Blue Hour with Stas Liutin

We all have our moments of doubt. It could be an unpleasant interaction on the street, a cancelled train, a misunderstanding with a close friend… Sometimes it goes deeper than that – the illness that keeps us stuck in the same spot, or the recurring pattern that keeps coming back. In moments like these, it all becomes about handling the emotion. Fear, anxiety, anger, frustration, desperation; we get so caught up in our feelings, and in this moment, it feels like we’re all alone in this experience, and it shall be like this forever. It is very natural for us to live out of survival, and along the way, we drift further and further away from the true reason we came here. When one has to endure any kind of suffering, it becomes extremely hard to see the broader picture. We begin to look for an explanation, for begin to compare ourselves to others, and we begin to doubt more and more with each new day. But what if instead of looking for a justification, we accepted the things for what they are? To be alive is to suffer, but not everything is suffering.

Be Present. For cooperation: Website: https://lutinstas320.myportfolio.com Gmail: [email protected] Inst (podcast): @bluehourpod Inst(personal): @stas_liutin (https://www.instagram.com/stas_liutin/) #presence #spirituality #youtubenewwave

Most days we operate on autopilot. Morning routine, work, study, eat, rest, sleep. The same sequence repeats until weeks blur together. We live suspended in anticipation of the next vacation to finally escape from normality. We imagine that when the long-desired break finally comes, everything will fall into place. And when life throws another of its tests at you, suddenly it feels as if everything you held as truth was nothing more than a way to cope with the overwhelming complexity of reality.For cooperation: Website: https://lutinstas320.myportfolio.com Gmail: [email protected] Inst (podcast): @bluehourpod Inst(personal): @stas_liutin (https://www.instagram.com/stas_liutin/)

There comes a point in everyone's life when things finally begin to align – opportunities open one after another, often without you doing anything, and life feels surreal. And strangely, it is often in these effortless stretches our fear begins to grow the fastest. Good things expose our most fragile sides, reminding us how much there is to lose. The closer someone comes to what they always wanted, the more one comes to terms with the fleeting nature of all things.For cooperation: Website: https://lutinstas320.myportfolio.com Gmail: [email protected] Inst (podcast): @bluehourpod Inst(personal): @stas_liutin (https://www.instagram.com/stas_liutin/)

There comes a moment when you realise how far you’ve drifted from your childhood self; suddenly, everything ordinary feels heavy. The child who once lived inside pure experience, moving through days without prediction or self-interrogation, has slowly been replaced by someone who thinks too much, reacts too quickly, and treats life as if every moment must prove something. What used to be a simple existence becomes an endless pursuit of refinement, and somewhere in that pursuit, the lightness gradually starts to fade away. For cooperation: Website: https://lutinstas320.myportfolio.com Gmail: [email protected] Inst (podcast): @bluehourpod Inst(personal): @stas_liutin (https://www.instagram.com/stas_liutin/) #youtubenewwave #cinematic #routine

For cooperation: Website: https://lutinstas320.myportfolio.com Gmail: [email protected] Inst (podcast): @bluehourpod Inst(personal): @stas_liutin (https://www.instagram.com/stas_liutin/) #youtubenewwave #cinematic #psychology

I also do client videography, so I linked my portfolio and contact details below in the description. Have an amazing day, and thanks for listening. For cooperation: Website: https://lutinstas320.myportfolio.com Gmail: [email protected] Inst (podcast): @bluehourpod Inst(personal): @stas_liutin (https://www.instagram.com/stas_liutin/) https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PL8I9w9BjHwH6naLD10G3sWUPa8YT2D3X0&si=QGLlmvjBi6Ok_pzt #philosophy #fear #spirituality

Every game has its own set of rules. As someone begins to explain them to you, it’s easy to follow along at first glance. And so you carry on, following one routes and then the other, until at some point you can no longer remember how it all began and what was the initial point of the game? Who is the winner? #thesystem #citylife #escapethenoise

An average person makes 29 ‘real’ friendships over their lifetime, where only 6 of those endure. Six people, out of eight billion. For some people, 20 people isn’t enough, while for someone else 2 quality friendships is all that matters. I certainly relate to the second category. It’s interesting how the question of how many people you have in your life isn’t always about the extent of your introversion. Lately, I was starting to wonder if it can even be considered as fully a matter of personal choice. I personally struggle to sustain a connection with a lot of people simultaneously. And with the people who do tend to stay, I don’t even usually share many mutual interests. It makes me think that some people are bound to spend their time alone for the most part, while the opposite is also true. For cooperation: Website: https://lutinstas320.myportfolio.com Gmail: [email protected] Inst (podcast): @bluehourpod Inst(personal): @stas_liutin (https://www.instagram.com/stas_liutin/)

It is winter, the time of the year when everyone is asleep. No matter what time of the day it is, everyone seems to be in this strange, semi-detached state of mind: aware of what’s going on, yet existing somewhere distant. Winter is known to be a time of festivities and celebrations, shared tables and familiar rituals, but once the holidays are over, what are we to do for the rest of this empty stretch of time that follows? People seem to ask all sorts of questions. It feels like the whole world is signaling to us to stop and take a break, but despite that, we continue to push ourselves beyond our limits, especially when the vast majority of things are out of reach.For cooperation: Website: https://lutinstas320.myportfolio.com Gmail: [email protected] Inst (podcast): @bluehourpod Inst(personal): @stas_liutin (https://www.instagram.com/stas_liutin/)

From childhood we are taught how things should be – the ways people should behave, how the conversations should flow, how our lives should unfold. And so, when someone diverges from our expectations, even in the smallest ways, we rush to correct them, to offer advice they didn’t ask for, to intervene, believing that we are contributing to their growth, when in reality, we might just be protecting our own sense of control. To accept someone for who they are requires us to release this illusion of certainty and predictability. And yet, there is a paradox: if no one ever tried to influence or challenge us, where would the growth come from?For cooperation: Website: https://lutinstas320.myportfolio.com Gmail: [email protected] Inst (podcast): @bluehourpod Inst(personal): @stas_liutin (https://www.instagram.com/stas_liutin/)

New episodes on 14.01It takes courage to stop, without having any justification or expectation in mind. However, I am starting to think that it is in these moments of stillness, we get the most out of life, and paradoxically, when there’s so little room for boredom in our lives, it starts to feel like the most precious state there could ever be. Countless possibilities, and yet no action despite everything. For cooperation: Website: https://lutinstas320.myportfolio.com Gmail: [email protected] Inst (podcast): @bluehourpod Inst(personal): @stas_liutin (https://www.instagram.com/stas_liutin/)

Many of us underestimate the impact of our surroundings on our emotions and perceptions of the world. One misstep, and you end up attached to the wrong person, with your memory of what it meant to live a stable, calm life rapidly fading away. There are toxic people everywhere – they might be a person sitting beside you on a park bench, a colleague who always finds a way to belittle your ideas in meetings, a friend who only calls when they need something from you, a family member who turns every conversation into a guilt trip. You might not even realize where the agitation, anxiety, disappointment, disbelief, and many other negative emotions arise from up until the very end, when it feels like it is too late. In the end, what matters most is not fixing every person you come across, but preserving your own sense of stability so that no one else’s negativity can quietly dismantle it. For cooperation: Website: https://lutinstas320.myportfolio.com Gmail: [email protected] Inst (podcast): @bluehourpod Inst(personal): @stas_liutin (https://www.instagram.com/stas_liutin/)

We blame ourselves, others, or the circumstances around us. And negativity becomes the default, because it’s hard to see through the veil of pain. But what if there was a meaning to all this? Have you ever thought what would become of you without all these unpleasant, yet very deep human emotions of sadness, longing, anxiety and so on. Would art, love, or passion burn as deeply without being touched by pain? Some of the greatest drives to create, to change, come from our darkest moments. I really believe the key to a fulfilled life lies in noticing the small things—the everyday blessings we usually overlook. Too often, we only realize how precious something was once it’s already gone. So the choice is ours: what do we focus on? We can keep reviving the painful emotions, or we can turn our attention toward those small moments of appreciation. And the more we notice them, the more we realize that none of it—none of the struggle—was ever in vain. For cooperation: Website: https://lutinstas320.myportfolio.com Gmail: [email protected] Inst (podcast): @bluehourpod Inst(personal): @stas_liutin (https://www.instagram.com/stas_liutin/)

Back when I was in my teenage years, travelling would bring me immense excitement, and upon the last day of the trip, deep sadness and frustration. Before living in London, I never really felt like my place of residence was somewhere special, somewhere I could feel the freedom of belonging. But at this present moment, everything is different. I’ve been away for most of this summer, having seen so much of the world, which I will never forget. And for the first time ever, I felt so happy when I discovered that I was in fact, homesick. I really couldn’t wait to go back to the city, which over the years became my home. For cooperation: Website: https://lutinstas320.myportfolio.com Gmail: [email protected] Inst (podcast): @bluehourpod Inst(personal): @stas_liutin (https://www.instagram.com/stas_liutin/)

I am on holiday in Switzerland For cooperation: Website: https://lutinstas320.myportfolio.com Gmail: [email protected] Inst (podcast): @bluehourpod Inst(personal): @stas_liutin (https://www.instagram.com/stas_liutin/)

It’s strange how quickly life can shift—how in a single moment, something you’ve built over months can disappear in a matter of days, as if the universe had been quietly preparing its exit long before you even realized it was happening. This summer, I gained more than I expected—connections, opportunities, a vision of stability—and just as quickly, I lost all of it. And what surprised me most wasn’t the loss itself, but the realization that there was nothing beneath it to hold onto. When everything falls apart and I am left with nothing, strangely enough I am faced with the reaction I didn’t expect. It feels powerful in some sort of way. For cooperation: Website: https://lutinstas320.myportfolio.com Gmail: [email protected] Inst (podcast): @bluehourpod Inst(personal): @stas_liutin (https://www.instagram.com/stas_liutin/)

Lately I’ve been stuck in a cycle of repetition and familiarity. Everything I hear, everything I see, carries the echo of something I’ve already lived through. Conversations blend into one another; places lose their uniqueness. I can predict the jokes before they’re told, the topics that will follow, the conclusions people will reach, as if the world became a looped script that refuses to rewrite itself. For cooperation: Website: https://lutinstas320.myportfolio.com Gmail: [email protected] Inst (podcast): @bluehourpod Inst(personal): @stas_liutin (https://www.instagram.com/stas_liutin/)

One of the most unpleasant things I’ve ever experienced was getting misunderstood. At times when you feel like you’ve done everything right and your intentions were sincere, there’s still a possibility of being rejected. Many of us tend to get frustrated when we fail to earn the trust of someone we look up to, especially at times when we are not even given a chance to explain ourselves. The harsh truth about life is that oftentimes, people will deem their subjective judgment more credible due to the discomfort and the time-consuming nature of trying to see a situation from multiple perspectives. Ironically, instead of seeking to find the certainty within, we think it is easier to seek it in other people, which inevitably leads to a repetitive cycle of frustration when it comes down to the inevitable nature of conflict. Being terrified of judgment, we not only disconnect from the present but also lose touch with ourselves by setting unrealistic expectations of what life should be, running away from something that is there to help us grow. For cooperation: Website: https://lutinstas320.myportfolio.com Gmail: [email protected] Inst (podcast): @bluehourpod Inst(personal): @stas_liutin (https://www.instagram.com/stas_liutin/)

It takes courage to stop, without having any justification or expectation in mind. However, I am starting to think that it is in these moments of stillness, we get the most out of life, and paradoxically, when there’s so little room for boredom in our lives, it starts to feel like the most precious state there could ever be. Countless possibilities, and yet no action despite everything. For cooperation: Website: https://lutinstas320.myportfolio.com Gmail: [email protected] Inst (podcast): @bluehourpod Inst(personal): @stas_liutin (https://www.instagram.com/stas_liutin/)

We live in time fearmongering. Everything around us is directed to induce fear within – news, articles, films, the stories you hear from your friends about their exes. Fear has become such an ingrained emotion in our day to day life, that it would be impossible for many of us to picture a life of peace and quiet. As a result, many of us feel the need to protect ourselves from countless possibilities of emotional suffering. This is something that led to what I called an era of nonchalance. Strangely enough, in time where practically everything is aimed at separating us - from social media and the rise of AI assistants, to the growing reluctance to get out of our comfort zone as a result of the rising standards of convenience - we only seem to expedite the process of individual separation. When did the game of who cares less become a priority, overshadowing the raw emotional expression that makes us unique? It is ironic, but in striving to be more nonchalant, we lose our individuality, merging with the wide, homogenous demographic of people all acting the same. The whole point of coming across as mysterious, leading to social attention, is nonexistent. For cooperation: Website: https://lutinstas320.myportfolio.com Gmail: [email protected] Inst (podcast): @bluehourpod Inst(personal): @stas_liutin (https://www.instagram.com/stas_liutin/)

Unlike most animals, humans live with acute awareness that time is finite. We are used to thinking that there is a beginning, middle, and end to everything. Our minds are wired to arrange life in a sequence, and really, it’s close to impossible for the majority to imagine what infinity would look and feel like.Hypothetically speaking, if we were to gain the certainty of our immortality, the immortality of the spirit, how would things be different? Would time still matter? And what about rushing ahead of others to succeed, prioritizing work over human relationships, competing with your peers who has the most expensive car? Would there be such a thing as fear, anxiety or jealousy if one was promised an inexhaustible resource of time at their disposal?For cooperation: Website: https://lutinstas320.myportfolio.com Gmail: [email protected] Inst (podcast): @bluehourpod Inst(personal): @stas_liutin (https://www.instagram.com/stas_liutin/)

Many of us underestimate the impact of our surroundings on our emotions and perceptions of the world. One misstep, and you end up attached to the wrong person, with your memory of what it meant to live a stable, calm life rapidly fading away. There are toxic people everywhere – they might be a person sitting beside you on a park bench, a colleague who always finds a way to belittle your ideas in meetings, a friend who only calls when they need something from you, a family member who turns every conversation into a guilt trip. You might not even realize where the agitation, anxiety, disappointment, disbelief, and many other negative emotions arise from up until the very end, when it feels like it is too late.In the end, what matters most is not fixing every person you come across, but preserving your own sense of stability so that no one else’s negativity can quietly dismantle it.For cooperation: Website: https://lutinstas320.myportfolio.com Gmail: [email protected] Inst (podcast): @bluehourpod Inst(personal): @stas_liutin (https://www.instagram.com/stas_liutin/)

We blame ourselves, others, or the circumstances around us. And negativity becomes the default, because it’s hard to see through the veil of pain. But what if there was a meaning to all this? Have you ever thought what would become of you without all these unpleasant, yet very deep human emotions of sadness, longing, anxiety and so on. Would art, love, or passion burn as deeply without being touched by pain? Some of the greatest drives to create, to change, come from our darkest moments. I really believe the key to a fulfilled life lies in noticing the small things—the everyday blessings we usually overlook. Too often, we only realize how precious something was once it’s already gone. So the choice is ours: what do we focus on? We can keep reviving the painful emotions, or we can turn our attention toward those small moments of appreciation. And the more we notice them, the more we realize that none of it—none of the struggle—was ever in vain. For cooperation: Website: https://lutinstas320.myportfolio.com Gmail: [email protected] Inst (podcast): @bluehourpod Inst(personal): @stas_liutin (https://www.instagram.com/stas_liutin/)

At times, life can get very unpredictable. In moments like this, we often find ourselves faced with a lot of uncertainty, going through a series of pleasant (or unpleasant) surprises. It is easy to become attached to the things we value most in the cycle of fearing their loss. And while many of us perpetually live in this survival mode, holding on to the things we are so terrified to lose, there's always another, a more stable way to lead our day-to-day life... For cooperation:Website: https://lutinstas320.myportfolio.comGmail: [email protected] (podcast): @bluehourpodInst(personal): @stas_liutin (https://www.instagram.com/stas_liutin/)My photography inst.: @ssldrprod (https://www.instagram.com/ssldrprod)

In this constant motion, we respond very differently. Some retreat into isolation, overwhelmed by the endless pool of possibilities. Others a once in an lifetime opportunity for rapid growth. While it’s tempting to make comments about the current state of things, there’s something to be said about embracing the present and looking for ways to make the future a better place instead of dwelling on what has already been done.For cooperation:Website: https://lutinstas320.myportfolio.comGmail: [email protected] (podcast): @bluehourpodInst(personal): @stas_liutin (https://www.instagram.com/stas_liutin/)

Societies have long been structured around hierarchies. The concept of authority is ancient, and in many cases, necessary—we often need leaders to regulate and maintain order, as many of us would prefer to be guided rather than give orders. Yet, there comes a problem once a person starts obsessing with power. Some of us might spend our whole life trying to prove our worth to the world. Some of us build our whole lives around trying to present an intimidating image of ourselves to the society, while betraying our real self in the process of it. It's only when we're confronted with mortality—when life is reduced to its most essential truths—that we may finally question whether superiority or inferiority ever really existed.Why would someone aspire to establish their dominance in the first place, if there’s no such thing as comparison for somebody one might call a free being. What is the ultimate point of power, what are the benefits of having it and what does it even mean – to be powerful? (I read 48 Laws of Power and I have a lot to say about it...)For Cooperation:Website: https://lutinstas320.myportfolio.comGmail: [email protected] (podcast): @bluehourpodInst.: @stas_liutin (https://www.instagram.com/stas_liutin/)

Back when I was in my teenage years, travelling would bring me immense excitement, and upon the last day of the trip, deep sadness and frustration. Before living in London, I never really felt like my place of residence was somewhere special, somewhere I could feel the freedom of belonging. But at this present moment, everything is different. I’ve been away for most of this summer, having seen so much of the world, which I will never forget. And for the first time ever, I felt so happy when I discovered that I was in fact, homesick. I really couldn’t wait to go back to the city, which over the years became my home. For cooperation: Website: https://lutinstas320.myportfolio.com Gmail: [email protected] Inst (podcast): @bluehourpod Inst(personal): @stas_liutin (https://www.instagram.com/stas_liutin/)

A lot of us live in a program, limiting the opportunities from appearing due to being confined to an imaginary boundary that is contingent on our made-up sense of self-worth. And when we sense a life-changing experience around the corner, we often tend to push the opportunity away by assuming that this is not something we are worthy of saying yes to. It is terrifying to let go of our conditioning and say yes to life. It is incredibly scary to be spontaneous. For many of us, the freedom paradoxically lies in the lack of it, in the illusion of having it, while secretly rejoicing in the reality of perpetual lack. But the moment one becomes aware of this, there comes around another chance to say yes to life, which will not be missed this time...For cooperation:Website: https://lutinstas320.myportfolio.comGmail: [email protected] (podcast): @bluehourpodInst.: @stas_liutin (https://www.instagram.com/stas_liutin/)

Lately, time has been flowing so slowly, which got me thinking about time. How can I be so arrogant to assume that a simple human mind can be in control of everything? How can I assume that everything has something to do with me? Why don’t we look at our present and act on it, instead of measuring how much time was wasted in the past or will likely be wasted in the future? All of these thoughts are either assumptions or false conjectures. Everything is a learning experience, and it is a waste of time not to accept the lessons that have been given to us and continue to persevere, which in itself is a futile practice of human stubbornness. For cooperation: Website: https://lutinstas320.myportfolio.com Gmail: [email protected] Inst (podcast): @bluehourpod Inst(personal): @stas_liutin (https://www.instagram.com/stas_liutin/)

There is no bright future for you anymore. You are too old for this, too frail, too exhausted. You have seen too much in this world, so much that every time somebody tells you about their problems, you quickly disregard their argument, saying or at least thinking quietly to yourself that nobody has it worse than you. And therefore nobody will ever understand you. Because surely, you are the only person who has ever been fired. Surely, you are the only one who has been through a breakup. Who lost a loved one. Who was forced to move out by a landlord? Who had to leave their home country for reasons that have nothing to do with you. This world is so unfair and you are an impeccable example of a perfect victim. For cooperation: Website: https://lutinstas320.myportfolio.com Gmail: [email protected] Inst (podcast): @bluehourpod Inst (personal): @stas_liutin (https://www.instagram.com/stas_liutin/)

Once again I have found myself in this really confusing state, questioning everything. Where am I heading, what is my purpose, am I surrounding myself with right people? Why does it feel like I’m burnt out when I have only just started working after a long break? I decide to sit and think, about all things that could possibly improve my current way of life, but even thinking itself has become much of a nuisance. My attention span grows shorter, and every time I have the idea of creating something I am immediately faced with a variety of self-deprecating thoughts that would not let me progress past a certain point. At moments like this I prefer to focus on the outside world, trying as much as I can to escape the negativity within by making sure the world outside is still there, following its own trajectory, totally unconcerned with my concerns. And to my surprise I see that nothing has changed – the sun is still shining, there are people outside noting the small things in life and rejoicing in their randomness, the city never ceases to surprise with its erratic nature. And I contemplate it for a moment and suddenly it feels like all the rumination was futile, what is the point of trying to keep control of the world so complex and multifaceted. How was I so foolish to think it could be possible to keep hold of everything, when I tiny gust of wind is enough to make me fall to pieces. For cooperation: Website: https://lutinstas320.myportfolio.com Gmail: [email protected] Inst (podcast): @bluehourpod Inst (personal): @stas_liutin (https://www.instagram.com/stas_liutin/)