To go off the past is tempting, but I am reminded of how it makes me

When evening comes, I realize that it is time to take my pills because I consciously look at that clock because that certain hour is nearing and I know it. A lot of times I think “What if I just skip this one time?” I am ashamed to admit that I’ve done it and while I spend the majority of the evening on a manic high because of my inability to sleep. I am often reminded how others see the ways I act in the coming days and then I know that I must medicate. This episode is also available as a blog post: http://dustinsdynastyusa.com/2021/03/09/to-go-off-the-past-is-tempting-but-i-am-reminded-of-how-it-makes-me/