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ayawithin
by aya shelbs
Ayawithin is a podcast hosted by aya shelbs a Clinical Therapist and online leader, where she unapologetically dives into the ugly yet beautiful side of stepping into one's power. Aya is someone that leans into the discomfort of talking about the sh!t no one really wants to talk about. She enjoys diving into taboo topics from sex, plant medicine, self-development, shadow work, heartbreak, or what she's currently going through in her personal life. Nothing is planned to keep it raw and vulnerable. So let's take a deep breath together and dive in.
Episodes
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what if the hard choice is the right one?
Most people aren’t stuck because they don’t know what to do… they’re stuck because their nervous system is addicted to what’s familiar. Even when it hurts. Even when it’s clearly not working. In this episode, Aya talks about the quiet, uncomfortable truth: we often choose familiar discomfort over...
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i thought quitting weed would fix my life
For a long time, Aya thought quitting weed would fix her life. She believed sobriety would bring clarity, motivation, and direction that everything would suddenly make sense. But six months later, she’s realizing something much deeper happened. Sobriety didn’t save her. It forced her to finally...
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why i broke up with MJ (Marijuana) after 10 years
Six months sober. Ten years with marijuana. And one of the hardest years of my life. In this episode, Aya shares why she chose to break up with MJ after a decade not from shame, fear, or moral superiority, but from a deep desire to meet herself fully sober. She opens up about living in the...
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from endings to renewal: entering a new cycle in 2026
From 2020 to 2025, everything cracked open. The plans we thought were solid dissolved. Identities fell apart. Coping mechanisms stopped working. And whether we were ready or not, we were asked to meet ourselves more honestly than ever before. In this episode, Aya reflects on the collective...
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what happens when you stop smoking weed (marijuana, MJ, mama jane, zaza)
What Happens When You Stop Smoking Weed Anxiety, emotional flooding, vivid dreams, REM sleep rebound, attachment patterns, and nervous system recalibration explained. Within this podcast episode, Aya dives into what actually happens in your body when you stop smoking weed not from a place of…
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your nervous system is not your intuition
In this episode, Aya dives into the difference between what your nervous system is reacting to and what your intuition is actually trying to tell you. She explores why familiar cycles feel safer than aligned ones, why the unknown triggers anxiety, and why endings can feel like grief even when...
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season 2: holiday anxiety, pressure & spending the holidays alone (again)
In this first episode of Season 2, I get honest about something I’ve avoided talking about for years: the holidays. Not the cute, cozy, Instagram version the real version. The anxiety, the loneliness, the pressure, the grief of not having the childhood holiday story you were “supposed” to have……
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microdosing q&a 🍄
welcome to a lil q&a with aya diving into the fundamentals of mushys. this episode is based off personal experiences and our bff chat gpt. For all things 🍄 go to Mycrologi and use code AYAWITHIN for a discount! Some of my favs: Clarity Wavy Microdose Bliss Bites (my fav) Support What I want to...
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redirection xoxo - rejection
cheated on once again... maybe its just me? aya dives into her little jungle life and how she took her discomfort & said "fuck you, let's make the most of it". has aya made a mistake of going back to the small village where her ex lives and is currently dating his old ex girlfriend or is this the...
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a woman's superpower: cycle syncing
In this episode, Aya dives into the transformative practice of cycle syncing—aligning your lifestyle with the four phases of your menstrual cycle to optimize your health, productivity, and overall well-being. Cycle syncing allows you to work with your body’s natural rhythms, making every phase an...
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sex baby, let's talk about masturbation, culture, birth control
In this episode of ayawithin, we’re diving deep into all things sex. Aya gets personal, sharing how growing up in Utah with teen parents shaped her sexual awareness. As she embarked on her spiritual journey, she felt a profound calling to connect with her womb on a deeper level. Aya opens up…
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ayawithin frequency session 3
Join Aya for an ayawithin frequency session—a laid-back smoke session where we’ll explore the techniques she's been using to manage anxiety, the powerful process of closing circles in Ayas life, and a soothing mini meditation to wrap things up. Roll up and set an intention. Artists: Olivia Dean…
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part 2 : self-sabotage anyone?
Aya confesses to her self-sabotaging patterns as her body still remains in a survival mode. Aya is faced with new challenges as she's learning how to navigate falling in love while also reconditioning her mind and body as she is easily triggered in a new way. Press play for a real and raw...
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self-sabotage anyone?
high-chats with Aya and how she continuously hurts her own feelings through self inflicting behaviors. Aya is here to normalize behaviors that maybe you feel shame to talk about and looks at. in this episode you can hear in Aya voice the embarrassment that she feels because of her behavior. so...
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are we breaking up : friendship edition
Aya dives into the complexities of friendships and communication. She dissects her own communication style and considers how her communication has impacted the development and longevity of old, new, and future relationships. She discusses the difficulties around being neurodivergent and how this...
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relationships, stillness, love = discomfort
Aya is coming in raw straight from the iPhone memos in the Dominican Republic. Exploring the relationship shifts that are happening within her life. Letting go of old friendships, and places, and traveling to the Dominican. Is Aya ready to rekindle her relationship with her mom after no contact…
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evolution within : i'm back
Aya takes us on a journey through the evolution of her life over the past four months. Offering a glimpse into her world, she shares updates on various aspects, with a particular focus on light, frequency, and sound. The episode promises an insightful exploration of these elements and their…
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high-girl rants : dating chronicals
Aya delves into the intricacies of dating and her ongoing journey to identify and communicate her needs, wants, and desires. However, she encounters a particular challenge when it comes to articulating her needs and establishing and maintaining boundaries. So, grab a seat, perhaps light a joint,...
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life be life(ing) : closing a chapter
Aya embarks on a journey to master the delicate art of harmonizing her personal needs with the anticipation of a significant life transition. With her loft getting meticulously packed for the commencement of a three-month adventure, the countdown to her Divine Self Retreat begins. Join us as we...
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sad girl vibes
Aya's out here in her feels per usual. Looking within as she takes space from the digital world. Now she has to sit with herself in silence. Aya dives into her Rapé ceremony and how it really slapped her in the face. Learning how to sit with deep emotions can easily be avoided when you have a…
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ayawithin frequency session 2
Join aya for ayawithin frequency session aka a lil smoke session to jam out. Light up a joint and jam out with aya - a moment to diconnect to connect.
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bye bye instagram // bye bye boys
Aya is finally listening... thank goodness because her spiritual team has been yelling at her but shes been to stimulated to even listen. Not only is Aya taking a major digital detox but all of her romantic partnerhsips are coming to a close. Dive into part 2 of how she's leaning into silence....
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ITS ALREADY MINE... shifting my mindset to call it all in
ITS ALREADY MINE BITCH!!!! Diving into the techniques Aya is using to shift her vibration to call everything in that she desires. Shifting from victim to manifestation. After listening to Life Visioning by Michael Beckwith Aya had a very powerful realization. It was time to setup her vibration…
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cheating!!! what do I do???
my partner cheated wtf do I do? Aya dives into a topic that a lot of her community members comes to her about. Cheating is a subject she is all to familar with after finding out her ex husband and partner of 8 years was cheating on her with 6 women for 7 years. This event was the shift she was...
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high chats x maria lee // taking on energy, relationships, evolution, and other deep shit
This convo is raw and real! After a long work day a new soul friend and aya stopped to smoke a joint and dove into the most divine convo. Tears, laughter, and golden nuggets - both helping eachother gain something the universe needed them to hear. JOIN US SEPTEMBER 1st - 6th 2023 for the second...
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am I crazy or is it self-sabotage?
What does self-sabotage look like to you? How are you currently self-sabotaging in your life? What reoccuring patterns do you see happening within your life? Is this self-sabotaging behavior generational? The way I ruin my life due to this deep fear of rejection is pretty fucking frustrating tbh....
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WTF planning is ruining my life
Are you a planner? Aya dives into the topic about planning and how it creates energetic blocks in her life. She loves to plan but is realizing maybe it's because she's trying to gain control where there actually is no control. "Do we try and plan our lives to find some type of footing when in...
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did she say trust issues?
Do you struggle trusting others or do you just struggle trusting within yourself? I'm still trying to figure out which one holds more truth but I will say as I enter the dating world I've realized that it might be deeper than simply blaming others for my trust issues. JOIN US SEPTEMBER 1st - 6th...
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obsession & rejection // disrupting cycles
I love the saying - "nothing ever goes away until it taught us the lesson we need to learn". Right now, I am starting to notice recurring patterns & cycles in my life that keep showing up in different scenarios, names, places, and people. It has gotten to the point that I am aware of this…
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my thoughts can be scary 💭
After solo traveling abroad for 6 months I finally had to come back to my old life. I thought I was ready but little did I know I was about to befriend the darkest part of my mind. I created a life that really fulfilled all my needs in Portgual so coming back I left that life behind and all the...
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waking TF up // deep dive pt 2
The moment I woke the fuck up and hit rock bottom was the moment I truly connected with the deepest part of myself. Rock bottom for me... was when I had to identify who was speaking - my intuition or my truama. Learning how to choose me and lean into my bigggest fear aka losing the person I loved...
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deep dive pt 1 -
It was my time to do a deep dive into my life. I wanted to give a better idea of who I am, where I come from, and my own specific challenges I face. This is part 1 where I talked about my childhood, schooling, and how there has always been this common theme in my life that I am trying to process....
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Ayawithin // Trailer
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ABOUT THIS SHOW
Ayawithin is a podcast hosted by aya shelbs a Clinical Therapist and online leader, where she unapologetically dives into the ugly yet beautiful side of stepping into one's power. Aya is someone that leans into the discomfort of talking about the sh!t no one really wants to talk about. She enjoys diving into taboo topics from sex, plant medicine, self-development, shadow work, heartbreak, or what she's currently going through in her personal life. Nothing is planned to keep it raw and vulnerable. So let's take a deep breath together and dive in.
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