抑郁：你是如何发现自己陷入抑郁情绪的

How did you discover you were depressed?I recall the utter shock and numbness I felt as I was browsing through the internet and too many things were pointing towards the fact that I was depressed. For those who also suffer depression, what was your story for how you discovered you were depressed?Gabriele Kembuan, mentally unhealthyUpdated Aug 30This pictureI heard that Dementors in Harry Potter represent depression. It is an unhealthy emotion, Rowling said- not sadness. Sadness is healthy. I was maybe 10 and wondered what this “depression” meant.But Dementors suck good memories out of you, right? So is depression like, losing good memories and now all memories are bad and you feel really really sad? But sure it doesn’t look like that?I lived a few more years being my cheerful, boisterous, hyperactive self. I loved to entertain and chit chat with every person around me just to make them happier, and had this phase in my life when I grinned and cheerfully said “Have a good day!!” to everyone I meet so the world can be a better place.When I found myself feeling like I want to die being the self I’ve been for years, and looking at people and thinking “Why the fuck should I care,” feeling utterly empty, I thought I was very, very sad. I tried to cheer myself up. Didn’t work. It’s different. But I don’t know what I’m feeling. Probably I’m just weird, like everyone else thinks I am although I pretend to not know, and what I’m feeling is a weirdo’s sadness.Until I saw that picture.Now Dementors make sense.Credit to Allie Brosh (Hyperbole and Half) for the picture