TICK TICK

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Hey... Welcome to THE TEENAGER'S DIARY where you hear the different feelings, thoughts, and emotions of the teenager. Well, this is your host, SHADOW SPARKLING. I'm a different teen of 14 and I hope to enlighten you by sharing everything I have. Well,... Today, we are going to talk about "TICK TICK". And like always, I would love if you keep an open-mindset while listening to this. FEELING OF UNSATISFACTION. I spent the last period of my class at our newly opened school, watching the time change in my digital wrist watch ?. It has been changing its second place by luminating a certain number of lines out of the 7 lines 7??. Well, I have been tired a lot than the usual??. Mainly because the offline classes have been what it was and thanks to our changed habit, I am quite FUCKED UP every single day I go to school PHYSICALLY ??. I have been reading a lot and I think at the end of each day that something was missing. I don’t know what missing most times but I end up with a SENSE OF UNSATISFACTION. ?? “WRONGS”. Ever happened that you remember that you gotta do something important, REALLY IMPORTANT, and you set in your head’s calendar when to do it ??. But when the time comes, you forget what you should do. FUCK! Really, I FEEL YOU ??. You know, that’s why I have taken a way to not forget what to do. I maintain a Word document labelled “wrongs” where I put the good and bad stuffs that happened that day and also write what I WILL DO THE NEXT DAY FOR SURE. That goes under the sub-heading “TODAY’S HEADING", followed by the date. Rarely and very rarely, I can’t do the thing which I deemed to do ??. Like for example, today my today’s highlight was that I’m gonna write in my diary which is what you’re reading right now??. I make sure I do that because it does the VERBALIZE (kind of) part. VERBALIZING is an easy thing to fulfil your goals. ??Wow! Sometimes that helps a lot ??. My parents don’t know and they think that I meaninglessly waste my time on my laptop. But I FORGIVE THEM. ?? DOMINATED BY COMPLETE SHITS. That was SHIT. When they say that you’re not smart enough or it’s not your AGE TO UNDERSTAND THIS. Seriously ??? Why don’t they say “I am not well versed.” or “I don’t understand itself myself to make you understand that.” I hate it when they say “YOU HAVE ENOUGH TIME.” Because the thing is you don’t know when you’re gonna DIE. Death is an unexpected phenomenon??, I believe. I myself ain’t sure much about DEATH ITSELF. I don’t know when I’m gonna die but the thing is, NO ONE DOES ??. NO ONE LIVES MORE OR LESS THAN THEIR DESTINED TIME. And there’s a probability that I could be DEAD the next moment. And it’s not just about me, it could be you too. As per facts 2 persons are dying every second and though it’s small, but there’s a CHANCE that you could the next human to LEAVE THIS WORLD BEHIND. And hence, it feels that I SHOULD DO FIRST THINGS FIRST. But TIME’S NATURE ITSELF IS SLIPPERY and I though aware of my MORTAL NATURE, I just wish I COULD LIVE till my dreams are fulfilled. GETTING STRONGER DAY-BY-DAY. It’s always been there. We never felt it. No! we never heed to it. This TICK TICK TICK… it’s getting stronger day by day??. And we are still spending our time doing things which ain’t productive and we are gonna end up with huge regrets on our deathbed, we didn’t take control of our own TRAJECTORY. I am doing things like that and I’m improving slowly. I am WALKING SLOWLY BUT I’M NOT GOING BACKWARDS. That’s satisfying. I am getting up early at 5am now and I’m doing stuffs which I think are steps fulfilling my DREAMS. Though my dreams are materialistic but I still want to fulfill them. I have been hovering over this MORTAL REALM. We all are. Our death-clock is TICKING STRONGER EACH SECOND AND YET WE, UNAWARE OF YAMA (GOD OF DEATH), SPENDING OUR MOST IMPORTANT ASSET DOING SHITS. We can control the way we respond and guess that’s what matters. That will be all . Thanks for being till the end. Sign up to my weekly newsletter , where I will remind you about the things you might have missed. It's FREE and will come on SUNDAYS . You just have to scroll down to the footer. I would be extremely grateful to you for doing that hard work of scrolling . Check out my INSTAGRAM & TWITTER accounts too. And also, you can get to know me at my FACEBOOK PAGE & PINTEREST. They too are at the bottom . Or you can simply click at the three lines at the top right. Goodbye, till we meet in the next entry . This is Shadow Sparkling signing off.

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