Hello and welcome to another episode of the Row Impressions podcast. Okay. That was quick. Yeah.
We're trying out a new... It's the best we could do. A new MC vibe this week. I'm looking at myself and now I'm looking at you.
We are recording ourselves on our laptops and so we're back you guys. We're doing what we're supposed to do which is capture ourselves speaking while we do our podcast. Okay. It's the video element.
It's so important, they say. They say, yep. So hi. Hi.
It's Wednesday. It's time for us. So this pod will be coming out on Thursday and we're... Should I say the roof news that we're processing or that we're thinking about?
Domestic, a little domestic news flash. A little domestic news flash. And people, you're not... Maybe not as important to other people as it is to us.
It's kind of monumental. It's kind of a big deal. Mm-hmm. Yeah, we have...
Probably only something you do once in your lifetime maybe. I hope so. I hope so too. Right.
Is our roof... We need a new roof. Our roof is fucked. It's actually terrible.
That's really bad, Jake. The people who lived here before did a really bad thing. But I set up the attic. I set it up for John, Davis, and I to practice.
It ended up being too cold to practice. But we went up there initially. And I saw huge drips coming from the center of the ceiling of the attic dripping huge drops directly onto an old full-complosion record. Right onto it.
And then right next to my actual good guitars, because I put my good guitars towards the middle of the attic thinking that that would be the place that they wouldn't get leaked on by the roof. Because we do have a couple of other small leaks that I've been managing over the years with buckets. You know, it's... It's like...
I've been doing it, but this was a fucking leak. This was a big-ass drops. But I think I caught it right when it was really happening. So we averted any real water damage.
Yeah, we did. Good job. The timing was very... Once again, it's one of those things.
It's bad news, but we found it out at a good time. So we had someone, we had a man come from Westfield, Massachusetts today. Westfield is where I spent my... Teen years?
I spent my developmental year from the age of 12 until 1819. Yeah. With a little bit of maybe 2021 in there. Sprinkled in there.
And I went back home here and there. Yeah. So we knew a new roof and whoever did the last roof did a really stupid job. And our guy blessed him was trying to say it in the most kind way.
He was like, how do I put this? It's not right. That's what I'll say. It's not right.
And I'm like, mm-hmm. It's not right. So they're gonna have to make it right. And I...
We're gonna have to pay. We're gonna have to pay. Oh, God. Okay.
Well, good thing is I got a relatively busy year coming up. Thank God. Relatively busy. Hopefully it'll all work out.
Yeah. The year of the roof. Last year, what was last year? Actually, we...
Just the other day, you asked me, like, what are we gonna do? What are we gonna do? Because we have to make some and we live in an old fucking house. I mean, this is not as old as some in this neighborhood.
We live around houses from the 1700s, the 1800s, the 1800s. Our house is 1894, I believe. 1894. So it's one of the babies on the block really.
It's one of the younger buildings. So but just the other day, you're like, what do we have to do? Because our windows are fucked. The front door is the swing front door is fucked.
The deck is fucked. Yeah. Homeowner stuff here. Right?
This is home. Possibly have like a whole colony of chipmunks living in our walls. We definitely got some congregation of rodents. Because they all kind of party and shit all over this one spot in the attic.
Luckily, there's no leak there either. While they do it, it's dry there for them. Good for them. They haven't.
They just love that pink rug up there. They love it. It's like they circle up and they just take a big shit together. We love those.
I don't know why. They're like, but like, it's a toilet. It's a toilet. And I will be taking the mattress topper that's sitting next to that.
I'm going to take that to the transfer station. We've talked about the transfer station before. But that mattress topper needs to. It's going because you don't want to ever give it to anyone or anyone to be.
Here's our mouse dropping mattress topper. Nope. Nope. You don't do that to people.
So yep. It's active in the Barlow House. There's things happening. I do remember we've also had birds living in the event.
Oh, they're still there. They're relatively contained. Yeah. And I don't think they nest in this event for our bathroom.
None of their detritus is coming into our bathroom as far as I know. As far as we know. There could be like a huge pile of shit like just above the vent. The vent blows up.
So hopefully it is still blowing up. It is still. Yeah. So, you know, maybe they just they're starlings.
Maybe they clean up after themselves. Who knows? Starlings, the clean bird. I don't know.
Remember when we found a starling in our wall? No, I don't remember that. We have these squirrel. No, that was another rodent.
We don't know what it was that died in the wall behind the stereo system. Remember that? Oh, I remember that. Remember when, okay, so our former cat Bob was still alive when we lived here and Bob was a gal.
Bob was a girl. And she was quite a cool cat. And we were in our living room one night and I heard scratching and I was like, Bob, I immediately went to school to her, which of course, you know, she wasn't actually a big scratching cat. So, but of course that's your instinct to just, you need school to catch Bob.
Stop scratching. And as I said it, I kind of like leaned over to see where she was scratching because it's not like it was coming from the other room. And then I looked down and she was just sitting there right by my feet quietly, like just like, geez, mom, kind of throw me under the bus. I'm right here.
And I was like, Oh shit, where'd that scratching come from then? And so then you and I went over to investigate and we heard the thing was still alive. So many pieces of my past are fading. I get ready for a new segment on the wrong precious podcast.
This is Lou's depressing journals. Lou feels that it would be in some way cathartic for him to read from one of the many sort of fragmented, fragmented thoughts of his slightly younger self or old enough to know better self for sure. Okay, this is the continuation of our dear diary. Yeah, Adel, Adel should choose.
I want the brown, the middle brown one. Yeah, that one. Yeah. Okay, because I like the pattern paper on it.
Oh my gosh, you're going to do this. You're going to rob dog that journal. That's what happened for me. That's scary.
I'm not doing that. This is the I'm going out on a ledge a little bit here on the wrong precious podcast. Okay, I'm reading right now right away gender conflict, honestly captured your heart, sharing your nature, making you laugh. Charisma is it knowing what to say, making you laugh.
Natural catchy cute with a mystery. Follow while you can. There could be someone for every change. Are you afraid of time?
The weather, the silent wrinkles and fades under your skin. Are you afraid of time? It's taken forever, but we finally arrived. And under your skin, under the skin, I'm blind.
A mission filtered. Oh my gosh. That was that mean. Your diary reads like a poem.
You're a poet. Oh, there's a line, friendly neglect no longer protects my heart. I used that in a song. You did?
What song is that from again? Lazy mind from Brace the Wave. Brace the Wave. The first up.
Yeah, so this line came, I don't know when this book is from, I don't know when this journal was done. No dates. No, there's no, I don't date anything. I almost aggressively don't date dates.
It's like almost like trying to be incognito. Yeah, I make it, I try to make, I really make it so coded. It's like coded. I know, I know, I do.
Poems, coded poems. I rarely make journals where I'm like, this is what I did today. And then I did this. I, they're always kind of coded and like, almost, in these kind of awkward rhymes.
Hmm. Oh, this is back. Were you afraid of time? Huh.
I never expected a war. When you feel ignored, you draw that old line. I know you're afraid of time. Held on, it's a reflex.
I thought about thinking it through. Double wide, double life. I don't, I don't learn lessons, I choose them. We choose to listen.
Powder keg. Thick and delicious. Hold. I thought about thinking it through.
That wasn't really depressing. It was just intense. I felt like I was on the edge of something the whole time like what was going to happen next. Oh my gosh.
And something about time. What was it? Are you afraid of time? Are you afraid of time?
Wow. That sounds like the name of the album. Wow. Okay.
This dates it. You gave me something I need to leave alone. You gave me something I want and turned my heart to stone. This is from 1998.
That's lyrics from one part lullaby. Wow. So I pulled lines from this. So this is actually, so there's a line in here that I ended up using almost ten years later.
Oh my gosh. Yeah. I was working on that song back then. I don't know.
I guess it's weird. I guess, yeah, this is a, yeah, the song someone you love is actually. And that's fitting because John Davis was just here. Full conclusion.
Yeah. We were just relearning that song. Oh, really? Yeah.
I like that song. That song is one of, that's a really intense song. Yeah. It's one of my, it's one of my, the song has a little bit of a fighting spirit when much of what I wrote around this period of time and much of what I've written is largely about sort of resignation or accepting, you know, being accepting or allowing my boundaries to be crossed.
It's generally about that. It's rarely do I make a boundary in a song and that song is like, I don't want to be someone you love. It was a very strong and true sentiment. Of course, I didn't follow through on it back then when I wrote it.
It did make me, it did empower me briefly when I recorded that song. It was a little bit of a bright light in the dark time. I'm actually impressed that you kept it because you're right. It doesn't really fit in with your storylines that you generally, you know, gravitate toward in your songs where there's a lot more of like self blame or something.
I don't know. Do you know what I mean? Yeah. But like this is more just like, yeah, I don't want that.
Really? That's super rare. It's very unlike you. So unlike me.
It's unlike you in real life too. Not just in song life. That's good that my song life does actually reflect in some way. And maybe it's not good.
Is it good that it reflects my real life, my song life? I think it is. It means I'm genuine, right? Am I genuine?
Yes. I think you're genuine. Thanks, Adele. You're welcome, Lou.
I think you are also genuine. I know that's something that I need to get in my life. That's something I need to put in my life. I am genuinely sensitive.
I'm very sensitive. I was thinking about that the other day and how I've told you this before, but like my high school guidance counselor told me I was overly sensitive. And I was, you hear that stuff. And I know I'm like an older woman, but it is hard to shake sometimes like that one line you hear and you go, ouch.
I just echo this through your life. I think it's also because he said it with it to seem like disdain, you know, and he was sort of like not really paying attention and sort of just sort of set it off the cuff while like kind of spinning in his little chair in his office. And you know, his little moment, he probably maybe he never thought of again, right? But then I was always like, gosh, am I overly sensitive?
You know, and I've now seen, of course, then the age of knowledge that we're in and information with like TikTok and Instagram videos and therapists and stuff like that out there being like, hey, did you know that some people are actually overly sensitive and that's okay? And that's a real thing. And it's a ball ball. It's kind of a talent over sensitivity.
Yeah. You know, and some of the most insensitive people can also be overly sensitive. It's true. It's true.
It's true. Yeah, I've noticed that a lot. Am I insensitive? I don't think you're insensitive.
No. Like ever? You consider what you say. Sometimes you draw some hard lines about things that you do have boundaries.
Yeah. And you do have common sense, right? That you exercise. You actually have common sense that you apply to your life.
In my case, I do believe I have common sense. Do I apply it in my life? Have I applied it in my life? Not a lot.
Well, yeah. That's what I was sort of expecting to come upon that when I was reading my... I was like, I'll do this random journal thing and then I'll end up reading something really... I thought I would get in...
I mean, because there's a lot of these journals are full of like just screeds against myself, just these... Just like where I'm like, I'm on a path of just putting myself down or explaining my limitations. And not to say that I was hoping that I would come upon something like that. I'm kind of glad that I didn't.
And I'm also glad that I saw the germ of what is one of my... You know, someone you love that song. Yeah. It's all meant to be.
Just rehearsing it and now you've found the journal and John is here. I really don't know when these... Like, they're not dated. They're not dated.
They're just... Mm-hmm. But in a full. Just where?
It's very, very rare to fill a journal these days. I... Oh my gosh. I almost never fill a journal anymore at all.
It's like I have so many barely started journals. I can't stop starting them and then I don't finish them. Only when I was really a lot younger, like in high school and then in my early 20s, did I really fill a journal? Like, start to finish, fill it.
And I also filled it with just like a lot of writing exercises because I was doing writing prompts from writing down the bones, then Adley Goldberg book because I just love her books and I love her writing and she writes a lot about how to write. So anyway, I would mix kind of my personal journals with her writing prompt exercises. So it was kind of easy to like fill a whole journal then, you know, too. And I think it was her.
She used to say like, don't... I believe. I think she used to say like, don't buy a journal that's too precious or something. Just buy like a notebook or something.
So you're not worried about trying to fill it with like good thoughts or important thoughts or like poems or, you know, like a composition book. These were my main things for a long time. And I do feel that pressure. When I have a nice journal because I'm drawn to beautiful things, I do feel like, oh God, what am I now tasked with filling this beautiful journal?
I really like that. I had a series of journals that were made by these, I think they were Latvian brothers in Silver Lake. What were they called? They had this, there was two of them and they looked as if they were like Russian mokes.
Where were they? They were like, and they were on, they had, I think they had a shop on Hyperion. But they made these beautifully bound journals. Do you see that?
How many photos? Yeah, it's beautiful. Baltic. It was the name of the store was the Baltic.
Yes. Do you know what I'm talking about? Yes. Oh my God.
The Baltic brothers. Right. And they really tall, really interesting guys. Oh, the real.
They're almost at stores still there. I really, I did really, when I bought that journal, I was like, I'm going to fill it and I did and I really... It's so loved, it looks gorgeous. And this is one of the scariest journals I made.
I mean, while I was in the depths of some pretty heavy, like that picture, there's a picture of that little sketch drawing. Anyway, it was not a good time. Dark times. It's here.
Some of the pages, some of the stuff in here is so dark that I went through and I put duct tape over the pages. So I could never... Recently? No, no.
Like back then, this was just, this was in the midst of like super hardcore times for me. Let's see how I like, see how I duct tape them. So I knew, because I didn't want to get rid of the whole journal, but I duct tape these pages knowing that you can't, if you take off the duct tape, you won't be able to read what's behind it. That is so intense.
That is so intense. This is a really, this... I'm going to duct tape these... Wow.
I'm in the journal. You know. Well, a journal is either, you know, truth or half truth or nothing coded. I think I was always thinking that I was always trying to...
It's hard for me to just sit and write sentences because I do try to like, I'm always thinking about internal rhymes. I'm thinking about the phrasing. I'm thinking about the phrasing, I'm thinking what it would sound like spoken or sung, no matter what I'm writing about. So it's very hard.
That's cool. I don't think like that at all when I'm writing. I don't know. I mean, I don't know.
It's partially like it's a laziness that I developed really like during high school when I didn't want to write anything and I refused to write. I refused to write anything I barely graduated because I refused to complete any assignment in my senior year. And it was like this really intense like procrastination, masochistic procrastination is the only way I could put it. It was like, I had to finish the most basic things because by the time that I reached my senior year, I had like my scholastic levels had dropped so much that they were insinuating that I was on drugs or perhaps had some sort of a disorder and I barely graduated.
What I did develop is fragmentary. Gosh, I just have to find one of my old journals. You gotta find it. It's up.
I did. I hog this one. No, hog away. Okay.
That concludes another episode of the Ron Prashin's podcast. Thanks to Lew and Adele for bearing their souls and sharing themselves once again. I am fucking man. Fuck it man.
Alright. See ya.