years now. And then, you know, bless Brianna's heart.

Oh, we no longer work together, but you know, she's just trying to keep the trying to keep my lifestyle afloat. You know, I think she was like, I don't want to break his heart and let him know that like, you know, it was like, yeah, we're making every month. We're making it. And then when I let her go and like analyze what it is, it's crazy.

You know, people like, why'd you like Kevin Kevin's awesome, man? Well, you guys don't understand like, you know, credit card debt to pay him because nobody listens to the show anymore. I'm like, I can't do it, you know, I don't even it's like jail. Like he can get my like, I pay Kevin and Katie and go to jail.

But I feel like you guys would be okay with that. I know it would probably be okay with it. But again, you know, could I handle it a better way for sure? You know, I don't think I've handled much.

Well, you know, I'm tough. I'm a survivor, but what do I bitch a lot? You know, so got to let things go, man. You know, like you think you're like one of these things where it's like, I got to be in control.

I got to control. I can't control it. You know, everybody else has made the decision on what the popularity of the show. Nobody cares.

And that's fine. You know, and who knows, man, maybe being in nature and shooting a bow off a horse. I'm like, man, what have I been doing? I should have been doing this the whole time.

You know, like all these things that I am. I don't know if I am this, you know, I'm like tough guy. Am I a tough guy? I'm terrified.

I built myself. I learned how to fight. I live ways. I got a lot of tattoos.

Ooh. You know, at one point, I thought I was gay. I'm not gay. I'm not tough.

You know, I don't even know I want to fight. I contemplate, I contemplated when the guy called me an older, too old to be at the skate park. Then he might be right. I see videos San Diego, Lance Mann and Tony Hall that all skate in a bowl with each other.

Cab is 60. Is he too old to skate? You're going to kick him out. But I'm not down there with them.

I'm up here by myself. I go to the park by myself. I don't have skatebuds. And that's kind of half the, you know, I love skating with my friends.

I don't have that, you know, I'm moving to Utah. There'll be less. Actually, probably about the same. It's yours.

I go to the skate park and that'll cruise around a little bit. I can't go too high as I can't walk the next day. Here's what it is. Gonna move on.

So that's the end of the show. This is the end of the show. The end of the podcast. The Patreon still goes on when I moved to Utah.

Tally will be on zoom. Tally's talking about moving to Japan. I think if you move to Japan, that'll probably be the end of the of the Jason. I'll show completely.

I don't know. Maybe he zooms at three o'clock in the morning. I don't know how I don't know. I don't know.

I can't worry about it because I don't know. I have no idea what that means. All I know is right now. I either declare bankruptcy or make drastic changes.

So at least for a year, I have to really not spend any money and pay off a lot of things. So I can't have things that cost me money. You know, there's some new businesses that I'm trying to do. I'm making Wolfknife knives finally and I'm bringing back Wolfknife names that'll be on the Patreon.

And if you sign up, you get the knife with your name engraved in the knife. Maybe there's 10 of you and that's the end of that. Maybe it turns into a thing. I just got to keep trying to do stuff.

I might have my own peptides. I might have found a connection there too. Maybe I have a signature bow. Yeah.

I'm grateful for mayhem. Mayhem Mondays. I'm grateful for the dingo. You know, I know he's watching.

Not giving up, you know. That's all I know I'll never give up. And, you know, the, I think the darkness gets lab when you're closer to the light. You know, I think there's some big moves, big shifts in my life.

And the devil is very sad and he's doing everything he can to pull me back. And it's too late, you know. I'm on my way to another, another life, another way of existing. And it's weird.

It's like I'm kind of, I'm not really sad. I'm a little bit scared, you know. A little bit scared of change. I think everybody can relate to that, right?

A little bit scared of what, what is, what is in the future. But you know, it's like you just got to, I got to let it go. You know, what is going to happen is going to happen. All I can do is be a good guy.

Work hard. I'm doing that. I'm working hard. I'm doing everything I'm supposed to do.

I'm always trying to create new things. I wrote down a bunch of new jokes. I also don't have any place to tell the jokes in Los Angeles. I told to people about all the clubs and they go, yeah, man sounds good.

And they never call me ever, ever, ever. I told the people that don't come any clubs in Utah, they said, yep, come down. Maybe that means that I'll do more shows. Maybe they're lying.

Maybe I go, hey, man, so here I am. They'll be like, no response. I don't think so. I think I'm going to have more gigs and then I'm on the road.

You know, getting better. I got what? Holy crap. That's a lot of text messages.

That is a, that's like too much reading for a guy. Well, somebody has bobcats in their backyard. That's crazy. Whoa, that would be cool.

I can hunt a bob. Could you eat a bobcat? Cause I don't want to kill it, but I can't eat it. There's no one to clear up.

You think serious importance on this small potentially help me out. I figured you could try and ask you to help me. It's behind you. Wait, what?

Any reason to feel comfortable reaching out? Well, this might be too serious. I would love to sponsor your show, but I totally respect that you're not interested. No hard feelings.

Great time. And since I'm always looking for good people to work with your North hemp. I thought maybe Mattan might be open to something. What the?

Is this the same guy that's would ask it over and over for you? I don't even remember if you're comfortable with it. Am I letting him know? I don't know Mattan.

Isn't Mattan like an 18 year old? I don't think he does wait. Either way. Thank you.

Everything you don't for me. Yeah, I don't really. Yeah, I can't even really read it. I don't like hemp.

Yeah, I don't really care about me. This is a weird thing to say. I don't really care about the money. It's weird.

I'm having a weird. You know, discovering who I really am. I don't know. I mean, I know we need money because you got to eat, right?

You got to get a roof over your head. But I'm not like a like black rifle coffee. They pay me. They send me coffee.

They're always nice to me. And it's been, you know, they've they've helped me so much. Yeah, and then you know, a lot of people hate the boonies, you know, because they hate to pull temple. It's not a lot, but they pay me and they never never late.

And I get skateboards that I can skate whenever I want. I have people there that are friends and nice to me. Yeah. I guess I don't really, I guess you make your money out of it.

You know, maybe that's the thing. Like maybe I should have done a podcast about how gay isn't real, you know, and then you'd all listen to me. It's also hilarious. The Milo, I'm sorry, but I'm so intrigued by Milo and Tucker Carlson talking about why are you gay and how funny it is.

That's such a funny bit because why because why is anybody gay? And then the Milo guy goes, yeah, gay is just a trauma. And then he goes, I didn't watch the whole thing. And it's impossible for me to be.

I can't. The guy started his eyes. I didn't know he's I was looking at the other eye that much. He's been celibate for five years because he's not gay anymore.

Cellibate as in he can't have sex with a girl. Do you know why I can't have sex with a girl? Because he's gay and he's saying on podcasts that gay is not real because he's cured himself, but he can't touch a vagina. Do you know why you can't touch a vagina?

Because he's gay. But if he says that stuff on a podcast, you care. You know, like I'm a conservative Republican Democrat. I just not.

I don't I don't want to be. I don't know enough to say I'm one of the other, you know, Democrat. I just don't see anything good about anybody doing anything where I'm like, yeah, good point. But I also, you know, come on, man, like the FBI guy said, we got to take care of the FBI and get to the bottom of the F.C.

Fuzz turns out there's no file. He's lying. He's a liar. Head of the FBI is a liar.

He's lying. I know. You know, you got this Milo guy cross eyed blabbing about gay. It ain't real when he's just ragingly homo.

Like he's the gayest dude I've ever seen in my life. I know gay dudes. That's the thing. Nobody's going to care because nobody's watching this show, but I should be on Bill Maher.

I should be put to painting this homo. Let's get on an island. I'll take my pants off. Watch him get hot.

I'll check off in front of him. He'll suck it within one day, dude. He'd be sucking it within an hour. He would be sucking it within an hour.

I would let him suck it just to prove a point. That's the kind of guy I am. I'm not in real rehabilitated, my gayness. I know gay guys, you know.

You know how I know they're gay? I'm not going to say, but you can figure it out. And I've had sex with guys with girls. More than probably anybody in the media world.

All the bricks and bricks and bibby. I've done them all more than anyone. More than anyone's good to admit it. That's for sure.

And I can tell you for sure, just like there's a straight guy that is just straight. Don't put your win or anywhere near him because he is straight. Also, nothing wrong with it. Nothing wrong with being completely straight.

Libtards coming up to people for being proud of being straight. But you can have a pride day, but you can't be proud of being straight. It's like homophobic. I mean, people like Milo and honestly Tucker Carlson, like you've got him on there saying, why gay is not real?

Why are you gay? You're the gayest dude I've ever seen that isn't gay. Tucker Carlson laughs like a gay girl. I didn't know it like a girl, but he's a guy.

So he's gay. He's a gay haircut. Why would you have a bow tie? That's your choice.

That's gay. You want to fight? That guy fight. He fights like a gay guy.

When I say gay means you're weak. I don't care. Gay guys usually can't fight good. I don't care.

Shadow banned me. Ban might stop me from getting sponsorships. I'm fucking untouchable right now. The only problem is nobody's touching it.

I'll say whatever the fuck I want. British sharp says people don't say he's not funny with his face. You're not fucking funny. I don't mind British sharp.

He's a good dude. Every time I move on, he happens a good dude. He's not fucking good at stand up and he quit. I'll say to his fucking face.

What the fuck? Chris and Leah, you kind of fucked around with younger people. You're fucking tweet. You think I won't say it to your fucking face.

You think I fucking flinch any of you? Ban me from the comedy store. Nobody fucking cares if I go there anyway. You're well fuck about all you dickheads.

Oh fuck I'm protecting each other. It's not really that bossy because he's never going to see it. But if I ever saw him like it's a confused conflicting because I don't hate him or anything. But like you're not funny and it's a stupid joke to say he's not funny is stupid.

Now he didn't he didn't. I've already explained it several thousand times. But of course you're only gonna get the bit that makes him pissed. Like dude, if someone paid me a half a million dollars or maybe who knows more to do a stand up special after being in comedy for three years when I do it.

Yeah, it's so would you shut the fuck up. You'd all do what he did. The only reason you didn't do this because it wasn't on the table for you. So I don't blame him.

But I just saw a video where he's like people would never say it to my face and I'm like dude you think I'm fucking scared of you? You know you think I'm fucking scared of any of you? I mean okay let's be real. I am scared of you.

I'm scared of everybody. You think I won't fucking do it? You know I'm scared of everything but I will face everything. Scared of this show and I quit.

Also, Quentin Tarantino is a foot fucking faggot. Shadow ban me. I give a fuck. You talk shit on Bruce Lee at your first mistake.

Go fuck yourself. You're fat. You've never been an athlete. You don't know shit.

He's not very good at combat. He created. He's the first person I ever saw a video of him doing MMA. He had MMA gloves on in the 70s.

Shut up you dickhead. You're a dickhead. And now you say some people are not good at acting. The guy that was against I drank your milkshake guys a bad actor.

I thought he did a really good job. But who am I compared to to you know you footfuckers. But also remember when he was asked about Harvey Weinstein and he didn't really say anything about bad about him. So you're not going to say anything bad about Harvey Weinstein but you will bring up to the guy that played fucking shaggy and scooby-doo's a shit actor.

You know what you know that makes you a fucking dickhead. You're fucking dickhead. That kind of sums you up. You're a dickhead.

You're a Hollywood giant celebrity who was good friends with Harvey Weinstein back in the day when you knew it's on record. You said you knew you wish you had done more but you didn't do anything about it. You know you didn't do anything about it. People that do creepy shit to women and smaller people and then you still hang out with them.

Piece of shit you know. I can't afford to make a promo of anything that I've said to unleash on social media on my social media that is shadow banned so none of you will see it. As I'm saying this I'm realizing that I am basically telling Zach my problems. Sure I can say that this is this is so much fun.

I volunteer myself. Really? I can say it's just it's just fun. It just so doesn't matter anymore.

It just so doesn't matter like the corruption the lies the bullshit the things that you only care about. You don't care about real shit. You know which is why I'm okay with this ending you know like I'm going to go to Utah. I already fed the horses in the snow in the morning.

I fed the horses at night as well. I can walk to these horses not my horses also once I'm in it. You really I think people think you know the horse that I'm with all the time. It's not my horse.

Whitney Cummings is rich. She has a horse she can pay for the food. I don't pay for any of the food. Sometimes I bring him apples.

Not even supposed to but I sometimes I you know we're bros here. I'm giving it away. Like there's going to be a garage sale here. You can take everything.

I don't want anything shoes. I mean the shoes I bought at the Macy's. What's this the rack? Nordstrom rack.

I like these you can't have these because they don't have any shoes and Pam's am from DC gave you some Ken Block shoes. You can't have those but everything you know I'm selling everything and I'm going to Utah and I'm going to get a bow and I'm going to do horse force every morning horse force everybody on YouTube. If you honestly horse force Jules and Jason horse force where we're raising money already donating to a horse charity to actually trying to get a job at one of them in Utah where I can actually be there and learn some more horsemanship and help the horses that have the need help and if there's a horse. He then needs a home that is big enough to carry my fat ass.

The mass Lucy if that horse he can live with us and then I will teach the horse to allow me to shoot a bow off his back and then I will be a hunter and I will be in the woods of nature hunting. Deer and coyotes and coyotes for warmth. I'll be making jackets and loincloths and deer one deer and then freeze it and then I'll be living off the deer. Oh yeah.

Oh you're around. Dear me. Ah and I live next door to a buffalo farm so I'm going to have some buffalo because there's a huge chance that I'm not going to be able to get shit near deer. Let's say right in front of my car.

That doesn't count. That's cheating. But yeah fuck Quentin Tarantino. It's a weird thing to say.

Talk shit on people being like this. Mean stupid. What else is there? Oh.

Ah fire to a show. That guy is a fucking idiot. Yeah that's amazing. That's actually one of the most.

That's kind of I'm pissed I didn't get to go to that because that's incredible. That guy has a video going. People said that I couldn't have porta potties on a pontoon. I don't think anybody said that.

Like I want to do videos making fun of him and pretending I'm him and going. People said that I couldn't wear red socks. Look at these socks they're red. Nobody said that.

They just said your shit was going to suck. It sucked. Everybody was right. Also French Montana sucks ass.

Anybody that does a collaboration with Chanel West Coast is a fucking retard. And a whore. You took the money. No I really wanted to collaborate with her because of her musicianship.

No one's ever said that. You're not good at music. You're average at best. Fuckin tour singing other people's country songs.

You karaoke cunt. It's a problem I'm just never gonna say. Give a fuck. I don't care you know.

I just don't care. Not bad any of it. It's all bullshit. Nothing means anything.

Being pig in comedy doesn't mean anything. Natalie Cuomo is huge in comedy. I don't, okay? Really?

Okay. Sure. Why not? Why isn't Yaku the clown doing your main stadium?

So I don't get it. I don't care to get it. Skinned do spots. Shoot bows.

I see it. Right horses. Sit with horses. Sit with horses.

You don't want them to sit with horses? I'm sick of sitting with you. You're full of shit. Sorry I'm pissed.

I gotta let it go. I'm trying to control. I don't want to let this go. I think I'm scared that it will never come back and this will do to be a thing in the past.

You know. Like there was a time there where if I went to the bowl, nobody would call me old and too old to be here because I wasn't old. But now, he had a point. And also, back in that era, I could have punched that dude in the face and the police wouldn't have arrested me.

Now, I don't know. Maybe he was 18 or something. And then I would have assaulted a child. But it burns me.

It burns me that I can't beat you up. And that's, I've got to work on myself. You've got to be like Jesus. What would Jesus do?

Jesus wouldn't punch a kid for being a dick. Yeah. But I want to punch him. I still want to punch him.

He had a bent, he had the weird cleft lip thing with the bent nose. Do you know how hard it was to not say, look at your face? You know. I'm a smart ass.

And I went, okay. I was just trying to explain to you the rules of skateboarding, man. You're going to be a dick about it. And I was like, you got a bent dick on your face.

I was like, yeah. I don't know how I don't know. I don't know. Maybe you're right.

Maybe I'm a dick. Maybe I should disappear into the bush. Yeah. I think the podcast thing and the skateboarding thing can kind of be similar in the whole like.

In the past, you disappeared from skateboarding and then you came back. So you never know how things are going to go. It's always the end of the flow, right? Nah.

No. I think coming back on Tony Hawk's nuts doesn't really count. You know. Let's face it, dude.

People recognize me now because they're like, it's the guy that was on that podcast at Tony Hawk. But that's okay. But you ain't recognized for doing cool stuff is overrated. It shouldn't mean anything.

You're unhealthy if you think that's what is special. That's what I'm trying to say. It's like it doesn't really, it's all kind of silly now. When you get older and you step back and look at it's kind of silly.

It's great that we get to try things. But, you know, getting, you know, I don't want, I'm not interested in wood carving or anything. But if I did, it'd be cool to make a table, you know. But it's like, well, you're not going to get a lot of likes on Instagram for making a table.

It's like, what give a fuck about Instagram, you know. I think God shadow bammy. Because he's like, dude, you think that's like the answer? You know?

Like you think this whole thing is like what, you're just going to keep running? I think this is God trying to get me to face myself. You know, I don't do drugs. I don't sleep with other people.

I don't do any of that stuff from running. But I'm still like trying to be famous. It's a way of running, you know. Once you get, once you go fuck off and live in nature, get a job, you know.

Run a business. Step back. You know, that's why I'll do the podcast for, there's a guy I know, Street Gonsos got a documentary I watch about Puerto Rico and how it's all corrupt. We can do that.

I wish I could help him more and people would watch it. You know, and then these other people that have like a, create him sort of living or something. If I can help, I will help, you know. If you know anybody who needs help, all these episodes of Elastu.0 are going to be up on a playlist still.

So you can always send, if you're out there listening, you know, someone needs help. There's plenty of Jason's prior episodes. There's a little bit of check out. Sure.

But if it's like, you think it'll resonate, you know. I guess there's a documentary about the whiskey videos that came out. A couple people messaged me about it. I did interviews for it.

They never told me. So he was like, man, you really appreciate your vulnerability in this documentary. I was like, what documentary? Like whiskey.

Like whiskey. And there's a premiere of it in Vancouver. You should go and do shows. And I'm like, that's a good idea.

I don't know anything about it. Those people have not contacted me whatsoever. I have no idea about that. I would like to see it.

I do remember doing an interview about it. Yeah, you don't know about whiskey. Yeah, whiskey was like the snowboard videos that had like skateboarding and stuff. It's Canadian guys.

And they were real. It's crusty, the clown. Is it crusty? Yeah, crusty, the clown.

So a bunch of us, depending on who it was, would dress up as this clown and do it. Or a snowboard trick or a snowboard trick. Or one guy did a back flip off like a two story roof and broke both these ankles. But according to the people that when you watch the DVD or I think it might even be a bit of a chess back then, it's one guy.

But it's not. It's all of us. Boozy the clown. Boozy the clown.

That makes more sense. That's right. But yeah, they were like cult videos, you know? And I had made a bit of a splash in one or two of them.

I was drunk with roller skates on and people were pushing me off a jump ramp into a hop-hop and I hit my head and I did a big rant about rollerblading, very aggressive. And it was in the clubhouse. It was in my house because they gave me the pad room to live in. So those are great times.

But I guess, you know, all of us, a lot of the main characters became alcoholics. It suffered quite a bit from all that stuff. So I don't know. I haven't seen it.

I have no idea. I just know that I thought about the guys that did the video and how cool I thought they were and how we drank very aggressively and smashed bottles over our own heads all the time. And how much fun it was. So I don't know how to, but I did say, you know, there's a price.

There's a huge price. I had to get sober or I was going to die. I assume that a lot of those guys also did the same thing because I honestly, I think the way we were doing it, you don't make it to 50 doing that. Your body is going to tap.

So I'm glad that it came out and did something special. It would be good to know about it. So I'd love to go to Canada and sort of, you know, tie a whiskey premium and I'll do some stand up and maybe people would go to the show and I could sell some merch and, you know, pay some pay people. That's all I do, you guys.