beyond the sky & down to earth

you know what, I won't bypass the suffering of the majority of the planet. I won't yell that it's beautiful.

turns out going it alone isn't actually an option. for anyone. not even me. gahhhhhh.

Finished with the noisy brain. Choosing a quiet mind.

I share a recent realisation that not only am I not my thoughts or my feelings... but I'm also not my body. I share how I've over- identified with the belief that my body is who I am. This is leading me to a deeper form of embodiment that is very different from how I've previously experienced 'being in my body'.

I look at my natural tendency to fill the void & share what I've been experiencing from leaning into feeling the void instead...

a contemplation of the absurd and what we consider the 'sane'

in this episode, I share a reflection I wrote based on one of David Whyte's stunning essays from his book 'Consolations II', based on the word 'shame'.

a (not-so) private supervision session with myself regarding where I'm at & we're I'm going...

mulling over what can't seem to be trumped or tricked by trying...

Julia Cameron. Thank you.

I made this episode a week ago, but I didn't publish it because I felt it was too rusty. However, I couldn't say it anymore succinctly than I already did. So, you get to hear it. Here she is. Nice enough to explode. Or at least break a plate. Then break down. Then realise: I don't have to be nice. Risk being disliked.

Hugging trees, turning time into space, Thurman's sound of the genuine.

Feeling feelings is the human equivalent to what 'shaking it off' is to animals. So, enjoy ten minutes of music followed by ten minutes of talking. Let's pretend I planned it that way.

This episode is basically me having a great time. Running from one thing to the next. Just running. And smiling. Pretty nice.  Also I said Facebook, but I meant Instagram...

Am I subconsciously competing and comparing with everyone I'm in close contact with? I challenge myself to do 'life' for fun, instead of trying to replicate an authentic version of myself by comparing and competing with someone else.

Eckhart Tolle, poetry, and life after death...

I consider what it would be to be the one who loved my flaws, and the potential this might contain.

What if the pursuit of our dreams wasn't a survival technique?

In this episode, I explore what I'd say to myself if I went into a church today and saw myself there.

As a 28 year old, I feel that my generation stands with a foot in each world of the generations on either side of me. I consider what the role of my own generation might be regarding the evolution of a new world drawn out of the beauty of each of these generations.

In this episode, I continue to explore my experience of quitting routine and my recent realisation that my obsession with rituals are a bandaid to underlying anxieties.

I talk about my relationship with routine, the reasons I stay & my recent decision to quit my morning routine (despite finding nothing online that supports this decision). I mull over my seeming addiction to forming habits & consider how to differentiate between OCD and intuition.

I talk about a realisation that I'm either living out of fear-based ego values, or out of essential, core values. I speak to the opportunity that this choice offers, the capacity to live either homesick or in alignment with who I am, at home in myself, in reality. You're welcome to take the second half of the recording to consider how these values emanate in your own life. The music will play, but there are no more words.

In this episode I share my sense of being in a womb, a cocoon, a space of surrender, rest and re-birth. I talk about realisation of a deeper intent: strength and groundedness. I explore all this in a poem.

Reading from Eckhart Tolle's 'A New Earth' and making a list about the things I think the world is withholding from me that I can start bringing to the world.

First I talk about how we emphasise fixing our weaknesses to alleviate a sense of inward deficiency rather than improving our strengths for the greater potential of the whole world. With a bit of hesitation, I talk about my relationship with sadness and the joy that I'm missing. I consider that sadness and joy aren't dualistic, opposing terms but that if sadness is welcomed, joy won't be constricted underneath. I also consider an invitation to shift my posture in a way that leads from hibernation to looking outward, alongside a short poem about how our humanity is best expressed in when our individuality moves toward unity.

In this episode I explore what it's like to experience change within a relationship and the consequent opportunity that can arise for your own growth and development. I examine the impact of low-self worth in my life, where it comes from, and chart a path toward owning myself in a way that liberates me to live in the ever-changing flow of life. No music because I tried a new platform and it didn't let me upload any music. Won't do that again.

In this episode, I examine my grip on control and my tendency to compare as energy-suckers that keep me from thriving. I consider the possibility that compassion is a bridge to evolution and that maybe there's no such thing as 'worthlessness' at all.

In this episode, I consider the possibility that 'props' are not a signal of incapability. Rather, they can enable us to grow stronger, move deeper and develop spaciousness in ourselves and in the world. I lean into the revelatory possibility that opening up and reaching out for support could actually be a propelling force necessary for evolution.

My tone is more caffeinated than meditative today, but I really like where I went with this. It was enlightening for me to realise that I hide myself so as not to lose my secret identity as someone significant.

This episode is super special because I share two poems, no extra charge. I talk about the idea of owning your own path coupled with what I think it might really mean to live a balanced life. The ideas of this episode are something I want to see integrated into the reality of my every day living.

This episode ponders a shift in centre. I amusingly liken my town to Hollywood & admire my own question about unhinging circles. Venn diagrams all the way.

In this episode, I use poetry as a way of processing a particular change that has recently occurred in my life. I consider what it might look like to 'include and transcend' during this period of change. I also invite you to find a way to process your own forms of change.

In this episode, I explore a practice of releasing the energies that I pick up from other people & myself. I consider the possibility that there is limitless energy when we let go of the 'false' energies that we've identified with & what this could potentially mean for us introverts in the world. Then I try and explain it like I was a five year old.

This episode features an awkward pause when I don't know what to say, coupled with several cars swooshing by because I was on the road today. This episode also comprises some pretty poetry about interconnectivity & I share a new practice I've been engaging lately that I'm finding life-giving.

In this short episode, I contemplate the paradox of being responsible for myself & being held by the universe.

The Wicked Witch of the West, Dorothy, the Good Witch. It's all here. This episode is about those silver shoes (not ruby slippers?!) some of us don't realise we're wearing... & the gruelling lifestyle that we submit to because of it.

This episode I contemplate the presence of social anxiety in my every day life & its debilitating impacts. I consider a way forward via an immersive poem that takes me to a new place where social anxiety doesn't necessarily have to dominate my social landscape.

An introduction to self-conscious & its role in my life, a reading of part of a transcript from Schitt's Creek, and a spontaneous letter to both the universe & self-consciousness.

In this first episode, I contemplate my very recent realisation that I am addicted to holding on to things and the difficulty of letting go. I recount a recent loss of a poem, muddle my way through a new poem, and conclude with the idea of 'falling' as the art of being human.