Un-Believing in God- Ep. 1 of 3

For most of her life, Nicole Zeller negotiated with God. Struck deals. Prayed during CF exacerbations. Promised to be better, do better, live better, if only her body would cooperate. If only she could breathe again. In this episode, she names what she's been circling for years: she doesn't believe anymore. Not in anger. In clarity.Nicole unpacks the question she was asking wrong; why does God allow suffering? and explains why the honest answer wasn't a theological argument. It was a math problem. The ledger never balanced. And at 53, she stopped trying to make it.This is the first episode in a 3-part arc on faith, evolution, and the construction of a purposeful life without a deity. If you've ever felt guilty for not believing or relieved for the same reason, this one is for you.