You Were Never Actually on Trial: For anyone who has ever felt like they had to earn their place

This episode runs 50 minutes - grab a tea.Maybe you know the feeling of working hard to be believed. Of achieving a lot and still waiting, somewhere underneath, to be found out. Of freezing exactly when you most want to speak up.In this episode I share something personal - more personal than I usually go. I talk about being born two months premature, what the doctors told my mother, and the math sessions that followed. And I talk about what my nervous system was actually doing in those moments - and how that pattern travelled with me for decades, through relationships, work, sports and all parts of life.This episode is also an introduction to Somatic Experiencing - what it is, why the name puts people off and what it actually is. A little bit of theory and also lived experience. Including what shifted for me from the very first session, and why I still go regularly - sometimes without knowing what to actually bring, as nothing feels urgent - and am still amazed at the doors that keep opening. Doors I didn't even know were shut.I also talk about the difference between freeze and overactivation - and why they so often live in the same person. About fawn. About why yoga, as much as it has supported me deeply over twenty years, couldn't reach certain layers on its own. And about what it means to work with the body rather than just the mind - without willpower, without quick fixes, without yet another thing to figure out.This one is for you if you recognise that quiet exhaustion of always being on trial with yourself. And if you've ever wondered why knowing something isn't the same as embodying it.More of my work lives at www.maximeissner.nl Come say hello on:Instagram at https://www.instagram.com/maximeissner/ or LinkedIn at https://www.linkedin.com/in/maximeissner/