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EPISODE · Jun 24, 2026 · 39 MIN

The Version of Me I Was Trying to Outrun

from My Verbal Journal: Let’s Chat · host Maci Jones

In this episode, I get vulnerable about the five years it took to stop running from myself. From being the girl who said yes to everything — the drinks, the late nights, the validation from men — to overcorrecting into rigid routines, isolation, and perfectionism, I share what it actually looked like to swing between two extremes and call it growth. This one is raw, honest, and for anyone who has ever felt like they were performing a version of themselves just to survive the week.What we talk about:The all-or-nothing mindset and why it kept showing up in every area of her lifeWhat "the girl who said yes to everything" was really chasingHow the overcorrection looked healthy from the outside but wasn'tOver-exercising, undereating, and what she learned from itWhy neither version of her was actually healedThe girl in between — who she's becoming, and why it's still a work in progressFollow:⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Personal IG: @macileejones⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Podcast IG: @myverbaljournal.letschat⁠

In this episode, I get vulnerable about the five years it took to stop running from myself. From being the girl who said yes to everything — the drinks, the late nights, the validation from men — to overcorrecting into rigid routines, isolation, and perfectionism, I share what it actually looked like to swing between two extremes and call it growth. This one is raw, honest, and for anyone who has ever felt like they were performing a version of themselves just to survive the week.What we talk about:The all-or-nothing mindset and why it kept showing up in every area of her lifeWhat "the girl who said yes to everything" was really chasingHow the overcorrection looked healthy from the outside but wasn'tOver-exercising, undereating, and what she learned from itWhy neither version of her was actually healedThe girl in between — who she's becoming, and why it's still a work in progressFollow:⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Personal IG: @macileejones⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Podcast IG: @myverbaljournal.letschat⁠

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