Always on my mind

Not everything you build needs to make sense to someone else. Not everything you create needs to earn its place.This week I've been thinking about ownership. Not the financial kind. The emotional kind. The feeling of having something in this world that belongs completely to you, that you built for yourself, that exists because you decided it should.This one is about the yes baby who learned to say yes to herself. About the cost of waiting for permission. And about what happens when you finally stop waiting.This one is for everyone who has been building something quietly, without applause, without permission.It's yours. It always was.This week's reflection -what is the one thing you've been waiting for permission to start? And who exactly are you waiting for?

What if being chosen, completely, unapologetically, with no backup plan, wasn't too much to ask for? What if that's actually the bare minimum?This week I've been thinking about dark romance. Not as a genre, but as a mirror. About what it says that millions of women are reaching for these books at 2am. About the swiping culture and the situationships and the performing indifference when you feel everything but.About what it actually means to be tethered to someone. Not caged. Not controlled. Just, held. Completely. While still being entirely free.This one is for everyone who has ever been made to feel like they want too much.You don't. You never did.This week's reflection, where in your life have you been performing indifference when you actually wanted something more? And what would it feel like to just, want it out loud?

Have you ever woken up one day and noticed that everything just feels a little easier? Your worries don't weigh as heavy. Your sleep comes faster. And there's a smile you can't quite explain.That's what this episode is about.Somewhere between binge watching a love story and a conversation that caught me completely off guard, I found myself feeling something I had almost forgotten existed. Something light. Something hopeful. Something worth being brave for.This week's reflection, what is one risk you've been too scared to take on yourself? And what would it feel like to finally take it?This one is for everyone who has been through endings and spirals and still chose to stay open. You're braver than you know. 🤍

One ignored call. That's all it took.In this episode I talk about the spiral, that very specific journey from worry, to rationality, to pretending you don't care. About how our past heartbreaks press on bruises we thought had healed. And about what happens when silence becomes louder than words.This one's for everyone who has ever said "I'm fine" and meant the complete opposite.This week's reflection, what is the last thing you overthought? And when you look at it now, with a little distance, what do you think it was really about?

Have you noticed people reading again? Actually reading, physical books, on the subway, on the bus, pages and everything.In this episode I talk about what I've been reading, why I picked it up, and the one thought it left me with that I haven't been able to shake, that good and evil don't live in different people. They live in all of us, at the same time.This week's reflection, when was the last time something made you think so deeply that you had to stop and just sit with it? And what did it make you realise?

Endings are rarely clean. Sometimes you feel relieved. Sometimes confused. Sometimes both at the exact same time.In this episode, I talk about a recent breakup, the small things that hit the hardest, what four months taught me about love and communication, and what it feels like to lose your comfort zone in a country far from home.This week's reflection - what is one small thing you can do tomorrow to give yourself a little grace?

This is "Always on My Mind", a digital diary and a safe space for your thoughts. If you've ever felt something and wondered if you were the only one, this podcast is for you. New episodes every week. Welcome.