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2024 1046 Michel M shares her experience of growing up in a public but dysfunctional family where public shaming was a norm as related to her issues with eating disorders and alcoholism, struggling with her addiction issues in recovery to finding a life of freedom and joy today.

2024 E1045 Saxxon shares his powerful story of childhood trauma to his introduction to alcohol and drugs, his journey through addiction and homelessness, to his struggles to achieve a sober and productive life.

2024 1044 In our final discussion about Earnie Larsen's Book and the program “Stage II Recovery: Life Beyond Addiction”, Pamela and Curt return talk about creating and working an effective program that is concrete, practical, focused, and consistent to move past the habits or behavioral patterns which stand in the way of the relationships and life we would like to have going forward.

2024 1043 Our third segment on Earnie Larsen's Book “Stage II Recovery: Life Beyond Addiction” features Pamela and Curt returning to discuss recovery demanding change, change taking place in three steps: conversion, decision, and action, the conversion experience and making the decision to change.

2024 E1042 Pamela and Curt return to continue our conversation on "Stage II Recovery: Life Beyond Addiction" and the importance of understanding the profound effect of habits and their impact on and impediment to change.

2024 E1041 Pamela S and Curt W join us for the first in a series of conversations about the topic of Earnie Larsen's Book "Stage II Recovery: Life Beyond Addiction". In this episode we discuss Larsen's definition of recovery and the differentiation between Stage I and Stage II Recovery along with Self-Defeating Learned Behaviors of Caretakers, People-Pleasers, Martyrs, Workaholics, Perfectionists, and Tap Dancers.

2024 1040 Garrison Getchell shares the struggles of his journey to get to the doorstep of Hope Is Alive, his progression through the faith based program, what success looks like for a participant, and the process of entering and expectations as part of the program, his current role as a Community Outreach Coordinator, and future opportunities within the spectrum of the HIA programs.

2024 1039 "It Wasn't For Lack Of Trying" is Michelle H's powerful life share of experience, strength, and hope in her alcoholism and recovery journey through the programs of Alcoholics Anonymous, Al-Anon, Adult Children Of Alcoholics and more.

2024 1038 Michelle H continues our conversation on the topic boundaries, with Rusty and Tim, in terms of defining healthy boundaries based on our individual motivations and difficulty with codependency as related to boundaries.

2024 1037 Michelle, Larry, and Rusty discuss growing up in chaotic households and some of the unreasonable boundaries they experienced in their youth and how as adults they have been able to establish and experience healthy boundaries as a result of various programs of recovery.

2024 1036 Juliann G hosts Rusty and our guest Mike A for a wide-ranging discussion on Codependency including learned helplessness, workaholism, perfectionism, tap dancing as a few of the topics in this episode.

2024 1035 Elder statesman Chuck B shares the problems experienced by "turning his will and life over to the care of alcohol as he understood alcohol" at an early age to the benefits received by turning his will and life over to the care of God as he understood God via the program of Alcoholics Anonymous.

2024 1034 A regular contributor to ChildrenOfChaos.net, Dan shares his story which includes a period in becoming sober without a recovery program, the dry drunk acting as a tornado in others lives, and the positive impact he experienced once he reached the Alcoholics Anonymous program.

2024 1033 Larry B and Michelle H share their experience as children and adults dealing with the impacts of shame and building walls to keep from being vulnerable until entered recovery and gained the tools to deal effectively with these issues.

2024 1032 “I’m Just A Servant” is John Mc’s story of experience, strength, and hope as he watched and learned life experiences in a strict, conservative home. John shares about his friends taking care of him while he was in the height of his alcoholism, and the support he has received from the rooms of recovery in all aspects of his life and relationships.

2024 1031 Juliann and Corinne join Rusty for a wonderful conversation about the Al-Anon Program and the impact it can have on relationships.

2024 1030 “ACA Helped Me Rewrite My Story” is a powerful discussion about the program Adult Children of Alcoholics/Dysfunctional Families (ACA). Larry, Michele and Rhonda share about the program, how they became involved with ACA, and how they came to answer the question “How do I fix me?” and began to learn and realize there is nobody to blame and how the program has helped each of them rewrite their individual story.

2024 1029 Am I Clean And Sober If? Finale; Jonathan, Merlin, and Dan share about the impact and benefit of a certain substances or medications, the purpose and intent of the individual, whether or not the person is actually working the recovery program, and finally that it is not our place to judge another person.

2024 1028 Debbie, Nancy, and Sally share their experience dealing with the destructive path of various eating disorders, the many twists and turns in their individual road to recovery, and how finding the Overeaters Anonymous program shaped their hope for the future.

2024 1027 Amy T shares her early experience with alcohol leading her from a comfortable upbringing to a life of crime in the streets and on to prison, experiencing recovery both inside and then beyond the prison walls and making an important amend to a victim of her crimes.

2024 1026 Our friends Melissa, Reggie, Horace and Chris share their experience with cocaine, what happened as they entered the recovery program of Cocaine Anonymous, realizing these people cared more about the addict staying alive than hurting his feelings, and pass on their hope for the future of the program.

2024 1025 I'm Making Progress - Juliann G's Story is a powerful, emotional life share about relationships, codependency, mental illness, shame, Al-Anon, and recovery.

2024 E1024 In this episode, "Am I Clean and Sober If? It Depends!, our guests Dan and Merlin continue the discussion on what it means to be clean and sober from both professional and personal perspectives.

2024 1023 Running The Streets - Reggie L's Story is a powerful and emotional share about his early days dealing and consuming drugs and alcohol and his journey into 12 step programs and effecting a conscious contact with his higher power in sobriety.

2024 1022 In this episode, "Am I Clean and Sober If?, our guests Dan and Nancy share their thoughts on what it means to be clean and sober from both professional and personal perspectives. Is there a clear answer?

2024 1021 Megan G shares her story of what life was like in addiction, how she found recovery, and the life she is able to enjoy today.

2024 E1020 Dan, Christina, Meegan, and John share their individual and communal approaches as to why they sponsor, their approach to working with an individual, and the joy they experience through working with others in recovery.

2024 E1019 Corinne, Jonathan, and Rusty share a spirited discussion on several aspects of codependence and how it has impacted each of their lives.

2024 1018 Wayne and Jim share an intimate discussion with Rusty and Tim about what each individual's faith was like before entering recovery, how recovery impacted their belief systems and what their conception of spirituality and a Higher Power are like now.

2024 1017 Rusty continues a discussion related to topics about the recovery process in the Al-Anon program with Ginni, Wayne, Ana, and Juliann sharing their experience. This is the second and final installment of a powerful discussion. Part One was published as episode 2024 1016.

2024 1016 Rusty facilitates a discussion related to topics about the recovery process in the Al-Anon program with Ginni, Wayne, Ana, and Juliann sharing their experience. This is the first of a powerful two part discussion. Part Two will be published as episode 2024 1017.

2024 1015 Merlin, Corinne, Juliann, and Rusty share about their experience and how they have benefited as couples in recovery,

2024 1014 Dorothy M shares her thoughts on the saying Acceptance Was The Answer and how it has helped in her recovery, the loss of several of her children and why it IS the answer to all her problems. Guest - Dorothy M

2024 0013 Michael B shares his thoughts on practicing the pause and the Spiritual Axiom with Rusty. Guest - Michael B

2024 1012 Rusty shares his experience, strength, and hope in 40 years of recovery.

2024 1011 An informative discussion about the Eleventh Step Prayer, or the St. Francis Prayer, and the impact of prayer and meditation on our lives in recovery. Guests - Amy R, Meegan M, and Jonathon K

2023 1010 In this episode Rusty shares his favorite paragraph about recovery and discusses the concept of our serenity being inverse to our expectations and proportional to our level of acceptance. (Guest - Michael B)

2023 1009 Michael B shares his favorite paragraph “The Law Of Love” for a discussion with Rusty. Michael shares about its bearing on his recovery as well as his relationships with others and himself. Guest - Michael B

2023 1008 Dorothy opens the episode talking about "Now About Sex" in the Fourth Step Inventory and transitions the discussion to intimacy and other topics before finally ending with the positive impact of Al-Anon on family systems. Guest - Dorothy M

2023 1007 Our seventh episode discusses the DSM-5 (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, 5th edition), classifying substance use disorders (SUDs) along a continuum of mild, moderate, and severe while suggesting substance abuse and addiction are best thought of as a continuum, with abuse on one end and dependence or addiction as a severe manifestation of the same disorder with the diagnosis made along a continuum based on the number and severity of the symptoms. Guest – Dan D

2023 1006 Marci and Karen share the history of The Haven as well as their experience as former clients and current employees of this recovery based program for women. Guests - Marci M and Karen V

2023 1005 Wayne L and Jim B share the impact of using an attitude of gratitude as tool in sobriety and a way of life. This episode was recorded in early 2021 during the COVID-19 pandemic and is being redistributed in this venue for its applicability at Thanksgiving 2023. Guests - Wayne L and Jim B

2023 1004 Tim shares his experience, strength, hope, and the story of a drunk named Lee.

2023 1002 This episode discusses the impacts of addiction and recovery on the specific areas of the brain. Guest - Dan D

2023 1001 This is our pilot episode and discusses the podcast title "Children of Chaos" and the song "The Living Years", breaking down our personal experiences in relation to the song. Guest - Jody P

2023 1003 The point we reach in our addiction when we can no longer live with our addictive substance or actions and do not know how to live without them. Guest - Jody P