Diary for my beloved podcast

What could make a more British summer than ice creams, gales and rain?

We enjoyed our time at home and in our neighbourhood. The simple days are the most perfect ones.

I can't quite get my head around what's happened in the last year, from the worst moment of my life to a calm day together. There's still so much to fix.

We had a lovely day relaxing at home and creating art but it feels like the time is over at the blink of an eye.

I have so much hope for our future. One day, we'll be making carefree summer memories together.

I was so glad to see you feeling better. We had a wonderful time enjoying the sunny day together, even if it ended too quickly.

A picnic dream turned into a storm. It wasn't what I planned, but every moment with you is worth it.

Having our time together is tough, but I'm holding onto the promise of our future sunny days.

Rail strikes can't stop me from seeing you. Every 'daddy' and snuggle makes the journey worth it. Despite the challenges, our time together is everything.

After the painful court day, I'm finding it hard to be optimistic about the future. Every moment we have together is precious.

It's heartbreaking to face so many obstacles with your mum to simply be a dad for you.

It's a week of hell. I'm tortured just because I want to be a part of your life.

The most painful thing is to lose a day with you. It's a really hard time at the moment.

I try to make the most of our little time together with the court hearing looming.

Heartbroken, beaten and facing even more vitriol but my love for your will never falter.

A lovely warm day together enjoying the neighbourhood and getting creative at home.

Having you both Saturday and Sunday feels very special but it shouldn't be a privilege to spend time together on a weekend.

Should I be shocked by your mum’s hostilities any more?

We tried our best to make the most of a cold day. If only things were different so we could have a great time rather than struggle through.

It's been a long time since I last saw you. A mini pizza party was the best way to spend the day together.

I feel completely drained and this is only the first step.

As I get ready for one of the most important days of my life at family court, everything seems stacked against me.

I dreaded to be right about your mum cancelling our time.

Your mum is trying to destroy us. The horror of what could happen is shaking me throughout.

We conquered the cold and ate from the kid's menu for the first time! My girl is getting big.

He met you before you were born but you never had the chance to properly get to know each other.

We had a lovely time at home and exploring the neighbourhood, but it's hard not to wish there were more of these days.

A tense start to the year. Our routine continues, which unfortunately includes your mum's hostilities.

A festive weekend. Very quiet but most importantly, together.

This was one of the worst weekends of my life. Christmas should be about family, not ripping it apart.

Whatever the weather or hurdle put in our way, I'll do my best to see my beautiful girl for our daddy-daughter cuddles.

The best part of the festive season is snuggling at home doing activities and the decorations. I can't wait to do this all with you someday.

There's a lot going on. Your family miss you. This isn't the way December should be starting.

A change of plans is fine as long as we can be together. Family will be ready to join us next time.

It's cold but getting more festive. Sadly our time together is punctuated by your mum's hostility.

A delightful occasion with friends. I wish for many many more.

We barely had an afternoon and it was horrible weather but our love made the most of it.

One step closer to family court. Like a metaphor for this situation, it’s bonfire night.

We were ready for a day of family but it was taken away from us.

Making the most out of our time together.

A lot is happening right at the moment, apart from me seeing you.

Mediation on her terms. Her alienation continues.

It should have been an inspirational day to distract away from mediation and court.

I'm keeping this diary for you but it can be so painful to recall our time together when I know our future is broken.

Everything feels overwhelming but the worst thing is not seeing you, again.

We have such a lovely time together I can't stop looking at pictures and thinking about your big walks!

Me and your grandma travelled to see you even if it was only for a moment.

It’s breaking my heart to miss these milestones and not even be able to see you briefly on your birthday.

It’s a marvel seeing you grow and even though I’m missing the first times, our first times together are just as special.

In this heat I'm feeling hopeless but now have a plan of action.