What If I Can't Handle Being Healthy?

"What if I can't handle being healthy?" This question haunted me for years, echoing through my thoughts each time I contemplated recovery. My eating disorder was never about the food, the weight, or even the physical aspects of health – it was about what being "well" would mean. Because being healthy meant being responsible. In this episode, we explore how eating disorders can function as a shield against adulthood, particularly for neurodivergent individuals navigating a neurotypical world. Through examining the complex relationship between autism and anorexia, you'll discover why recovery isn't just about changing behaviors – it's about redefining freedom on your own terms. Key Topics: The paradox of being "mature for your age" while fearing adulthood How eating disorders can become a response to undiagnosed autism Why the fear of being healthy is often about avoiding responsibility The unique challenges neurodivergent people face in eating disorder recovery Finding freedom through appropriate boundaries rather than restrictions Connect with Livia:💗 Join my newsletter to receive episode updates📚 Read my books about autism and eating disorders📝 Read the blog post of this episode