What If Healing Starts With Looking Back
from Mad Mel’s Mic Hosted by Melissa Smith
Send us Fan Mail Season 2, episode 25 We go back through an unexpected “rabbit hole” that starts with a photo request and ends with me rereading the goodbye texts I sent when I left the police. I unpack how PTSD twisted my memory into feeling abandoned, and how those messages and my progress since then remind me I’m still moving forward. • running out of phone storage and stumbling into old messages from 2019 to 2021 • the group text I sent on my last day in the police and what it brings up • feeling like I had leprosy and why that belief made sense at the time • rereading colleagues’ replies and realising people cared but didn’t know what to say • a Mount Druitt memory and the flying fox park breaks • song of the week I Will Survive and the idea that life starts again after a career ends • sharing my story publicly without shame and how that opens new doors • a rough couple of days and being proud that I can cry and feel again • watching true crime again without nightmares and noticing real PTSD recovery • looking back to measure growth and find something to be proud of • being proud of my policing career even though it broke me You can find me on Facebook and Instagram, and don't forget to like and follow. Song of the week: I will survive by Gloria Gaynor https://youtu.be/6dYWe1c3OyU?si=whf_V8wphhUYZ5mr Thought of the week: The boy, the mole, the fox and the horse by Charlie Macksey "So much beauty we need to look after"
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Send us Fan Mail Season 2, episode 25 We go back through an unexpected “rabbit hole” that starts with a photo request and ends with me rereading the goodbye texts I sent when I left the police. I unpack how PTSD twisted my memory into feeling abandoned, and how those messages and my progress since then remind me I’m still moving forward. • running out of phone storage and stumbling into old messages from 2019 to 2021 • the group text I sent on my last day in the police and what it...
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- 0:00 Welcome And Why I’m Here
- 0:36 The Photo Request Rabbit Hole
- 3:32 The Goodbye Text To Colleagues
- 7:53 Realising People Did Care
- 8:17 A Funny Flying Fox Memory
- 8:57 Song Of The Week And Survival
- 9:44 New Opportunities And Sharing My Story
- 11:37 Feeling Again After Being Numb
- 13:16 Measuring Progress One Hard Day
- 15:49 Pride In Policing And The Road Ahead
- 16:49 Thought Of The Week And Goodbye
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