What's going on everybody it's your boy Davon and welcome to a special rant episode following in my boy Jay footsteps if you missed his rant a few Saturdays ago I'm kind of following in the same footstep Individual going by myself on this one. They won't all be like this Of course, we'll have plenty of rants with him and I on it, but I felt something the other night and I told him about it And I said I want to kind of just record this almost like an audio journal and it's something very close to my heart Something that I just now realize and prayerfully somebody out there who is maybe going through the same thing, you know Prayerfully this will help prayerfully this will Make you feel like you're not alone Perfully it'll help you to feel like you're in brotherhood in this fight It's primarily towards men to be honest with you But you know this applies to everybody and maybe you know a man who may be experiencing some of the stuff I'm gonna be talking about I would suggest that I would pray that you would share it with them and I'm hoping that this will Will bless them, you know, but today we're gonna talk about vulnerability vulnerability and it's clearly a common phrase and clearly a subject that you know has been discussed on not just podcast but TV shows Classroom, Janaena, but I came to a Tiffany recently. That was very very weird for me. It was revolutionary It was mind blowing even though it was very simplistic and it's also I would say very demanding as a call to action after my Revelation But I'm gonna talk about it now and I guess I give you guys a brief history about why this subject popped up and why I think It's important to kind of rant about and Throughout my life, man, I have I have been pretty pretty blessed pretty blessed man.
I grew up With a tremendous family connection. I love my family My parents have passed away, but so many cousins, aunts and uncles who I haven't had enough time to spend with them in these in these years But growing up man, we were our God seen each other every weekend and one of the things that I loved about our family is that we never hit our feelings And that would be a good and a bad thing, right? but we constantly created environments safe environments where we could talk and we could express and Sometimes it would come out very passionately and anger sometimes who would come out and sadness a lot of times it would come out enjoy and excitement and happiness and all the emotions you could imagine you never had to second guess what my family was feeling and That made me feel good. It made me feel like if I was in a certain space in my life, I could you know, I could I could express that I would have to hide that But I will be honest as I got older and spent less time with my family more time with my friends more time in college things like that I found myself becoming less expressive and far more mask oriented where I was just so concerned about whether or not people could handle the level of transparency that I grew up in and You know the culture that I was trained in can I utilize that that same freedom with other people and clearly?
As you get older you realize you can't just be that free with everybody They're your family for a reason But there's other people out there who just don't have that same connection care or feel for you And so I kind of learned how to pick and choose my spots on where to be vulnerable and ironically as I was getting into my early 20s I made a series of decisions that were just crazy. I dropped out of school after having a full-ride scholarship and music and went to pursue money and Lost everything and ended up homeless and it was during that time where I was homeless where I really did feel like I discovered the Lord I grew up in church My parents were faithful to making sure that I was in scripture in prayer and in church and shout out to them But but truthly I had no experience that that made God real for me and going homeless will do we'll do that for you, huh? I ended up losing everything going homeless and that's where I found the Lord on the couch I was sitting laying on the couch in my in my mother's retirement home and Found the Lord and ended up making a series of changes that eventually led me back into not just back to the faith But truly rooted in the faith and I'm telling y'all when I got like when I finally came out of that weird depression suicidal funk that I was in and I really felt free in God it was the perfect blend of What I grew up in as my family and then the revelation of who God is as a church goer Combining those two worlds just being free in Christ was amazing man And so right on that time where I got free my pastors Trusted me to lead a college ministry and I always bring this up because college ministry is just like a huge piece of my heart It was where I cut my teeth is where I formed, you know, a lot of my leadership learning and all that stuff anyway We I ended up becoming a college minister and so I was dealing with college students. I'll mind you if you remember what I said earlier I had dropped out of school when I got out of high school So I was going back to school as a freshman at like 25 So even though I was a freshman at 25 I'm dealing with a lot of college students who are like 18 19 So I'm like the elder states man no matter what class I'm in I was older than most of the graduates And so it was very interesting to be a college master as a freshman in college It was just a weird interesting dichotomy and dynamic between me and the college campus But what it did do was it gave me a space to be vulnerable and transparent telling people about my testimony what I had been through Most people were trying to question why I was that old back in college as a freshman And you know that was a perfect opportunity to open up to the gospel and share my testimony the whole night So I had trained myself kind of for the first time to be vulnerable outside of my family and constantly being vulnerable with that constantly You know sharing my testimony.
I was known for probably saying too much from the pool bit I'm being honest too much from my stances and too much from you know You know getting platforms and eventually some at some point I don't remember exactly when but somewhere in my my time of doing ministry. I ended up becoming the assistant pastor at my church and One thing I found out very quickly is that church ministry and college ministry are in of themselves very vastly different that's the different methods very different environments and cultures and And I learned that there's a level of transparency that you can have with college students because you have the same green age group coming through every year But when you're dealing in a church setting there are people who are far beyond your years far younger than your years But then there's also the bigger thing is that you have this You have a collection of people a community of people who are coming from different backgrounds and different you know Different ideologies and so some people were not really groomed on how to handle vulnerabilities and handle and securities And so you know you would have people who would use your testimony your struggles your Transparent moments when I say transparency like there would be moments where I was like literally like struggling with like pornography And I would I would be open with my brothers about that You know I mean and it calls me sure that was great That was fantastic, but when you get older When you get into a different setting like a church setting there are a lot of people who would weaponize that and It wouldn't be you know It wouldn't be immediately in your face But you would just you would sense it you would hear things that would come back and before you knew it you were not You didn't feel safe anymore. Well fast forward To where we are now my wife and I have been pastoring a church here in Houston, Texas for about three years going on for and I cannot tell you how in love with our community I am just the most beautiful collection of souls That I get a chance to serve with and serve in and serve you know as a pastor and What I didn't realize until this week and this is where the vulnerabilities come in when I was a college pastor I always had my pastors over me, you know, I had people like Pastor Dre Pastor Chuck, you know Melvin McGuire pastor Leon Pastor Rob I just had a whole I had a whole collection of covering Elder Clay Bond, you know Pastor Tyrant There were just so many people Pastor John DeCure who was probably one of my biggest coverings I had these people who I could run to and know that if I messed up, you know I had those people who would be like they would not only correct me, but they would cover me And so it let me be free with my Transparencies of vulnerabilities because I knew that if something would arrive even if somebody tried to weaponize it I had a covering and to be honest with you I still do But when I became a pastor Like a lead pastor I still have my pastors those same people that I mentioned I can still call on to this day And in fact I call on most of them But it feels a little bit different when you're leading a congregation and you're leading people who are older and you're leading people Who are younger and you have a difference in responsibility And there's a certain level of fear that I did not know I inherited this fear of failure and so much as so that I did not want people to See me weak anytime that I would even mention transparency It was always like speaking about something that I just got over or something that I just got passed or something that you know I always talked about my issue in a past tense not in a presence tense and what I realized was is Is that I had been convincing myself that from my previous history had always been transparent I've always been vulnerable But I did not realize that that vulnerability had began to decrease over time almost to the point now that I had to look up This we can go I don't know if I feel safe to tell people how I'm really feeling and I have plenty of awesome with you my head like you know pride and all that stuff But one of the things that came to me immediately was was thinking about not just from a pastoral perspective But how many men feel like they are holding the weight of the world and whether it be leading a business leading their family Trying to lead their own life, right? There's some I have you know, I have young guys in my life family and friends who are just trying to get on their feet They're trying to do the right thing and it's an immense amount of pressure And the biggest thing for men that is hard for us to hold on to our heart I'm sorry now hold on to but hard for us to express is the fear of failure And so what we'll do is we'll overcompensate on one side by being you know overly machismo You know what I mean like we'll start accentuating all of our strengths while never talking about our weaknesses You know when certain people ask us what's going wrong or what's going on with us?
You know we give convoluted answers because if we we feel like if we really told the truth about where we were mentally and Where we were emotionally not only would we appear weak which is not so much the issue It would be that our leadership would be failing that we are not as strong as we presented ourselves to be Men in marriage feel this so much men true men who are trying to raise their kids feel this as well It's it's this idea of I have I have so much hanging the balance on my decisions on my success And you know it's funny like you know, I'm not getting to the idea of how different it is for black men But I will just tell you this in general that Men are often fighting battles mentally that most people including the women in our lives mother's sisters wives whatever Will never know and part of the reason why they don't they don't say anything is because they feel like nobody else would understand There is a cultural there's a there's a so minimal cultural pressure for men to be all things to all people We have to be a dynamic father who's always there and is who's always there for their kids always able to be there No matter how tired we are while also making sure that we are working hard enough making enough money to not only supply their needs But to give them what they want we have to make sure that our wives are taking care of and covered that we have to have a listening ear Even though we're frustrated, but we also have to make sure that we are not we are not putting our knees before theirs If we want sex we have to make sure that we are not trying to utilize our women as tools But instead that we are loving them well and making sure that their emotional mental physical needs are all met Financial needs are met at the same time that we are amongst other men We don't ever want to you know, you know acknowledge there are moments where I don't feel like a man You know, I mean like there's a pressure that you know, you gotta you gotta wipe those tears suck it up and get back out There and be a man grow up and I noticed that even as a pastor that happens inside the church outside the church But what it slowly does is it begins to chip away at what it really means to be an authentic man I think what we have what we have right now are molded and manufactured men who have been molded in the image of their forefathers Maybe their father who didn't express, you know, their feelings That's how they've been taught to to deal with life is not especially feelings. Just buckle down and handle stuff Maybe there is a special with social media. There are certain Celebrity figures whether it be their physical nature their money stature their celebrity status that presents this persona that we as men need to meet Like I gotta make sure that I can at least be that we see how women respond to certain men in in social media or in certain men who are Thriving and they're calling me go man. I got it We create this pressure in our mind that man my woman won't be proud of me unless I'm on that level and These are battles that are being fought that most people won't understand because we can't think of a parallel comparison Now get I want to make it clear this is not a comparative suffering session where I'm saying that men suffer more than men I'm not saying that what I am saying is that men often feel like our struggles are different Because the truth is that anytime there's a single mom the first question is where's the dad Anytime that you see that there is a child in need where the child doesn't have you know the right clothes or it looks like the child Is you know not living out a certain standard the first question is where the parents where's the dad and so as a provider as a covering as a As what we would call in church the priest of the home It becomes it becomes overwhelming at moments where we feel like we're drowning but we don't have the option to express our our failing and Here's what I kind of came up with man.
I I realize that a true authentic man is Is is someone who essentially? Has learned how to be all of who they are despite the consequences that come with it, right? In other words like it's it's almost as though. It's almost as if when we become full grown men What we tend to do honestly is we tend to we tend to forget How beautiful our childhood was we forget how awesome it was for those of us who had fathers in our lives How awesome it was to be able to not just father's any male figure being able to go and be inquisitive and ask questions You know if you maybe had a mentor Maybe there was somebody in your family an uncle or grandfather or something who taught you how to do certain things change breaks on your car Balance a checkbook how to talk to women whatever the case may be man They were there to teach you those things and that level of camaraderie and that dependency that we had in that childhood state We were able to be vulnerable without literally without any judgment We could ask the question we wanted to ask we could fail and all of that what we become grown We feel like that part of our lives is done and we're no longer It's like almost like when you get to 18 19 20 or whatever you graduate to this level where it's like no You can't be vulnerable anymore now you need to be the grandfather the uncle the dad that that those men were for you And because those men that we were following oftentimes did not show us their vulnerable side It creates an essence of little responsibility that when we get to that age that we are not allowed to show up at our vulnerable side I'm doing this rant because I want to invite men back to the space of their childhood I'm not asking you to be a child I'm asking you still be a man But don't forget what helped form you into a man because here's the truth your age does not determine your maturity Your ability to navigate life learn from lessons and so forth wisdom does and so if that is the case we never really stop maturing We're always trying to gain wisdom when what if I try to gain wisdom we have to be vulnerable and I know I don't really know What I'm doing in this area?
I don't understand how this works and I don't know what to do next and I don't know what the next move is and and I think We've lost that so we actually will fake it until we make it and oftentimes we don't even make it We just become functional to a place and we just repeat the same cycle that was done for us. I remember So I'm not gonna go deep into this because it's not what the episodes about but when I say my parents passed away I mean my grandfather grandmother they raised me Harold Lee Johnson Ruthie me Johnson my biological mother passed away a few years ago as well But my physical dad my logical dad shot out Wayne Taylor my ace He's so alive, but I grew up in a in Harold Lee's household and And here we was very much a he's military. He was military all my life and a kind Loving loyal dedicated man one of the greatest men that I could name my life I watched it firsthand, but I remember a particular moment where his mother Shout out my great grandma ray. She passed away and In our house, you know, this is this the details mean really nothing But I want to kind of set the scene for you We have like our kitchen and right behind the kitchen We had a washroom and the only time you went to the washroom was if you were going outside the back door to go to the pool Or if you were going literally wash clothes every now and again you go They had a back we had a fridge back there that sometimes we'll go, you know have extra food But you would never go back there.
Um and so One day man, I didn't even know my grandmother had died my grandma had died and I couldn't find my dad I was always one of three places either number one. He was in the garage mess with his car Two he was sitting in his chair watching his TV or three he was at his desk Paying bills he was at none of these three places and I couldn't find him But I heard some crying and it was it was driving me nuts because I know my mom was crying But I that's the only other person outside of myself who would be crying in her house And so I went to the back room where heard the crying and I saw my I saw here I saw my I saw my dad crying and he was crying his eyes out man And he was crying his eyes out and his back was towards me But he clearly heard me walk in and I remember saying these words so they said daddy are you okay? And it was so wild he turned around. It's the only time in my life.
I've seen this man cry He turns around tears in his eyes sobbing and his first words out of his mouth were I'm not crying because of you and I was like I I could like in a moment he was saying that I was like I can't figure out like because of me I was I was in here watching watching TV. What do you mean? And he was like I'm crying because I'm hurting and At that point I don't know where my mother came from she came in she rushed in and she's like she's like son You know why don't you go back to your room and I go back to my room and I don't know what conversation my mom and my dad had in that Washroom but from that day forward. I never saw my father cry again.
I saw him experience extreme loss He he had a actual he had a biological son. He had biological son. His biological son passed. I never saw him cry He had he had a brother his uncle picky he passed I never saw him cry My dad got laid off of work a job that he had been working at since he retired from the military did not cry I saw my father get divorced from my mother and didn't I just met there were so many scenarios where I was like man Surely this will be the moment where he goes back to vulnerability.
He never did it. He never did it I ironically I asked one of his best friends his name was uncle Henry He was a deacon of the church, but they were war buddies. They were they were armed Air Force buddies, and I remember asking him one day I was like man. I said I said I'll be on your seat my dad cry and He said something that was I've heard it over the years But it didn't it didn't make sense when I heard it the first time and he said he said nephew He said men from this age he goes we were taught men don't cry and you give me explanation as to why you're not That's if he was just like men from that era we didn't cry now For me it didn't set a precedent for me, but it was the only explanation I had does that make sense?
So Not only was I raised by older people my grandparents I hung with all their friends That's why I had uncle Henry in a uncle John car and all these people They were all my friends They were all my friends they were older people they all came from the same era So it was the same thing that uncle Henry said that was just reinforced over and over again So in my mind the older I got I don't know I fell into this idea that even though I didn't come from that era that men that were headed towards that age we just have to learn how to not cry and We had to learn really what not crying meant was don't be weak That's what it meant to me when it was when we talk about crying what it really meant was don't allow yourself to be vulnerable What a disservice that was for me to adopt that thinking and I don't I don't fault them at all To be honest with you most of the conversation my dad would have with me was how difficult it was growing up in the 50s and 60s Then he would talk about he would talk about racism and what he had to endure And so I get why weakness was a really an option for him. He was fighting a different kind of fight and you know I'm not gonna get into how close we still are just some of that and just how black people are treated, but I Feel bad now Because my dad never had an opportunity to express what he was really dealing with even when his even when his mom Died he had to go hide himself and then and then and then try to shield me from seeing that side of him What an incredible disservice? I feel I can't imagine the amount of battles he fought mentally to the day he died that he never had a chance to express and What I was faced with this week was I just noticed a lot of areas in my life where I'm weak and I have not grown up Plenty of places that I have I'm very proud of who I've become but I'm very upset with some of the areas that I have Not and where I pinpoint it is because the areas where I have not grown are the same areas that I haven't been vulnerable in and I was telling Jay this I was like man. I can name like four or five people That I can be completely transparent with and I don't feel like my vulnerability will be weaponized in the future I have like utter complete trust with these people and they're not just men But then I also told him I said man there are people right now in my life out here in Houston who are incredible brothers Incredible and they have been nothing but not just loyal to me But loving and covering like there are some things they know about me that are such big weaknesses that if they really wanted to ruin me they could do it they could just run it and I'd be like nana's the truth I just I don't know and Even with them there's a certain level of trepidation I was I feel because there's a part of me that feels like number one I don't want it to be weaponized but number two I need to make sure that I don't fail in front of them I mean after all my pastor now right pastors don't fail I Think um as we get ready to celebrate Easter tomorrow In case you guys are wondering when this episode was taped.
It's the Saturday before Easter I've been doing a ton of studying about Peter and Just how crazy it was for him to deny Jesus after clearly telling the man he wasn't gonna do it I'm not gonna deny you Lord. I'm with you all the way and even if it says it in the scriptures all the disciples are saying the same thing They're about to like you know we've gone home for you and then like there's this moment where Peter is the nine Jesus and It's in the book of Luke the count and Luke has one specific verse in there that is far different than the others The other gospels mention Peter the nine Jesus and then walk and then walk away weeping bitterly right having his biggest failure as a disciple of Jesus But there's one particular scripture in Luke where they add a sentence in I think it's Luke or John I feel like it's Luke I could be wrong people who are John one of those two where it says that after he after he denied it said Peter denied and then it said that Jesus looked directly at Peter after he had denied him and Then it goes on to say that you know Peter walked away around away weeping bitterly and I just thought that one line is so interesting because It's one thing to fail and Peter was clearly trying to do what he was doing in the in the guys of secrecy and he's trying to You know he didn't want people to know and he's trying to live in like this anonymous space while Jesus is being tried in court But but to know that Jesus saw him in his failure had to be a different level of hurt is one thing to hide your vulnerability It's another thing for your vulnerability to be seen does that make sense like when you have somebody in your life My wife is amazing at this when you have somebody in your life who can tell that you're lying about what you're going through or somebody Who knows that when you say I'm okay? They can read beyond that I'm okay and see that there's a broken version of you right behind that there's a hurting person right behind that There's an angry person right behind that an immature failing person behind that. Hey, I'm okay When you when you realize that there's a person like that when you fail it feels even worse because you know that they know you know what I'm saying like you know that they know and If there's anybody that I would not want to know just how ugly and nasty my heart is and how much I fail in private and in secrecy It is Jesus.
That's the last person I want to know but it's ironic that he's the one who knows all He knows more about me than I do even Jesus told Peter what was gonna happen before Peter did it and What it taught me was this and this is kind of my rant But this is my invitation to anybody who's listening but primarily men Where we fail we may fool other people We may accentuate our strength so much that people could care less about our weaknesses, but the Lord sees it The Lord knows it the Lord knew it before we saw it He knew that we were gonna have issues before he even formed us in our mother's womb Before he sent us to the earth He knew that we were gonna have some proclivities and some issues that were going to lead us to a place of failure He knew it. I'm not gonna get to the theological discussion about why he didn't fix it before he sent it That's not the point the real point is that because we live in this following world. We're gonna have some failures I just come with come with life The beauty in what God has given us though is community its community and You can't be in community without vulnerability Community without vulnerability is really just a business relationship It really is in order for community to be authentic vulnerability has to happen And one thing that men don't do is We don't do community well without having to hide where we are that's why we go to barbershop We don't talk about real issues going on with us. We talk about sports and we talk about our opinions on politics and all of that stuff But we don't we don't talk about the fact that some of us are behind in our rant We don't talk about the fact that some of us just had a huge argument with our wife and we don't know how to handle it We don't we don't talk about the fact that we feel like a failure because our jobs get make we make enough to get a haircut We don't make enough to put money in the savings account that we are one emerging financial emergency away from being homeless We don't talk about that stuff.
We don't talk about the feelings. We feel like we are with our kids How like we work so hard to provide for them, but we're never there for them We don't feel we don't talk about that stuff and so because we build these groups We don't really build community and because we don't build community We don't have vulnerable spaces and so we just live in our heads and it's killing us It's destroying us It's keeping us in areas like I just discovered in myself where we are maturing a lot of areas But immature in a whole lot of other areas and we never truly become this mature version of ourselves because we refuse to be vulnerable About the things we're really going through so I'll leave you with this. This is the scripture That I have read over and over in my life that has a whole new weight and meaning now James 516 says this Therefore confess your sins one to another and pray for one another so that you may be healed So I want to make it very clear because Jesus died we are forgiven The blood of Jesus gives us gives us the that's what gives us the ability to live in that forever forgiven status Our sins are forgiven because Jesus paid the cost there's nothing I can do to to to out send that there's nothing I can do that could work hard enough to earn God's forgiveness Jesus had to pay it all that's that's the gospel in a nutshell But that's not what James 516 is talking about. It's one thing to be forgiven It's another thing to be healed And it says confessing ourselves one to another our sins and just so you guys know We've done a horrible job of explaining sin to those who are young in the faith or even holding the faith Or those who don't even know the faith sin is just mean that there's a mark that's supposed to be met and we miss that mark Another way the scripture puts it is if you know to do right and you don't do right that is sin That's what it is.
Okay, we know the right thing to do and we don't do it, right? We miss the mark there was an aim that the Lord had for us There's an aim that the Lord created for us to hit and we didn't hit it we missed it We missed the mark, right? We tried we fail we sinned right? The confession of where we fail the confession of where we miss is in and of itself an outward act of inward vulnerability And what scripture tells is that when we do that that is where healing comes And I feel like most of us as men have lived in this forgiven place But we have stopped living or aiming for the healed place and I did that I did that I'm saying I've been walking with the Lord for Some years now I've been pastoring for some years now And I'm just now realizing on April 19th of 2025 that Devon Johnson has been walking around forgiven but not healed and I want to tell you there's a better version of life Not where we stop failing but that we grow up out of our failures There's a different version of life where our conversations with our brothers allow us to weep on their shoulders express our Discontentment show our depressive state and it not be weaponized.
There is a community that can be built There is a community that we can that we can make that goes beyond who's greater LeBron or Jordan There's a different level of life that we can live that goes beyond trying to flex how great of a car we drive is There's a version of life where we can be in a place where we don't have everything that we've been pushing for But we have everybody we need as we continue to push There's a version of life that you have where you can you can literally call up somebody and say man I don't like today was the worst day ever. I feel like giving up. I need you to pray with me I like I just I don't need a solution. I need my brother There's a version of that there's a version of that and I'm telling you that life is so much more freedom than you could ever imagine man You're gonna battle for the rest of your life We as men are called to war it is a part of our mandate as men, but you don't have to war wounded You don't have to find a way to be functional with your wounds you can pause for a moment and get healed Before you have to go back to war before the next circumstance pops up before your kids do something crazy and act Before your job lays you out before you have find yourself in a financial situation You can actually find solace in community.
There's vulnerability There's vulnerability in us that is waiting to be unlocked and that vulnerability is gonna create healing for us It's gonna create we need therapy. We need other men Husbands you need to you need to talk to your wives and be vulnerable with the one that you said till death do as part you need to be vulnerable with them They married you they already married you like you're not trying to prove your man who did them They you don't already locked her down bro. She's with you. She didn't already said I do And if I'm being honest with you if you're being vulnerable with your wife and she throws you to the curb because your vulnerability She did you what she did you a favor?
I've been to say that that's not the woman you're with I'm praying I think the women that we have in our lives are ones who know this was really funny about women They know our weaknesses in our shortcomings well before we acknowledge them. They're just waiting on us to stop being stupid I'm ranting which is the whole purpose of this episode In a way, this is partially cathartic for me But I pray that it's healing for you. I did I pray that you find community And I want to tell you something like I know I know social media has a whole you know idea about what it is an evil in a minefield full of just stuff that could drive you crazy But part of what we're doing with twice born is trying to create some connection So that people can find community like I know it sounds crazy because our subject be all over the place But really we're trying to prevent you from feeling alone And we want you to know not only who Jesus is but who we are and we're here like I don't know if you know that but like we get Our email address we out here J open in the comment section, but like we're here like we don't want you to feel alone I don't talk in a minute today, but that's for anybody man. We don't want you to feel alone We both are pastors we both are pastors J's a pastor at a church our pastor church Our lives are dedicated to making sure that people know that Jesus is alive He loves them and that you are not alone and he built a community of people that we call the ecclesia or the church It's not a building.
It's not an organization. It's a life giving organism That's what it is the body of Christ and we're here for you and take it from somebody who's been who's been out here Thinking he's vulnerable and has not been Take it from me. It's the most beautiful thing you can have in your life as community Get into it. That's what he bigger would say.
I'm into that I'm into that and the beautiful thing about community is it doesn't really matter where you are in your walk It really doesn't I don't I'm in who call me and they can't stop cussing Okay, that's home. Don't you don't necessarily apologize I mean eventually we don't change that but that's not the purpose of me being in their life Perpeting being in their life is to show the price man. It's not behavioral chain And I think through the vulnerability we just have to grow up. I think we get a run of the men and we realize I'm not alone in this We didn't have to grow up the description of the Bible that says be perfect as your father in heaven is perfect And I've always read that scripture when I was younger like I know way in the world He's asking me to be perfect But that word perfect is translated a little bit differently from our understanding But the word the word the verbiage is right but our vernacular in our culture today takes that word perfectly out of context The word perfect means mature or complete and all the scriptures and by this to do is God is complete He doesn't need anything and the goal is to become complete so to not ignore the areas where we're deficient But to address the areas that were deficient and as we begin to mature that is what the actual definition the word perfect means is that it's complete But isn't something without flaw.
It just means that it's not lacking anything and you're not laughing. I'm telling you You're not lacking community. It's here right here, man And I guarantee if you take a moment to breathe stop pause be transparent with yourself You recognize you have more people for you than you have against you And if you can't name two people in your circle who are for you I'll give you two right now Jason Jenkins and Devon Johnson We with you we get your coin. Okay, how crazy you've been acting in your life?
We in your corner because if God can get an old depressed Homeless suicidal kid from off a couch and give him a future and I hope I'm telling you there's nothing that there's nothing you can't do I hope this is a brand bless you, man. I am. I thank you all for letting me just vent let me get that off my chest man But again, I want just I want to just implore you guys man use this community use twice born and And utilize this man, but if anything else you think that you got around you as well It all has to be virtual use the people around you man get healed get whole let's get out here and change the earth man You know, I want you to hold on be functionally won't it just be vulnerable and I promise you if you reveal yourself to the right community You'll find healing you never thought okay, so until that time and I'm gonna see y'all We'll see you again with another episode but I pray this bless you all today and I'll talk to you soon. I'm out