WHY IS THE TRAIN COMING ON TIME TODAY, OF ALL DAYS?

HELLO! (www.bermudafunk.org => full text) 16 04 2023 & a new radioshow past tttssss always again i find out-& thanks so much much hey- that i create these radioshows (for myself)- simply as this from yesterday- i tell myself the things i need to know!! it is like: the lots of/in me- do something in diverse "times" one writes it down, what the other- or who ever- send to my brain&heart,& then my old self, from the past is telling "me" in the now, what i have to know, when i remember the horrible months of depression..& i didnt slept nearly 5 months, there were days, i was awake over 24 h; without knowing whats wrong with me & no light in sight & in my mind/(heart) my radioshows been-( except 2 i really couldnt create there so-) just there for me- even i watched myself fail, watched me suffering & judging all the way long- but something inside of me, gave me power, to sit into the car, sit before & breath with eva kaczor to the psychedelic breath- were i cried out loud tears & tones & despair* the random radiomusic of the 1h cardrive to mannheim gave me power, too. when i stood in the studio, i felt very good somehow,& more better after the show. then, i thought, i was healed- i believed again in myself- felt the music in me- i was very grateful for this happening! this "tiny" light i saw in me- but i realised soon, that these dark thoughts in me- are still there... so, may you see also the power & love in yourself- that you may find for your outlets a creativity- what makes u feel good (again), what comforts, what gives u new strength, brave, acknowledgement & smiles, enriches, eases you, too me: "you are so sweet!" my heart:" like cacao?" me:" no, like candyfloss!" ich: "du bist so süss!" mein herz:" wie kakao?" ich:" nein, wie zuckerwatte!" ben:"sen cok tatlisin!" kalbim:" kakao gibi?" ben:" hayir,pamuk sekeri gibi!" following song sent me my heart- this was this conversation between us then after i got this song in the radio listened through my candy healty ears-- in this life suits hundreds of disputes- how difficult it is for love- for giving effort- amongest in these fierce thunderstorms--- actually actually only i can cry so deeply about-so much love- wrapped in invinsible silouhettes which are always changing in forms like a fire smoke cloud in front of you there is so many which the little brain cannot translate and grasp- how super great is all ha? "MAMA? SHOULD I STAND HERE?" a little girl was asking her mum sometimes only just one (kind)word could, may change a lot of peoples fate * you are loved from live- very much. equal what youre doing- or you are not doing. for that just, that you are breathing. it wants that you are happy. can you believe that? i wish, that you will someday: know- * CAVIT:".. for that it set out, evolve- for that you can step into a new life- you have no other choice - to leave,let go of this person in peace to give grant- if you wont will- you cant barge, bring yourself into life- then you will be someone, who is watching the life from far away- if you ask yourself the question if this person comes back to you- life wont allow you not a single day- to create, for use it to the max, and to expand." thanks hey! ask your bodywisdom. to hold on , something, that isnt truthfully- (FOR YOU) costs you a lot of energy - as you do believe. * a few years ago i was telling here the same yet... i was at an exhibition from my friend annika winkelmann named inner security and came to the pleasure, to wear once an real protection criminal investigation department vest- and what happened? I STOOD THERE JUST LIKE A COP! TOTALLY SELF-ASSURED! - LIKE AN WET STRAIGHTEND UP TEABAG! ... your protection vest lies directly in yourself! SET A NEW INTENTION ! will you walk with fear in your hand? or will you walk with love in your hand? GIVE IT A TRY HE!