PODCAST · health
A Pilgrim’s Progress
by Ben Johnson
I'm Ben Johnson, Warzone Kid. That's my shorthand for those of us whose childhoods were more like warzones and less like nurseries. I'm a child sex abuse survivor, and as an adult I live with Complex PTSD, Borderline Personality Disorder, I'm a recovering addict, bulimic, and binge eater.This podcast is about my own quest to live my life, to learn and become what I am. I'm a Pilgrim on the Trail to the Western Lnds, the place of peace and wholeness. We've got a long way to go, Pilgrim. Let's walk a few miles together. Daylight's burnin'!
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A conversation with creative artist, Jacqueline Miller
Jacqueline Miller is a fellow Green Circle keeper with Hidden Water, a creative artist and a beautiful human being. Join us for this delightful chat!
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High-Status Jackass Syndrome
If you wanna bring out the jackass in anyone or any group of people or any society, give it high status. 
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Interview with Taylor Yess of Hidden Water
I hope you enjoy this chat with Taylor Yess of Hidden Water. I'm a volunteer keeper, and Taylor seems to be in charge of keeping the place going on a day to day basis.
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Eye for an Eye: Interview with Christine Klaassen
I hope you enjoy this conversation with Christine Klaassen, circle keeper and a guide to the world of restorative justice.
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Taking yourself off the torture rack!
The most exquisite pleasure is being taken down off the torture rack.
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What does it mean to be an “expert” in healing?
https://www.hiddenwatercircle.org/ what could it possibly mean to be a “expert” healing? It’s got to mean that you have skills and experience at doing the thing. Not learning about the thing, not doing experiments concerning the thing, but simply doing the thing. 
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Pois Boiton? How do we live?
Pois Boiton? How do we live our lives? That’s the one true question for all of us pilgrims on the trail to the western lands?
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Grandpa Abram and the dug well: birth of the titan
Here’s a true story from my family. This story was legend to me. The child of the tiger is born with stripes.
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Intergenerational Trauma: who made the first vampire?
Vampires have to sleep in the soil of their homeland. This got me thinking about the ways harm in all its flavors can be passed down across the generations, evolving as it goes.
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Vampires: 2b1ask1
I love me some vampire lore. They’re my favorite supernatural critter, full of psychological insight. In this little story I go through Nosferatu, Let Me In, and True Blood.
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What’s the edge of your healing?
https://www.hiddenwatercircle.org/ Hidden Water facilitates healing circles by and for those affe red by child sex abuse. I’m just a volunteer circle keeper! I don’t speak for the organization, but i’ve found the model for the path toward healing from harm very helpful. We find ourselves lost in a sea of suffering - that’s the coping phase. After that we wash up on the Isle of Facing, when we’re able to look at the reality of our experience. Usually this involves pain, rage, and the thirst for vengeance. The third phase is releasing and moving on. This is when we find ourselves living our lives. How do we live? That’s the question of life.
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The Black Hole of Narcissism
If you’re the one looking in the reflecting pool, you’ve got to dive into the reality of who you are. The way to the depths lies through the surface. If you care about someone caught ip in their own reflection, stay on the safe side of the event horizon or you’ll be sucked in. Save yourself! You’re Echo in the story. The most you can do is call their name and hope they look away from the pool. Only they have the power to break the spell.
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Borderline: It’s a Trap!
Living with borderline, it ain’t easy. It feels like the whole world set traps for me…and then I realized I was setting the trap myself, and it’s people who care about me that get caught.
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Escaping Narcissism: the wood between the worlds, part two
The core of narcissism is that you get your sense of identity almost exclusively from what you can get other people to believe about you. Narcissist came to his end because he wouldn’t stop looking at his own reflection in the pool. He was afraid to do anything to disturb that smooth mirror. The way to the depths of who you really are is through the surface of that reflection.
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Escaping Narcissism: the wood between the worlds, part three
The core of narcissism is that you get your sense of identity almost exclusively from what you can get other people to believe about you. Narcissist came to his end because he wouldn’t stop looking at his own reflection in the pool. He was afraid to do anything to disturb that smooth mirror. The way to the depths of who you really are is through the surface of that reflection.
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Escaping Narcissism: The wood between the worlds, part one
The core of narcissism is that you get your sense of identity almost exclusively from what you can get other people to believe about you. Narcissist came to his end because he wouldn’t stop looking at his own reflection in the pool. He was afraid to do anything to disturb that smooth mirror. The way to the depths of who you really are is through the surface of that reflection.
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The Fiery Wigwam, part two
Burning away the dross of pain and suffering? Turning lead into gold? However you likw to think about it, it’s life!
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The Fiery Wigwam, part one
Burning away the dross of pain and suffering? Turning lead into gold? However you likw to think about it, it’s life!
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A conversation with Elizabeth Clements, founder of Hidden Water
I hope you enjoy this conversation with Elizabeth Clements, founder of Hidden Water. It’s an organization that facilitate healing circles by and for those affected by child sex abuse. You can register at the Hidden Water website: https://www.hiddenwatercircle.org/ Elizabeth’s book, “Healing Together” is at https://www.elizabethclemants.com/store/p/healing-together-a-family-guide-to-recovering-from-sexual-harm Peace to you!
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Sappho’s Stones, part three
Sappho was a Greek poet from the island of Lesbos, the original lesbian! She wrote “if you are squeamish, don’t turn over rocks”. She meant that if you turn over rocks, you’re gonna see creepy, crawling bugs under there, and things that you might not want to see. Well, we have stones in our minds, parts of us that we don’t want to see. My experience as a Warzone kid is that if I don’t turn over those rocks and learn to accept whatever I find inside myself without judging it, then I’m just gonna stub my toes on those rocks forever. When I look inside myself without being squeamish, and except whatever I find without judgment, I find that the scary, creepy, crawling bug bugs are just beetles and centipedes doing their natural thing in the world. Like Popeye, I yam what I yam. In my life the act of trying to change myself just keeps me stuck where I am. When I accept myself without judgment, that’s when things change.
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ABOUT THIS SHOW
I'm Ben Johnson, Warzone Kid. That's my shorthand for those of us whose childhoods were more like warzones and less like nurseries. I'm a child sex abuse survivor, and as an adult I live with Complex PTSD, Borderline Personality Disorder, I'm a recovering addict, bulimic, and binge eater.This podcast is about my own quest to live my life, to learn and become what I am. I'm a Pilgrim on the Trail to the Western Lnds, the place of peace and wholeness. We've got a long way to go, Pilgrim. Let's walk a few miles together. Daylight's burnin'!
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