The Shit Show Continues, Existential Panic at 5:30am, Surviving the Week Without Numbing Out

This week my brain decided I was about to lose my job.Nobody actually said that. Nobody told me I was doing a bad job. But after a colleague was fired and a rather hostile meeting about “being watched and audited,” my nervous system went straight into threat mode.5:30am wake-ups. Arguing with management in my head. Planning financial collapse before breakfast.Normally weeks like this end in alcohol, junk food and shutting down.This time something different happened.Instead of numbing out, I checked in every day, tried to stay grounded, and focused on what I could actually control.Result: I survived the week… and somehow even lost three pounds.This episode isn’t really about weight loss anymore. It’s about learning how not to burn my life down every time my brain panics.