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20First Dates
by 20First Dates
☁️🛸☁️the L O N E L Y lover- a journey -• lo-fi / pop vibes •• DIY quality demos •
Episodes
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DBX in ROADRUNNER: Director's Cut
Blaine Beam presents DBX in ROADRUNNER, the director's cut. Now with 2 more songs, interludes, and more. Experience the full story in its entirety without interruption. DBX in ROADRUNNER: Director's Cut an album for the future ROADRUNNER is a spiritual pop experimental album about motion,...
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Garden in the Machine - demo
Garden in the Machine a track from ROADRUNNER Garden in the Machine is the moment after arrival, when motion slows and awareness takes over. It was written from the feeling of stepping through a threshold without knowing what comes next, only knowing that you are no longer where you were. This…
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Round About - demo
Round About a track from ROADRUNNER Round About is the moment the loop finally breaks. It is written from the other side of repetition, where running in circles gives way to forward motion that actually holds. This song exists at the end of the journey, after the self confrontation of Roadrunner,...
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ROADRAGE - demo
ROADRAGE a track from ROADRUNNER Roadrage is the explosion that begins the pilgrimage. It is the moment the match hits the oxygen and the story finally combusts. This song kicks open the door after the intro, dragging the listener straight into the firestorm of everything the protagonist has been...
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ROADKILL - demo
Roadkill a track from ROADRUNNER I wrote Roadkill from the place where the past and present collide so hard that you can feel the bruise forming under your skin. This song is the reckoning you try to avoid until it corners you. It comes from that moment when the mask cracks, when the exhaustion...
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ROADRUNNER - demo
ROADRUNNER the title track from ROADRUNNER I wrote ROADRUNNER for the moment when the whole chase finally collapses. It is that brutal, clarifying realization that the thing you have been sprinting from — the fear, the ache, the version of you you did not want to meet — has been running inside…
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mile marker - demo
mile marker a midpoint from ROADRUNNER I wrote mile marker for that exact instant when exhaustion turns emotional... when the run stops feeling heroic and starts feeling like a slow unraveling. It’s the midpoint of the journey, the place where you’ve been sprinting for miles and nothing looks...
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intro... used 2ba stoner - demo
Used 2ba Stoner an introduction to ROADRUNNER I wrote Used 2ba Stoner as the doorway into the world of ROADRUNNER , as the moment where the narrator steps out of the haze, looks straight at the listener, and admits that the road ahead is going to hurt. The thesis is simple: healing’s not a high....
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5 of Swords - demo
I wrote 5 of Swords right after a 36-hour crash out. It's the kind of collapse where time stops behaving and everything feels stretched thin and heavy. This was the first song written for the project, born in that raw, blurry place where exhaustion turns existential and every step forward somehow...
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Lost Profit - demo
Lost Profit a track from ROADRUNNER I wrote Lost Profit during a time when faith and identity were tangled together so tightly I couldn’t tell where one ended and the other began. It’s about growing up being told your light was wrong, holy for the wrong reasons, or meant to serve someone else’s...
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im not yet healed - demo
im not yet healed… a track from ROADRUNNER I wrote im not yet healed… on a night when survival felt like motion. It’s about the way we circle our pain, trying to outrun it with noise, neon, liquor, anything that keeps the silence at bay. It’s the part of the journey where you know you’re not…
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when you let me breathe - demo
when you let me breathe a track from ROADRUNNER I wrote when you let me breathe in the middle of a reclamation. It’s about the exact second you realize someone never had the power they made you fear, that you were holding your breath because you were conditioned to, not because the air was gone.…
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io.IWE - demo
io.IWE (If Only It Were Easy) a track from ROADRUNNER I made io.iwe in the moment where everything finally buckled. The point where you’ve tried every fix, every reset, every path forward, and nothing responds anymore. It’s the sound of emotional code crashing, a human operating system hitting…
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SPF (stupid problematic fckr) - demo
SPF (Stupid Problematic Fckr) The 2nd Offering of Roadrunner. SPF is about the heat of self-deception. The ways we block our own light while trying to protect ourselves from getting burned again. It started as a fuck-you song and turned into a confession about projection, shame, and the masks we...
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bleached - demo
bleached the first offering from ROADRUNNER I wrote bleached in the middle of a long identity unraveling. It’s about the impulse to start over, to burn down who you were, change your hair, change your name, and hope the mirror finally recognizes you back. It’s about body dysmorphia, but also…
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the end is NEAR!!!
Wrote this one when everything felt like it was falling apart—online, in the world, in myself. It’s kind of me trying to smile through the panic, like… if I joke about the apocalypse, maybe it won’t hurt as much. It’s about feeling stuck, overwhelmed, and praying for something to change. This one...
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PS... im outta here (first take demo)
This song is an anthem of frustration, liberation, and self-reclamation. This track delves deep into the raw emotions of feeling unseen, the pain of rejection, and the power of letting go. With lyrics that walk the fine line between despair and defiance, it captures the journey of breaking free...
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Holding out for hope (demo)
A song for anyone holding on by a thread. ‘Holding Out For Hope’ is about finding strength in the darkest moments and trusting that your future self will carry you through. Let this be your reminder: you are strong enough. 🌙✨
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Nostalgia (demo)
A song about the war of being exactly here - letting go of what came before, and embracing the future. It's a final send off to an updated version of the self.
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im so tired (demo)
On 'im so tired': a raw, introspective track that explores the exhaustion of constantly questioning one’s purpose and timing in life. With honest lyrics about feeling lost, frustrated, and on the edge of breaking, this song delves into the struggle of overcoming self-doubt and the longing for a...
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LAST GOODBYE (demo)
This song was written with my best friend, whose vocal is featured buried in the chorus, about the finality of leaving someone. It's about ending a relationship. It's a somber affair but in declaring a goodbye, you say you're ready to move on. You've examined all there is to examine about what…
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LOST! (demo)
Yeah I might be lost but im accepting that im exactly here. and through this - I will find my way.
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speak 2 me (demo)
This song was written from a place of desperation when I needed to hear. I needed the universe to speak to me. I needed to be moved. I needed a sign. So this song is for anyone who needs to hear something - to see a sign - for that next step in their life.
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Beulahland: A Dirge (demo)
Dedicated to my grandma, Diane. She passed on in May of this year. This is a cover / reinterpretation of one of her favorite gospel songs. She was always someone who invested in my dream and believed in me. She is missed everyday. I hope you enjoy my take on this.
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Won't Look Back (demo)
MOVING ON! This song is about getting on with the story. Taking back your story and reframing it for you. This is an anthem!
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Ocean Tide (demo)
After all is said and done.... and the shit you go through... you will arrive exactly where you want to be. this song is representative of that.
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Doom (demo)
the general sense that you are FUCKKKKEDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!
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Prototype (demo)
When you realize that the situation isn't in your best interest and you find your power in stating that it isn't for you....
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but wait! (demo 1) prod dan darmawan
I wrote this song as a form of release. Through many personal trials and tribulations, it felt like nothing was working out in my favor. This song is reflective of that lived experience. When you feel all alone, and it's all your fault. You are left at the end of your rope. You don't have…
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4msd(10.11.01 - 10.27.23)_RIP.BBGRL (demo 1) prod. jake the birdy
For Morgan Skylar Dean - gone too soon. On Friday, October 27th, 2023, I lost someone new and dear to my heart. I can't wrap my head around it. It's been hard to comprehend that this person, that I was in the room when she was born, is now gone. It's hard. Grief is hard. I love you forever…
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LNC_BTS_A.S.S.mp3 (demo 1)
This is the beginning of PC (personal crisis part 2) In part one, we had to come to terms with the fact that we are in a personal crisis. And we left off calling out to the gods for help at the end of part 1. We admitted our truth, which makes us usually think we are good - like I admitted it and…
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ica_FTP (demo 1) prod wurlishmouk
This is a song about being depressed. I can always feel the pressure. This one is also very personal to me.
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sos (demo 1) prod Idly Blare
a song for when you feel sorry for yourself. you have to listen 4 times before it sinks in.
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LG ft ChatGPT (demo 1) prod wurlishmouk
written during a panic attack. V PERSONAL
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iis (demo 1) prod wurlishmouk
...i cant even look at u w/out feelin like ill stay
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THE LOST FILES:// PC_personal_crisis
You may say "Blaine, this is a hard listen!" but ain't that how a personal crisis goes... The last year of my life has been chaos. I thought I was headed in one direction, but out of nowhere, I found myself in in the middle of a personal crisis. It has been unlike anything I've ever experienced.…
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wibOK? (demo 1) prod wurlishmouk
will i be ok?
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IWSN! (demo 1) prod wurlishmouk
I WANT SOMETHING NEW, DAMNIT!
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*BONUS* Hopeless Romantic (demo) prod Jonah Bru
This song was inspired by queer romance and relationships. As a queer person, I find that we are afraid to show our real love in the world because of fear even though our love is extremely real and passionate. I also thought of all the people who have died for expressing their love in the world.…
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11. cₒₘₑ ₜₕᵣᵤ (dem0) prod leedz
When you've connected with someone and got good chemistry, you know you want them to come thru. Demo. work in progress. I gotta work on this QUALITY of the recording. but all in all... we learning Trying to experiment a bit. Its a headphonebanger Prod. by Leedz Beatz
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7. u like it [ps. check y or n] :)(dem0) prod wurlishmouk
This song was written during a very tough time for me. I wrote it back in 2019 as part of this larger vision I was creating. This is the emotional point that the story has been building to in my eyes. this is the moment where we all just so FUCK IT and leave the situation we were in. This one is...
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10. 𝔏𝔬𝔫𝔢𝔩𝔶 𝔏𝔬𝔳𝔢𝔯 - The Sequel (dem0) prod wurlishmouk
Possibly my favorite track! Lonely Lover - The Sequel reimagines the first part. This song is about reclaiming your narrative. WE ARE ALL THE LONLEY LOVER! Demo prod. by wurlishmouk (THANK YOU!!)
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8. D♥e♥c♥a♥d♥e♥n♥c♥e (dem0) prod dongotbeats
what a damn break! This song is about the optimism after getting out of a toxic environment, when all things are possible. I couldn't wait to share with y'all. enjoy with me <3 Prod. by
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4. N0N$3NC€ —> we fall so fast…. (dem0) prod wurlishmouk
The confusing feeling of feeling what you thought you've been wanting. Feels like we're running out of time, but we're just getting going. We fall so fast. Demo Prod. by wurlishmouk
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2. CHATROOM!!!!!!!!! (dem0) prod detchrevz
Well that took a turn... but now that The Lonely Lover has you in its chatroom, what you gonna do? Prod. by DutchRevz
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3. Dream Boy <3 (dem0) prod leedz
A digital distortion of a manifestation. THE LONELY LOVER BELIEVES THAT LOVE WILL WIN! A reminder that what you seek also seeks you <3 Keep going! Demo Prod. by Leedz Beatz
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1. Clickbait.01 (dem0) prod jai
>> If your feeling lonely, give our lover a chance call (566)359-5687 That's the Lonely Lover
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Complete (demo)
an intoxicated invocation for love. When things get blurry. Work in progress
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6. ~**~*-{The Lonely Lover** pt 1}-*~**~ (dem0) prod wurlishmouk
a reckoning and a declaration. INTERLUDE Track produced by Wurlishmouk. An idea in progress... I've spent the better part of 3 years writing as the character called The Lonely Lover. This person, who feels like a robot alien, is always looking for love. But he keeps fucking it up. and this is the...
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9. L̸̖̽̌͂ā̤̓̍͘t̲̂̓ͩ̑ẹ̿͋̒̕ N̺̻̔̆ͅỉ͔͖̜͌ĝ̽̓̀͑ḣ̖̻͛̓t̲̂̓ͩ̑ C̵͉͋̔͞r̴̨̦͕̝y҉̃̀̋̑ (dem0) prod dongotbeats
When I come calling, you better answer THAT LATE NIGHT CRY 💧 a vibe. Track produced by dongotbeats Vocal arrangement ME
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