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EPISODE · May 27, 2025 · 1H 46M

Why I Regret My Mormon Mission ft. Alyssa Grenfell ​

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Ex Mormon YouTuber Alyssa Grenfell, opens up about her experience going to the Mormon University Brigham Young University and on her service mission for the LDS church. Here is why she ultimately regrets spending a year and a half trying to convert people to the faith.  Click here to watch on YouTube Catch Shelise on Alyssa’s channel where they discuss soaking and other loopholes Find Alyssa on social media: YouTube: @alyssadgrenfell TikTok:   / alyssadgrenfell   Instagram:   / alyssadgrenfell   Blog: https://www.mormontruths.com Email: [email protected] We want to meet you in real life!  Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION!  Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness  Host Instagram @sheliseann  Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_  TikTok @cults.to.consciousness  Twitter @cultstocon  **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** 00:00:00 Intro 00:05:41 How Mormonism impacted Alyssa's childhood and her personal relationships and led her to BYU  00:10:44 BYU as a symbol of Mormon culture and a goal for those outside of Utah 00:15:58 Rules at BYU that prevent students from taking tests and forming connections with other students 00:22:24 Threats of degree revocation as a control tactic to keep students within the honor code boundaries 00:25:57 The impact of BYU surveillance and the honor code on victims 00:28:10 Alyssa begins to experience dissonance with her faith and personal beliefs at BYU 00:33:58 How missionaries are viewed in Mormon culture and how it coerces LDS members to serve 00:42:03 Alyssa's personal revelation from God... that contradicts the church 00:48:10 Alyssa's first experience in the temple and how it impacted her mission 00:58:14 The implications of going through the temple and then cancelling your mission 00:59:54 The isolation of a Mormon mission 01:07:51 How the church promotes religious OCD to its missionaries 01:10:22 How Alyssa's mission affected her mental health in the field and when she came home 01:15:16 Living with a hoarder as a missionary and how the church deemed those to be adequate conditions 01:19:51 What the consequences were to raising concerns about improper housing 01:26:04 How the goal of worthiness keeps missionaries in line and in potentially harmful environments 01:28:44 Baptism quotas, avoiding certain questions and omitting the truth while trying to convert 01:32:33 When numbers get in the way of actually helping those in need 01:35:36 Why Alyssa regrets her mission 01:39:19 What to do when you meet a Mormon missionary 01:43:49 Linda, listen Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Ex Mormon YouTuber Alyssa Grenfell, opens up about her experience going to the Mormon University Brigham Young University and on her service mission for the LDS church. Here is why she ultimately regrets spending a year and a half trying to convert people to the faith.  Click here to watch on YouTube Catch Shelise on Alyssa’s channel where they discuss soaking and other loopholes Find Alyssa on social media: YouTube: @alyssadgrenfell TikTok:   / alyssadgrenfell   Instagram:   / alyssadgrenfell   Blog: https://www.mormontruths.com Email: [email protected] We want to meet you in real life!  Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION!  Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness  Host Instagram @sheliseann  Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_  TikTok @cults.to.consciousness  Twitter @cultstocon  **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** 00:00:00 Intro 00:05:41 How Mormonism impacted Alyssa's childhood and her personal relationships and led her to BYU  00:10:44 BYU as a symbol of Mormon culture and a goal for those outside of Utah 00:15:58 Rules at BYU that prevent students from taking tests and forming connections with other students 00:22:24 Threats of degree revocation as a control tactic to keep students within the honor code boundaries 00:25:57 The impact of BYU surveillance and the honor code on victims 00:28:10 Alyssa begins to experience dissonance with her faith and personal beliefs at BYU 00:33:58 How missionaries are viewed in Mormon culture and how it coerces LDS members to serve 00:42:03 Alyssa's personal revelation from God... that contradicts the church 00:48:10 Alyssa's first experience in the temple and how it impacted her mission 00:58:14 The implications of going through the temple and then cancelling your mission 00:59:54 The isolation of a Mormon mission 01:07:51 How the church promotes religious OCD to its missionaries 01:10:22 How Alyssa's mission affected her mental health in the field and when she came home 01:15:16 Living with a hoarder as a missionary and how the church deemed those to be adequate conditions 01:19:51 What the consequences were to raising concerns about improper housing 01:26:04 How the goal of worthiness keeps missionaries in line and in potentially harmful environments 01:28:44 Baptism quotas, avoiding certain questions and omitting the truth while trying to convert 01:32:33 When numbers get in the way of actually helping those in need 01:35:36 Why Alyssa regrets her mission 01:39:19 What to do when you meet a Mormon missionary 01:43:49 Linda, listen Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

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