Why do I feel like I can't fully process things...

Maybe I'm just at a weird moment in my life? The other day I was getting ready for school and then I just broke down crying, and to be honest, I couldn't really pinpoint why I was crying. But I think that's the reason why...I felt like I had no time to process emotions and events. And so I think it was this moment of realization that I didn't take any time to sit with myself and my thoughts and truly process anything that had happened. It was kind of just like desensitizing a feeling just so it wouldn't stop me from doing my day to day things. Weird right..? Even after recording the podcast I still don't know why I always feel the need to rush through my thoughts on something. I guess there will be things in life that we truly never know...