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Behind the Citgo
by Joshua Torbich
Behind the Citgo is a candid, high-impact podcast exploring the real stories, hard truths, and transformative journeys within the world of recovery, leadership, and community change. Each episode features seasoned professionals, frontline practitioners, and individuals with lived experience, sharing insights that challenge assumptions, spark dialogue, and illuminate the path toward lasting transformation.
Episodes
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BTC EP#40: Counterfeit Peace - Ryan Duerk’s Journey from Addiction to Purpose
BTC EP#40: Counterfeit Peace – Ryan Duerk’s Journey from Addiction to Purpose What happens when the things we turn to for peace become the very things that destroy it? In Episode 40 of Behind the Citgo, host Lavar Marlow sits down with Ryan Duerk to explore his journey through addiction…
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BTC EP#39: The Court System That Creates Change - A Candid Conversation with Judge Jason Disbrow
Can the justice system do more than punish? Can accountability, compassion, and second chances work together to change lives? In Episode 39 of Behind the Citgo, we sit down with Judge Jason Disbrow for a candid conversation about criminal justice, addiction recovery, and the role of the courts in...
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BTC EP#38: The Doctor Who Built a Village - Tom Dalton on Compassion, Purpose, and Real Solutions
What happens when a doctor realizes that medicine alone cannot heal someone who has nowhere safe to call home? In BTC EP#38, Josh Torbich sits down with Dr. Tom Dalton, anesthesiologist and co-founder of Eden Village, for a powerful conversation about homelessness, permanent supportive housing,...
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BTC EP#37: Playing It Forward - Sobriety, Faith, and the Long Road Back
In BTC EP#37: Playing It Forward - Sobriety, Faith, and the Long Road Back, John Chandler shares the powerful story of a decades-long relationship with alcohol, the consequences that followed, and the moment he finally realized he needed help. John’s struggle didn’t always look like addiction…
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BTC EP#36: Rock Bottom Rolled up My Sleeves
What happens after rock bottom when you decide to roll up your sleeves and build something better? In BTC EP#36: “Rock Bottom Rolled Up My Sleeves,” Todd Putnam and Eric Barber of Scrub Buddies join Behind the Citgo for a powerful conversation about addiction recovery, entrepreneurship, faith…
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BTC EP#35: Cultural Differences in Recovery
How do culture, stigma, and family expectations shape addiction recovery? In this episode of Behind the Citgo, host Lavar Marlow explores the barriers that prevent people from seeking help, with a focus on experiences within the African American community. Through personal stories and honest...
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BTC EP#34: The Inner Pharmacy - Autonomic Nervous System
What if your brain and body already contain tools that can help you change destructive habits, regulate stress, and support recovery? In this episode of Behind the Citgo, Josh Torbich sits down with Tom Harris to explore what Tom calls the “Inner Pharmacy” — the relationship between the autonomic...
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BTC EP#33: Prison Re-Entry: Whats After The Life Behind Bars
What happens after life behind bars? In BTC EP#33: Prison Re-Entry: What’s After the Life Behind Bars, Josh Torbich sits down with Lateisha Thrash of the North Carolina Department of Adult Correction to discuss the realities of prison re-entry, addiction recovery, and rebuilding a life after...
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BTC EP#32: I Tried to Be My Sister's Keeper
In BTC EP #32: I Tried to Be My Sister’s Keeper, host Josh Torbich sits down with Jwantana Frink for a deeply personal conversation about addiction, family, grief, faith, and the painful reality of trying to save someone you love. For the first time publicly, Jwantana shares the story of her…
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BTC EP #31: A Communitty Behind Recovery
What happens when a community chooses to stand behind recovery? In Episode 31 of Behind the Citgo, Josh Torbich sits down with Art Dornfeld, Mayor of the Town of Shallotte, North Carolina, to discuss how local government, law enforcement, businesses, churches, and neighbors can help create a...
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BTC EP #30: Identity First - Prevention for our next generation
What if addiction prevention starts long before drugs or alcohol ever enter the picture? In Episode 30 of Behind the Citgo, Josh Torbich sits down with Pastor Jordan Hise of Highest Praise Church and Southeastern Christian Academy to discuss why helping young people establish a strong identity in...
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BTC EP #29: God Sent A Hurricane to Get Me Sober
Aaron Martin’s addiction began in middle school and eventually cost him his military career, marriage, home, and relationship with his children. His turning point came when he found himself barefoot, homeless, and alone during Hurricane Matthew. In this episode of Behind the Citgo, Aaron shares…
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BTC EP #28: Unbroken - Women Rising from Addiction and Exploitation
Addiction and human trafficking are often deeply connected—but the path to freedom begins when someone is willing to build a relationship, earn trust, and remain present until a survivor is ready for help. In BTC EP #28: Unbroken – Women Rising from Addiction and Exploitation, host Josh Torbich...
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BTC EP #27: Rare of Breed Episode
In BTC Episode #27, Josh Torbich sits down with Rob Hardin of Rare of Breed for a powerful conversation about addiction, redemption, identity, perseverance, and the transforming power of faith in Jesus Christ. Rob shares the remarkable story of being removed from his home and entering foster care...
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BTC EP #26: Eric Machado - A Fearless Inventory
In this episode of Behind the Citgo, Josh sits down with Eric Machado, Assistant Director of the men’s program and a proud graduate of Christian Recovery Centers, Inc., for a powerful conversation about recovery, honesty, accountability, and the life-changing work of Step Four. Titled “A Fearless...
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BTC EP #25: The Shepherd and the Streets - Pastor Caleb McCall’s Call to Recovery
In BTC EP #25: The Shepherd and the Streets - Pastor Caleb McCall’s Call to Recovery, Josh Torbich sits down with Pastor Caleb McCall for a powerful conversation about addiction recovery, faith, family, ministry, and the call to reach people in the trenches. Pastor Caleb McCall shares his…
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BTC EP #24: From Lived Experience to National Impact
In BTC EP #24: From Lived Experience to National Impact, Behind the Citgo sits down with Dr. Monty Burks for a powerful conversation about addiction recovery, faith-based transformation, rural recovery systems, workforce redevelopment, and the national impact of lived experience. This episode...
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BTC EP #23: When Harm Reduction Causes More Harm
In BTC EP #23: When Harm Reduction Causes More Harm, Behind the Citgo host Josh Torbich sits down with Dr. Elinore McCance-Katz for a direct conversation about harm reduction, addiction recovery, fentanyl, opioid addiction, overdose prevention, and substance use disorder treatment. Dr.…
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BTC EP #22: MRT - The Kool-Aid Has Been Drunk
In this episode of Behind the Citgo, Josh sits down with Emma Long, Director of the ARROW Program — Addiction Response and Rediscovering One’s Worth — to discuss addiction recovery inside the jail system, Moral Reconation Therapy, reentry planning, and the life-changing power of second chances....
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BTC EP #021: I Couldn’t Save Him - God Could: A Husband and Wife’s Perspective on Addiction
In this powerful episode of Behind the Citgo, Josh Torbich sits down with Nick and Tiffany to share a deeply honest story of addiction, recovery, marriage, faith, forgiveness, and transformation through Jesus Christ. Nick came to Brunswick Christian Recovery Center in 2016 after multiple failed...
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BTC EP #020: The ER - How to Avoid the Revolving Door (Christy Spivey)
In this episode of Behind the Citgo, we sit down with Christy Spivey, Chief Nursing Officer at Novant Health Brunswick Medical Center, for a powerful conversation about breaking the revolving door of ER visits, improving community health, and building real partnerships around substance use...
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BTC EP #019: Fourteen and Locked Up (Isaiah Ellis)
Fourteen and Locked Up — The Story of Isaiah At just 14 years old, Isaiah overdosed in a parking lot, ran from police, and experienced what he describes as a divine intervention that pushed him back into consciousness. That moment began a long cycle of juvenile detention, addiction…
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BTC EP #018: Self-Governance is Better than the Government (The Commissioners)
What actually changes a community? In this episode, Commissioners Mike Forte and Marty Cooke sit down to talk about the power of citizen‑led solutions and why government works best as a guardrail, not the driver. Both commissioners share openly about addiction, recovery, personal responsibility,...
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BTC EP #017: Should I Hire in Recovery? (Jeremy Gunn)
Josh sits down with Jeremy Gunn — business owner, community leader, and a powerful advocate for second‑chance hiring — for one of the most honest conversations we’ve had on Behind the Citgo. Jeremy opens up about his six‑and‑a‑half‑year sobriety journey, the moment of clarity that changed...
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BTC EP #016: Rock Bottom Up (Raymond Wood)
What does real change look like when justice, accountability, and recovery collide? In Episode 16, we sit down with Raymond Wood, Senior Chaplain of the Brunswick County Sheriff’s Office and Director of the Brunswick County DWI Drug Court Program — a leader who has been serving this community…
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BTC EP#015: Lessons from Relapse (Patrick, Sean, Tara, Maria)
Four people in recovery sit down for a raw, honest conversation about what relapse really looks like — mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. They break down the subtle warning signs, the isolation, the ego, and the internal battles that start long before the first use. You’ll hear real stories…
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BTC EP #014: Hardest Lessons in Recovery (Wes Keziah and Jim Quigley)
Three seasoned leaders in Christian recovery sit down for one of the most honest conversations you’ll hear about the real cost of helping people rebuild their lives. From setting healthy boundaries to navigating betrayal, burnout, spiritual warfare, and the emotional weight of leadership, this...
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BTC EP #013 Self-Governance As A Pathway to Freedom (Gary Nelson)
In this powerful conversation, Josh sits down with Dr. Gary Nelson to explore self governance as a pathway to freedom — in families, communities, and in personal recovery. Drawing from decades of global work in community systems, Dr. Nelson breaks down why true self governance begins not with...
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BTC EP 012: Honorably Discharged into Addiction (Jason Gaver)
🎙️ Episode 12: Honorably Discharged Into Addiction — with Jason Gaver Behind the Citgo Podcast In this powerful episode, we sit down with Navy veteran Jason Gaver for a raw, unfiltered conversation about what so many service members silently battle after coming home. Jason opens up about the...
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BTC EP #011: Faith Meets Science - Creating Amazing Results
Discover how communities are being reshaped, families strengthened, and individuals empowered at every stage of life. In this inspiring episode, human services leader Karen Calhoun—with more than 30 years of experience—shares how ASPIRE evolved into a breakthrough intervention for social…
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BTC EP #010: The Myth of Club Fed
Mike Guzman breaks down the truth behind the “Club Fed” myth and opens up about the spiritual, moral, and psychological unraveling that led him into the federal justice system. In this raw and revealing conversation, Mike shares how prison—despite the pain it caused his family—became the…
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BTC EP #009: I FOUND JESUS IN RECOVERY!
A night of partying. A traffic stop. An arrest that changed everything. In Episode 008 of Behind the Citgo, Jes White shares the powerful, unfiltered testimony of how hitting rock bottom became the doorway to recovery, faith, and a completely transformed life. When her mother made the…
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BTC EP #008: The School Systems: Preventing or Promoting SUD
A First Responder’s Truth: Steve Barger on Trauma, Addiction, and the Alarming Shift in Our Schools Steve Barger has spent his life serving others—commanding first responders, answering crisis calls, and carrying the weight of moments most people never witness. In this deeply personal interview,...
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BTC EP #007: The Limits of Handcuffs - A Sheriff's Perspective
Host Josh Torbich sits down with Brunswick County Sheriff Brian Chism for a powerful, eye‑opening conversation about the real limits of handcuffs—both as a law‑enforcement tool and as a symbol of the deeper restraints people face in addiction, trauma, and recovery. From the front lines of…
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BTC EP #006: Family Matters - Healing Relationships
Episode 006 of Behind the Citgo takes a powerful look at one of the most important—and often most challenging—parts of the recovery journey: rebuilding family relationships. Joined by the insightful and compassionate Dwane Richardson, we explore how trust can be restored, how communication…
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BTC EP #005 : MOUD - The Good, The Bad, The Ugly
Anthony Grimaldi of Southeastern Integrated Care joins Josh Torbich and the Behind the Citgo podcast crew for Episode 005: MOUD - The Good, The Bad, The Ugly
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BTC EP #004 - Church's Role in Recovery (Part 2)
Heath Cadell from Reach Community Church in Leland, NC joins Josh Torbich and the Behind the Citgo podcast team to discuss "The Church's Role in Recovery (Part 2)"
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Behind the Citgo - Episode 002: Therapy - Is It Working? When Does It Stop?
Jeremey Seamon of Coastal Horizons joins Josh Torbich and the Behind the Citgo crew to discuss "Therapy - Is It Working? When Does it Stop?
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Behind the Citgo - Episode 003: The Church's Role in Recovery (Part 1)
Lucas Grainger from Coastal Church in Shallotte, NC joins Josh Torbich and the Behind the Citgo crew for Episode 003: The Church's Role in Recovery (Part 1) Reels Daily! Episodes Weekly!! Subscribe Now!!!
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BTC EP #001 - Behind the Citgo - The Unseen World of Addiction
Tyler Smith joins the Behind the Citgo podcast for Episode 001 - Behind the Citgo - The Unseen World of Addiction
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My Unforgettable Sponsor & Smoking Crack Behind The Citgo - Audio
My Unforgettable Sponsor & Smoking Crack Behind Citgo is a raw and unfiltered reflection on addiction and recovery, contrasting the chaos and degradation of active drug use with the steady, often uncomfortable presence of a sponsor who refuses to give up. Through stark imagery and honest...
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My Unforgettable Sponsor & Smoking Crack Behind The Citgo
My Unforgettable Sponsor & Smoking Crack Behind Citgo is a raw and unfiltered reflection on addiction and recovery, contrasting the chaos and degradation of active drug use with the steady, often uncomfortable presence of a sponsor who refuses to give up. Through stark imagery and honest...
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ABOUT THIS SHOW
Behind the Citgo is a candid, high-impact podcast exploring the real stories, hard truths, and transformative journeys within the world of recovery, leadership, and community change. Each episode features seasoned professionals, frontline practitioners, and individuals with lived experience, sharing insights that challenge assumptions, spark dialogue, and illuminate the path toward lasting transformation.
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Joshua Torbich
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Behind the Citgo is a candid, high-impact podcast exploring the real stories, hard truths, and transformative journeys within the world of recovery, leadership, and community change. Each episode features seasoned professionals, frontline practitioners, and individuals with lived experience,...
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