The Squeeze Between Eclipses

A reflection on the two weeks between eclipses, the Manifestor initiation into informing, feminine grief and exhaustion across generations, and the realization that leadership is not doing it alone, it's learning how to move energy with others.For the past two weeks between eclipses, I felt what I can only describe as the squeeze.The pressure of the old self dissolving.In this episode I talk about what surfaced during that time: anger around early motherhood that revealed deeper layers of grief and exhaustion — not just my own, but something that felt collective, something carried by women across generations.I also share a realization around my own Manifestor initiation arc.The three conflicts with the closest Generators in my life that forced me to confront something I resisted for years: informing.Manifestors often feel like informing bends us out of shape, like we have to become someone we're not to make other people comfortable. But what I realized is that informing is actually the opposite.It is the initiation that teaches us communication, leadership, and mastery of the throat.The paradox is that when we lean into informing — when we “double back to first base” and touch base with the Generator types in our lives — we stop trying to run the bases alone.And instead of forcing a home run alone, we hit it together.This realization came into full clarity on my 33rd birthday, leading into the 3/3 Blood Moon Lunar Eclipse, the same night I saw DRAMA live at the Commodore in Vancouver.And their show felt like a perfect reflection of what the new paradigm looks like:Artists who move you.Artists who activate you.Artists who help usher in the New Earth.Embodied women who are the most influential force on Earth.