Curdled Ink

It's a short episode this time around because honestly, not a lot happens. There's some sex, some relationship shenanigans, and.....a tiny bit of character development?? Finally???? Blink and you'll miss it, but it's there!Content warnings: controlling behavior, abuse mention, blackmail, objectification, arson mention, misguided savior complex, manosphere mention, infantilization, gun mention, misunderstanding of kink.Stella's non-sw work: allmylinks.com/leighcartistStella's sw-related work: allmylinks.com/candikitten Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod; patreon.com/thecurdledpodLogo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

There's a lot of discussion about consent and bodily autonomy in this episode, but amongst all the trash, I do find a bit of treasure! Another possible kink that EL James actually has, and therefor writes about much better than just about anything else in the books. Exciting! Listen on to find out what that kink is.Also, a small note about audio quality: I think this episode accidentally got recorded on my laptop's built in mic instead of my usual podcasting mic, so the quality of the sound is lower than usual. However, I think you can still hear what I'm saying clearly enough that I didn't feel it necessary to re-record the whole thing. So just keep that in mind going into this episode!Content warnings: nonconsensual marks, controlling behavior, misuse of the term "hard limit", parentifying the woman in a romantic relationship, infantilization of a female character, childhood trauma, anti-drug user slur, anti-sex worker slur, unresolved trauma and its effects on relationships.Stella's non-sw work: allmylinks.com/leighcartistStella's sw-related work: allmylinks.com/candikitten Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod; patreon.com/thecurdledpodLogo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

In this episode, Christian gives Ana a bit of "funishment" for her "disobedience", leading me to discussions about power dynamics, safety, autonomy, and lots more. We're back in it for real now!Content warnings violation of privacy/filming strangers in public, infantilization, ableism, controlling behavior, poor communication, toxic relationship dynamics, discussion of finances, codependency, unsafe restraint methods, terrible negotiation/consent-getting.Stella's non-sw work: allmylinks.com/leighcartistStella's sw-related work: allmylinks.com/candikitten Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod; patreon.com/thecurdledpodLogo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

My hiatus is over and I'm gearing up for one last slog through the last book in the series. We're starting off strong, joining Ana and Christian at the tail end of their honeymoon. They're bickering just as much as usual, Christian is just as possessive as usual, and I am...exhausted already. Here we go!Content warnings: night terrors mention, possessiveness/ownership of another person's body, misogyny/patriarchy, abusive relationship mention, poor negotiation/consent-getting outside the bedroom, controlling behavior, ignoring a partner's desires, nonconsensual objectification, slight fashion snobbery.Stella's non-sw work: allmylinks.com/leighcartistStella's sw-related work: allmylinks.com/candikitten Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod; patreon.com/thecurdledpodLogo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

Happy New Year! I've got one more episode for you before I go on a brief hiatus from the pod until mid-February. Start your new year off with some chaos; I'm joined by Austin and Beverly of the Revolution Rose podcast as we eat, drink, and are horrified by the second 50 Shades movie. Enjoy! And if you liked this, definitely check out their podcast - link below.Content warnings: Alcohol mentioned throughout, stalking, grooming, sexual assault mention, racism, misogyny, possessiveness, poor communication, abuse, blood mention, anti-drug user slur, coercion, slight body horror, childhood trauma, crinkling and crunching of snacks throughout.Listen to The Revolution Rose: andalitebandits.libsyn.comStella's non-sw work: allmylinks.com/leighcartistStella's sw-related work: allmylinks.com/candikitten Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod; patreon.com/thecurdledpodLogo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

Here is part two of my conversation with Kiki, prodomme and my girlfriend. This one ended up being a lighter conversation overall, so if last episode was a lot, this should be more of a palate cleanser.Content warnings: Alcohol mention, hard drugs mention, death penalty mention.Kinks discussed: Hands, feet, eyes, armpit play, biting, teasing, bondage, overstimulation, pain play, aftercare, praise, service, subspace, impact, scat, fire play, incest roleplay, breath play, needle play.Find Kiki elsewhere: fairyqueenkiki.comStella's non-sw work: allmylinks.com/leighcartistStella's sw-related work: allmylinks.com/candikitten Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod; patreon.com/thecurdledpodLogo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

We made it to episode 50! To celebrate, I brought on a rare guest - my girlfriend and domme Kiki - to talk kink, relationships, sex work, and much more. We ended up talking for so long about such a wide range of topics that I've decide to make this into a two-parter (another rarity for this podcast) so I hope you enjoy hearing our conversation as much as we enjoyed having it.Content warnings: Racism, antisemitism, coercion, relationship anxiety, disregard for partner's needs/boundaries, doing kink without aftercare, child abuse/trauma, pedophilia, toxic relationships, potential dangers of rope bondage, self harm, lobotomy mention.Kinks discussed: Electro play, shibari/rope bondage, sugar daddying (implied), teaching how to sub, impact/spanking, bratting, foot fetish, switching, double domming, learning to dom, findom, sissification, needle play/piercings, blood play, cutting, choking.Find Kiki elsewhere: fairyqueenkiki.comStella's non-sw work: allmylinks.com/leighcartistStella's sw-related work: allmylinks.com/candikitten Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod; patreon.com/thecurdledpodLogo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

The book ends with a highly eventful birthday party with Christian. Conflicts with Kate and Elena are neatly wrapped up, and the villain of the next book is revealed. So stay tuned for that once the podcast restarts in 2026!Content warnings for this chapter: invasion of privacy, kinkshame, toxic family dynamics, anger issues, references to child grooming, discussion of mental illness/saneism, discussion of risk in kinks: mentions of needle play, rope bondage, breath play/choking, nerve damage, death.Stella's non-sw work: allmylinks.com/leighcartistStella's sw-related work: allmylinks.com/candikitten Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod; patreon.com/thecurdledpodLogo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

(Please excuse the sound of my dryer in the background of this one, I didn't realize my mic was picking it up quite that much :') )After absolutely minimal negotiation, Ana and Christian enter the play room for the first time in a while. They then spend the rest of the chapter giving us a glimpse into what their life will be like living together (spoilers, it's Patriarchal As Fuck).Content warnings for this chapter: terrible negotiation, utter misunderstanding of kink, the str8s are not OK, patriarchal attitudes, blackmail, controlling behavior.Stella's non-sw work: allmylinks.com/leighcartistStella's sw-related work: allmylinks.com/candikitten Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod; patreon.com/thecurdledpodLogo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

We're nearing 2/3 of the way through the series, and Christian is still being Christian. Even as Ana agrees to marry him, he finds a way to be annoyed at her about giving him what he wants. Luckily we breeze right past that and into a sex scene, and rounding out the chapter with the reveal of Ana's final birthday present - a sexy surprise that we'll see used in the next chapter. So stay tuned to see how that goes.Content warnings for this chapter: fear of a partner, poor sexual hygiene, jealousy/possessiveness, trauma response, child abuse/neglect mention, discussion of toxic friendships.Stella's non-sw work: allmylinks.com/leighcartistStella's sw-related work: allmylinks.com/candikitten Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod; patreon.com/thecurdledpodLogo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

In this, the most fillery of filler chapters that we've encountered in the series so far, Ana is worried sick about Christian going missing...until he walks in the door and drops that plot thread like last week's garbage. After a teary reunion, Ana gives Christian her answer to his marriage proposal, and you'll never guess what she says.Content warnings for this chapter: jealousy/possessiveness, sexism, and just staggeringly bad writing.Stella's non-sw work: allmylinks.com/leighcartistStella's sw-related work: allmylinks.com/candikitten Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod; patreon.com/thecurdledpodLogo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

Just gonna be a little sporadic with posting for a bit, thanks as always for staying with me through it! This chapter starts with Christian showing Ana the house that he's already decided he's going to buy for them to live in together, and ends with a cliffhanger that I'm sure will be resolved two pages into the next chapter. In between, Christian leads Ana through a semi-public scene that he did not negotiate first, and Ana finally gets to interact with some humans that are not her boyfriend. So....yay?Content warnings for this chapter: overwhelmingly inappropriate Grand Romantic Gesture, child abuse mention, traumatized attachment in a relationship, short temper, poor consent-getting, non-negotiated public sexytimes, sexual coercion, discussion of weight, jealousy/possessiveness, pressure to marry, searching through a partner's belongings (and immediately regretting).Stella's non-sw work: allmylinks.com/leighcartistStella's sw-related work: allmylinks.com/candikitten Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod; patreon.com/thecurdledpodLogo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

Oops, missed my mid-June posting date. But I'm back! In this chapter, Ana's Specialest Girl Powers™️ get her ahead at her job, and that evening they go to see Christian's therapist together. Dr. Flynn is not a great therapist, and Christian is his usual overly-controlling self throughout.Content warnings for this chapter: control of eating habits, general controlling behavior, massive condescention, threat of interfering in a partner's career, pressure to marry, jealousy, terrible therapist, poor understanding of kink.Stella's non-sw work: allmylinks.com/leighcartistStella's sw-related work: allmylinks.com/candikitten Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod; patreon.com/thecurdledpodLogo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

Ana manages to escape Jack's clutches...and of course runs right into Christian's instead. This chapter takes quite a journey, from a near miss with Ana's creepy boss, to a bit of a sex ed lesson in Christian's playroom. Because of course, we can't linger on any non-sexy plot points for too long.Content warnings for this chapter: threats of sexual assault, physical violence, verbal abuse, alcohol mention, controlling behavior, jealousy, kinkshame, unhealthy coping mechanisms.Stella's non-sw work: allmylinks.com/leighcartistStella's sw-related work: allmylinks.com/candikitten Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod; patreon.com/thecurdledpodLogo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

In classic 50 Shades fashion, this episode starts with a consent violation and ends with Ana's boss being full-on cartoon-villain creepy. He's leaving for New York without her, so he's damn well gonna take that out on her every chance he gets. And meanwhile Christian is...well, being Christian at her. This girl needs a vacation from men.Content warnings for this chapter: consent violation/coercion, child abuse mention, pressuring into marriage, jealousy/controlling behavior, ableist language, workplace sexual harassment, sexual assault mention, discussion of abusive relationships, fundamentalist religion, patriarchal gender roles.Stella's non-sw work: allmylinks.com/leighcartistStella's sw-related work: allmylinks.com/candikitten Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod; patreon.com/thecurdledpodLogo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

What does it take for Christian to actually shut up long enough for Ana to articulate a thought? Trigger him bad enough that he goes into sub mode, apparently. They do actually manage to have a bit of a conversation about all their many, many issues in this chapter...but of course, the result is far from ideal.Content warnings for this chapter: Kinkshame, ableism, grooming mention, poor communication and consent-getting, trauma/physical abuse mention, "Mommy issues", major mischaracterizations of kink/kinksters, toxic romance tropes, toxic monogamy culture, purity culture.Stella's non-sw work: allmylinks.com/leighcartistStella's sw-related work: allmylinks.com/candikitten Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod; patreon.com/thecurdledpodLogo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

Lucky chapter 13! And oh boy do I feel unlucky to be talking about this one. This one gets pretty heavy, so please do check the content warnings. Ana confronts Leila, but when Christian swoops in and uses his Dom Powers(TM) to save the day, it brings up all of Ana's insecurities about her abilities as a sub. And EL James handles it all....somehow even worse than I'd come to expect.Content warnings for this chapter: ableism/saneism (so, so much ableism), gun, kinkshame, jealousy, monogamy-normativity, alcohol, controlling behavior, toxic levels of bad communication.Stella's non-sw work: allmylinks.com/leighcartistStella's sw-related work: allmylinks.com/candikitten Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod; patreon.com/thecurdledpod Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

Here we go! I just wanna say thank you to everyone who stuck it out while I abandoned my podcast for a bit <3In this chapter EL James shows her utter lack of kink knowledge (as well as utter inability to properly wrap up a plot point). Elena shows up, and brings up all sorts of negative emotions for Ana, which Christian of course does nothing to help with.Content warnings for this chapter: cisheteropatriarchy, statutory rape mention, extremely mishandled kink scene, kinkshame, controlling behavior, poor communication, gun mention, manipulative behavior, blackmail mention, boundary crossing, punishment without pre-negotiation.Stella's non-sw work: allmylinks.com/leighcartistStella's sw-related work: allmylinks.com/candikitten Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod; patreon.com/thecurdledpod Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

We're back! And I'm really hoping I can get my release schedule somewhat back on track this year. In this chapter Christian and Ana fight over whether it's safe for Ana to go to work while Leila is still at large, and Ana learns that bargaining with her boundaries works...unfortunately.Content warnings for this chapter: poorly done kink, controlling behavior, heteronormativity, career sabotage, stalking, inappropriate touch, manipulation/bargaining in a relationship, possessiveness, alcohol mention, childhood trauma mention, kinkshame, discussion of possible sapphic-phobia, assault mention, misogyny/patriarchy. And a partridge in a pear tree!Stella's non-sw work: allmylinks.com/leighcartistStella's sw-related work: allmylinks.com/candikitten Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod; patreon.com/thecurdledpod Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

This chapter delves deeper into Christian's psyche (as if any of us wanted that) and my conclusion is that he's basically an overgrown manchild who cannot take responsibility for himself. Yay! Meanwhile, Ana is starting to normalize the toxicity of her relationship to Christian, which is....not great! Content warnings for this chapter: poor communication; extensive discussion of abusive/toxic relationship; normalization of abusive behavior; jealousy/possessiveness; child abuse/grooming mention; toxic monogamy; codependency; controlling behavior; vague threats of physical violence. Leigh's non-sw work: allmylinks.com/leighcartist Leigh's sw-related work: allmylinks.com/candikitten  Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

This chapter is quite light and fluffy for once...except of course when Christian can't help but be a controlling dick, and when we take one more brief detour into his Dark, Fucked Up Childhood(TM). Content warnings for this chapter: misogynistic views around sex, possessiveness, manipulative/controlling behavior, toxic monogamy, poor consent-getting. Leigh's non-sw work: allmylinks.com/leighcartist Leigh's sw-related work: allmylinks.com/candikitten Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

It's finally here! The wait is over. With the help of a couple guests and a lot of alcohol, we've made you a 50 Shades movie commentary track, meant to be played along while you watch the movie. I'm not gonna lie, this is the most chaotic podcast episode I've released so far. The mic we used picked up a lot more of the movie's sound than anticipated - I've cut out as much of it as I can, but there's only so much I can do. That said, please enjoy the three of us getting increasingly drunk and frustrated with how awful this movie is! Yay! Content warnings for this movie: basically all of them. Intoxicated podcast hosts, stalking, numerous alcohol mentions, sexual assault, boundary crossing, poor consent practices, unsafe kink, racism mention, brief homophobia, abuse/abusive tactics, police violence, gun mention, toxic monogamy culture, toxic masculinity, controlling behavior, child abuse mention, poor communication, medical malpractice mention. Find the guests elsewhere online Austin/Andalite Bandits podcast: andalitebandits.libsyn.com/  Kiki: fairyqueenkiki.com  Find Leigh elsewhere online: allmylinks.com/leighcartist Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

This chapter takes us through lots of echoes of Twilight plot points, lots of heartfelt discussion (as much as these two are capable of), and a little bit of bonding over trauma. Fun! Content warnings for this chapter: home invasion, discussion of trauma kinkshame, PTSD/trauma response, mild boundary crossing, poor bedside manner from a doctor, abusive relationship. Find Leigh elsewhere online: allmylinks.com/leighcartist Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

It's been a minute! Hope you're all enjoying your holiday season more than I enjoyed this chapter. It's time for the charity ball, which is of course chock full of dinner, dancing, drama, and just a little bit of D/s. As a treat. lol Content warnings for this chapter: poor consent-getting, inappropriate domination, possessiveness, brief ableism, vague threats of violence, predatory relationship mention, abusive relationship, social pressure to stay in said abusive relationship, stalking mention, controlling behavior, possible home invasion. Find Leigh elsewhere online: allmylinks.com/leighcartist Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

We get a bit of a break from the heavy stuff in this chapter, as Christian takes Ana to a fancy charity event thrown by his family. But don't worry, there are still plenty of moments for me to snark about.   Content warnings for this chapter: jealousy, possessiveness, kinkshame, brief homophobia.   Find Leigh elsewhere online: allmylinks.com/leighcartist Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

Thank you once again for being patient with my upload schedule. I think content updates may just be a little sporadic for now, as I deal with this thing called life. lol That said, this may be one of the longest lists of content warnings I've ever had for one chapter. Leila's aggression is stepping up, Ana is being "kept safe" at Christian's apartment, there's racism, there's ableism...buckle up, folks!! Content warnings for this chapter: pedophilia mention, major ableism, stigma against mental illness, gun mention, controlling behavior, nonconsensual manhandling, jealousy/toxic monogamy culture, stalking/invasion of privacy, some ageism, some sexist rhetoric, poor communication, racist stereotypes, alcohol mention. Find Leigh elsewhere online: allmylinks.com/leighcartist Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

In this chapter - in between frequent breaks for sex scenes - we learn more about the mysterious woman who approached Ana on the street, and set up for some ~drama~ in the next chapter. Definitely check on the trigger warnings below, there are a few doozies. Content warnings for this chapter: alcohol mention, controlling behavior, boundary crossing, ableism, suicide attempt, consent violation, stalking, casual misogyny, jealousy/toxic monogamy culture. Find Leigh elsewhere online: allmylinks.com/leighcartist Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

It's true, the new and improved Patreon content is here! I'll be releasing a short bonus rant each week about an online post that I have feelings about. Usually related to dating, relationships, kink...something related to the subject of the podcast. :) This first mini bonus episode is public, but all future mini episodes will be Patreon exclusive! Go to patreon.com/thecurdledpod and sign up at the $5 a month tier or higher to hear more. This first bonus episode is about...milk. But it's also about so much more than that. Find Leigh elsewhere online: allmylinks.com/leighcartist Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

(Now with correct audio, I promise!!) Are you settling back into the (horrifying) rhythms of this series? I know I am. After Ana's boss tries to hit on her at a bar after work, proving once again that nobody in this series knows how to negotiate healthy boundaries, Christian once again swoops in and rescues her, and we're off to the races once again. Content warnings for this chapter: slightly creepy boss, toxic monogamy culture, possessiveness, manipulation, major boundary crossing, minor kink without consent, alcohol mention. Find Leigh elsewhere online: allmylinks.com/leighcartist Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

So if you just pretend that your girlfriend never broke up with you, and pressure her to take you back while she's fragile and grieving, you can just keep going with the relationship and everything's fine, right? Christian Grey says yes. I say buckle up for chapter two. Content warnings for this chapter: bad dom behavior, alcohol mention, kinkshame (of course), slur use, discussion of child abuse, suicide mention, rape joke. Find Leigh elsewhere online: allmylinks.com/leighcartist Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

I know it's not exactly on the schedule I was hoping for, but better late than never! We're back with Ana, as she handles being several days post-breakup absolutely horribly, and Christian, as he handles being broken up with...even worse. Here we go again! Content warnings for this chapter: disordered eating, stalking mention, kinkshame, slur use, alcohol mention, consent violations, toxic monogamy culture, possessiveness, controlling behavior, sexual assault mention Find Leigh elsewhere online: allmylinks.com/leighcartist Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

Why have I been so quiet lately? Because, well, life. But don't worry, I'll be back at it as soon as I can! :)   Find Leigh elsewhere online: allmylinks.com/leighcartist for her "vanilla" work, or allmylinks.com/candikitten for her adult work. Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

Here we are, the final chapter, as we watch Ana and Christian press the self-destruct button on their own relationship. In an attempt to connect to Christian, Ana asks him to punish her as harshly as he wants to...and it goes, predictably, very badly. Content warnings for this chapter: kinkshame, kinkshame, and more kinkshame. Also poor communication, terrible dominance, slight boundary pushing, stalking/abuse mention, and one very dramatic breakup. Find Leigh elsewhere online: allmylinks.com/leighcartist for her "vanilla" work, or allmylinks.com/candikitten for her adult work. Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

Ana's back in Seattle, and heads straight for Christian's place. He's still keeping his "situation" a secret from her, as well as what she said in her sleep, so I'm sure that's all gonna turn out fine. For now though, they spend most of this chapter getting naked together in various ways.   Content warnings for this chapter: kinkshame, abuse mention, toxic relationship, pushing boundaries, poor pre-scene negotiation.   Find Leigh elsewhere online: allmylinks.com/leighcartist Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com  

This chapter is a bit fluffy, as the fanfic people say. Christian takes Ana gliding (or "soaring", as he calls it), and then the rest of the chapter is filled with emailed banter when an unexpected situation calls Christian back to Seattle. Because every so often I suppose we have to have a break for plot. Content warnings for this chapter: unhealthy attitude toward food, brief implied kinkshame, secondhand embarrassment, toxic masculinity. Find Leigh elsewhere online: allmylinks.com/leighcartist Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

In this chapter, Christian shows up in the bar where Ana and her mom are out drinking, and (of course) takes over Ana's entire trip. Because what are boundaries anyway?? Content warnings for this chapter: alcohol mention, controlling behavior, discussion of child molestation/pedophilia, poor communication, discussion of physical abuse, kink shame, drug mention, anti-sw slur. Find Leigh elsewhere online: allmylinks.com/leighcartist Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

This chapter follows Ana across the country to get some distance from Christian - except for the endless emails they send back and forth the entire time, of course. Let's see how this goes, shall we? Content warnings for this chapter: stalking, alcohol mention, extremely sexist stereotypes, discussion of statutory rape, jealousy/possessiveness, and did I mention stalking? Find Leigh elsewhere online: allmylinks.com/leighcartist Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

Plot warning in this chapter, but if you can stick it out through that, there's plenty of the usual tomfoolery. Plenty of kinkshaming from Ana, emotional constipation from Christian, and before any of it can be resolved, Ana leaves for Georgia. This should go well! Content warnings for this chapter: racism, kinkshame, stalking. Find Leigh elsewhere online: allmylinks.com/leighcartist Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

This chapter begins with a "punishment fuck" and ends with Ana bargaining a spanking in exchange for a scrap of info about Christian's past trauma. And there's a lot in between too, so buckle up! Content warnings for this chapter: possessive behavior, poor communication, low self esteem, kinkshame, pushing boundaries, abuse, dismissal of trauma, anti-sex work slur. Find Leigh elsewhere online: allmylinks.com/leighcartist for her "vanilla" work, or allmylinks.com/candikitten for her adult work. Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

This chapter takes us to Christian's family's house for an almost comically tense family dinner. Between Kate trying to run interference between Ana and her abusive boyfriend, and the waitstaff flirting with Christian all night, I'm honestly not sure how any of us will make it to the next chapter. Content warnings for this chapter: statutory rape mention, non-consensual kink, mild abusive behavior, arguably non-consensual touch. Find Leigh elsewhere online: allmylinks.com/leighcartist for her "vanilla" work, or allmylinks.com/candikitten for her adult work. Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

In this chapter, Christian takes Ana through a scene in his play room for the first time. He shows her the basics of protocol he'd like her to observe while in the room, something of what a scene here would look like...and generally how incompetent he is at being a dominant. Fun! Content warnings for this chapter: racism, Nazi mention, poor pre-scene negotiation, mention of body image issues, inappropriate restraint using zip ties. Find Leigh elsewhere online: allmylinks.com/leighcartist for her "vanilla" work, or allmylinks.com/candikitten for her adult work. Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

This chapter sees Ana leaving her old job and moving into her new apartment...all while Christian constantly pesters her to stay in contact with him. We end on the precipice of another weekend at Christian's apartment, and whatever fun new abuses that may bring. Content warnings for this chapter: grooming mention, sexual assault mention, stalking mention/jokes about, controlling behavior, dismissal of emotions, alcohol mention, poor domination. Find Leigh elsewhere online: allmylinks.com/leighcartist for her "vanilla" work, or allmylinks.com/candikitten for her adult work. Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

Thank you for hanging in there, I know this one is posting late! In this chapter, Ana is given her first spanking, as a punishment for rolling her eyes at Christian. When he then leaves her with barely any aftercare, she's left to deal with a whole host of confusing, conflicting feelings and no one to talk them over with. Because erotica! Content warnings for this chapter: (briefly) ignoring boundaries, trauma mention, inappropriate domination, intentionally intoxicating a partner, non-con/kidnapping roleplay mention, dubious consent before a scene, punishment spanking, poor aftercare after a scene, brief slutshaming, food insecurity mention, brief self-loathing, and Christian generally being an asshole and a toxic partner. Find Leigh elsewhere online: allmylinks.com/leighcartist for her "vanilla" work, or allmylinks.com/candikitten for her adult work. Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

In this chapter Christian comes over to "negotiate" soft limits with Ana. And by "negotiate" I of course mean bulldoze over just about every concern she brings up, so that he can still get his way. I'm really hoping Ana can learn to stand up for herself and her boundaries...but something tells me that's unlikely. Content warnings for this chapter: dismissive behavior, controlling behavior, coercion/manipulation, alcohol/mild intoxication. Find Leigh elsewhere online: allmylinks.com/leighcartist for her "vanilla" work, or allmylinks.com/candikitten for her adult work. Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

This is a bit of a filler chapter (meaning it's more plot-heavy than kink-heavy) but there's still plenty to critique! Ana goes to her graduation, where she meets back up with Christian and makes her decision about whether or not to continue her relationship with him (bet you can't guess what she decides!) Content warnings for this chapter: kinkshame mention, sexual assault mention, food insecurity mention, jealousy, controlling behavior, coercion/pressuring into a decision. Find Leigh elsewhere online: allmylinks.com/leighcartist for her "vanilla" work, or allmylinks.com/candikitten for her adult work. Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

Ana and Christian meet to discuss The Contract. Boundaries are...blatantly ignored at every turn. Ana's submission is called into question as she *checks notes* tries to negotiate. Fun times! Content warnings for this chapter: ignoring a direct "no", all kinds of pushing of boundaries, coercion for sex, unhealthy attitudes toward food, inappropriate dominance, ignorant attitudes toward kink. Find Leigh elsewhere online: allmylinks.com/leighcartist for her "vanilla" work, or allmylinks.com/candikitten for her adult work. Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

Ana "jokingly" sends Christian an email breaking up with him, and Christian's response is...not great. I get a bit shouty on this one (: Content warnings for this chapter: kinkshame (of course), sexual assault mention, seduction/mild coercion, kink scene enacted with no prior negotiation/consent, abusive isolation mention. Find Leigh elsewhere online: allmylinks.com/leighcartist for her "vanilla" work, or allmylinks.com/candikitten for her adult work. Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

Why does EL James dedicate over half a chapter to the text of a contract for a romantic relationship? I don't know, but I did my best to get through it without my brain melting out my ears. Hear my opinions after making it out the other end.   Content warnings for this chapter: lack of consent, poorly depicted D/s negotiation/dynamics, kinkshame mention, sexual assault mention.   Find Leigh elsewhere online: allmylinks.com/leighcartist for her "vanilla" work, or allmylinks.com/candikitten for her adult work. Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod   Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

This episode delves into the fantasy versus reality of D/s relationships, the problem of trying to come up with a "reason" why someone is kinky, and the importance of advocating for yourself and setting boundaries in any relationship, but especially a kinky one.   Content warnings for this episode: slut shaming, discussion of sexual assault, jealous/controlling behavior, toxic monogamy, patriarchy/rape culture, kinkshame, bad dominance, disordered attitudes toward food, sexual relations with a minor, stigma/stereotypes around kink.   Find Leigh elsewhere online: allmylinks.com/leighcartist for her "vanilla" work, or allmylinks.com/candikitten for her adult work.   Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod   Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com

A little late, but hopefully worth the wait!  In this episode I talk respecting boundaries, consent-getting best (and worst) practices, Ana's first (flawless) blowjob, and the genital shame that many vulva-havers are brought up with. Sounds like fun, right??   Content warnings for this episode: inappropriate domination, consent violation, disordered attitudes toward food, disrespecting boundaries, kinkshame, body/genital shame, and manipulation.   Find Leigh elsewhere online: allmylinks.com/leighcartist for her "vanilla" work, or allmylinks.com/candikitten for her adult work.   Find this podcast elsewhere: allmylinks.com/thecurdledpod   Logo by Rhys Jones tearlessrainart.tumblr.com