Codependency Awareness

This episode recounts one person's eight-day inpatient hospital stay after being diagnosed with hyper-spirituality and manic depression with psychosis. They describe feeling misunderstood by staff, the safety-focused care they received, and moments of gratitude despite challenges. The narrator reflects on how faith and mental illness can blur together, the need for balance between serving God and the world, and practical steps toward recovery such as medication, self-regulation, and rest. The episode is an honest exploration of mania, spirituality, and healing.

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It isn't because I don't want to obey God. I do. But choosing to make the next step as a declaration of my faith made me realize something. This is bigger than a church family. This is bigger than my blood family. This is bigger than my life. It is not just a baptism. It is my most sacred vow, one I could never break without losing all that I am and ever have been... I am trusting Jesus with my heart. I ask Him to lead me and when I sway from His path, that he gently guide me back. I relinquished control. Having the people closest to me question my sanity, my sobriety and intention has really hurt me. Confused me. Made me question God. Luckily though, it's not the first time I questioned God.  Sometimes I heard him wrong. Sometimes I chose to hear him wrong.  Sometimes I wasn't even listening. But now I know what comes from Him and what is my own will now. To sum it up... nine times out of ten, it's nothing near what you thought you'd hear. I have been surrendering little bits for a while now.  He's never asked more of me than I could handle.  The Peacemaker's Place was just a small hope. Then a potential hobby.  An actual organization.  But I do want to get after the world. I don't want to be insane to ask for the one true thing I've always wanted.  I asked for happiness but truly, I knew I could only have true happiness if the world was at peace.  If we worked together and cured diseases.  If we lived as one people instead of different countries.  SpaceX just launched it's 1,000th Star Link today. YouTube automatically translates every video into a caption of a person's country.  Why are we - and by we, I mean CHRISTIANS - living like we don't have all that we need in 2026 to spread the Good News to the entire world. We have to do it together. That's the only way for those who don't believe to see. We have to be like Jesus.  Loud without making a single sound. Dominate with our presence without ever introducing ourselves.  Quietly tap on the shoulder of those who *think* they run things. We are letting Jesus drive.   Because when you hide from yourself, you're hiding from Him.     

I believe peace on Earth is possible in this lifetime. Let Us Prove the Messiah Has Indeed Come.    Love,  The daughter of a former Muslim man and a Catholic woman.