Trailblazing through the Chaos

Hello, and happy full moon hangover… :) How did that full moon in Libra treat you yesterday? I’m writing this exactly as the moon reaches her fullness, as I sit on the deck of a log cabin in the Panamanian mountain jungle, watching hummingbirds flit around me in the humid evening air. I’m here on a trip with my entire family: my partner and daughter, my brother and sister-in-law, and my parents, who both just celebrated their 75th birthdays (and are the reason for making this journey). We arrived here when the sun was in the Gate of Shock, and I’ll just say this: I wouldn’t recommend traveling with family during the Gate of Shock (haha), especially when everyone is detoxing (slash having withdrawals from) the American shitshow that is this current moment in their own way. Lots of relational issues have been rising to the surface, which can be expected when you’re crammed into a van together cruising along windy roads, but especially when a full moon in the relational sign of Libra is acting as the energetic overseer. This was the first full moon out of eclipse season, that long and deep underground portal that sucked us under for the past month. On the same day, Libra’s planetary ruler, Venus, stationed direct after 40 days retrograde— and she brought with her lots of new relational revelations out of her cave of reflective mirrors. Making this full moon all the more exciting, Chiron, the wounded healer, was sitting opposite the moon, conjunct with the sun, bringing deep wounds (and hopefully some healing balms) to the surface. During her fullness, luna was shining bright in the Human Design Gate of Continuity (Gate 32) across the sky from the sun and Chiron in the Gate of Growth (Gate 42). This opposition highlighted the polarity between emotionally holding on tightly to patterns from our past (moon in Continuity) and consciously helping an old pattern to end in order to make space for a new dynamic- and hopefully some healing. (sun and Chiron in Growth). Sometimes full moons can bring tension to the surface, and other times they can provide the perfect opportunity for balanced reflection and breakthrough. How did all this show up in your world? This week, we have a whole new slew of powerful energetics: Mercury (recently direct) enters the fire sign of Aries, Mars enters the fire sign of Leo after the longest retrograde ever in Cancer, the sun continues it’s transit through the Human Design Gate of Growth (42) and enters the Gate of Ordering (3). On Sunday, Taurus Season begins. The Gate of Ordering moves from the Shadow of Chaos to the Gift of Innovation to the Siddhi of Innocence- returning us back to the first gate of Aries season, the gate of the baby lamb-ram that ushered Spring in on the Equinox. In a state of fear, we believe that chaos means disorder and that we must control it through order. But what the energy is all about this week is actually that chaos means Void- similar to the root word for Chasm- and that something completely new can be formed in a void through the powers of creativity and innovation, rather than an obsession with order and control. Aries season began in the Gate of Innocence and then proceeded through the gates of Opinions, The Hunter, Shock, Growth, and now Ordering. The baby lamb has grown up into a fully mature ram. He has learned that we can only go after our own desires after we learn about the opinions of others. He has learned that the periods of the greatest growth often come after a shocking revelation, and come when you are willing to let something end in order for a new, better thing to begin. He has discovered that the messiness and chaos of the void is the perfect birth place to blaze a trail, to spark a truly different innovation. As we move into Taurus season at the end of this week, I invite you to reflect on how Aries season, and all of it’s micro-seasons and energetic frequencies, showed up in your world. Journal about it, visualize yourself as a lamb growing up into a ram on a mountain peak over the past month. This year, situations are changing incredibly fast, and so we too have the opportunity to change quickly too, into the version of ourselves that we truly wish to align with. Let’s dive in a little deeper to the energies of the wheel of the year this week. Sending you all the beauty and power of Venus as she returns to her forward speed and motion. This week in the Wheel of the Year: * MEDICINE WHEEL Direction: East * WUXING Element: Wood * PAGAN Season: Ostara * ZODIAC Season: Aries > Taurus (April 19) * I’CHING Hexagram/HUMAN DESIGN Gate: 42 (April 11-15) > 3 (April 16-21) * 42 = Wind over Thunder (Yi: “Increase”) or The Gate of GROWTH * 3 = Water over Thunder (Zhun: “Sprouting” aka “Difficulty at the Beginning”) or The Gate of ORDERING * MOON Phase: Waning * PLANETARY Transits: * April 16: Mercury enters Aries * April 18: Mars enters Leo Let's dive in. The Sun’s Journey through the end of Aries: From Growth to Ordering The Gate of Growth (Gate 42): April 11–15 I’Ching Hexagram 42: Wind over Thunder ("Increase")Gene Key 42: Expectation → Detachment → Celebration As the Sun continues to move through Gate 42 this week, we’re being invited into a powerful, sacred journey: to complete what we start. In Human Design, Gate 42 is the energy of Expansion and Maturation — but not the frantic, scattered kind. It’s about nurturing a process through its full cycle, from seed to bloom to harvest. In the I'Ching, this is Hexagram 42, called Increase — symbolized by Wind over Thunder. It teaches that true abundance and success come from adding energy to what is already growing, not constantly chasing something new. It's about tending to what’s alive within you, patiently and joyfully. The Gene Key for this gate goes from Expectation » Detachment » Celebration: * At the shadow level, we meet Expectation the trap of trying to control how things unfold. * Through awareness and acceptance, we move into Detachment trusting that life’s rhythms are wiser than our timelines. * Ultimately, we arrive at Celebration fully embracing each moment as sacred, no matter how messy or unexpected it looks. This gate is often misunderstood. Growth doesn’t always feel glamorous. Sometimes it looks like tending a project long after the excitement fades, watering your inner world even when the results aren’t instant. It’s showing up with faith, knowing that with time, your efforts will bear fruit. 🌱 Reflection for the Week:Where am I being invited to commit more deeply?Can I let go of how I think it should look and celebrate how far I’ve already come? Practical Tip: * Pick one thing you’ve started recently and recommit to it. * Rather than rushing to the next shiny idea, give your energy to what’s already sprouting. * Watch how life rewards that steady devotion. Mantra for Gate 42: “I honor the journey from seed to flower. I celebrate each step of my growth.” The Gate of Ordering: Gate 3 (Wed, April 16– Mon, April 21) Midweek, the Sun shifts into Gate 3, bringing a totally different — but equally vital — flavor to the energy around us: Order emerging from Chaos. In Human Design, Gate 3 is known as The Gate of Ordering, but don’t think of it as neat, tidy organizing like lining up books on a shelf. This is about natural, organic ordering, the messy, beautiful way a river carves its path through rock over time. In the I’Ching, this is Hexagram 3, called Difficulty at the Beginning, symbolized by Water over Thunder. It reminds us that every new beginning feels chaotic at first. Structures are still forming. It takes time for a new life, idea, or relationship to find its footing. The Gene Key for this gate tells an equally rich story: * At the shadow level, we encounter Chaos — that wild, unpredictable energy that feels overwhelming. * As we surrender to the unknown, we disc… This is a public episode. If you'd like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit www.livingthespiral.com/subscribe