PODCAST · health
Diary of “Crazy”
by Briana Harris
Life can be hard let alone coping with all it has to throw at us. As a survivor of sexual assault, the side effects can be quite strenuous. Join me in my journey of rediscovering the happy, go lucky version of myself with the raw and uncut chronicles of surviving PTSD, PMDD, GAD, and disability or more loosely referred to as “Crazy”!
Episodes
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Diary Entry: Unloading Day instead of unpacking and processing
Trigger Warning!! I’ve been having a hard time the last several weeks and some trauma is reading it’s ugly head making my anxiety have an awesome time. I haven’t felt like talking so today I just needed to unload verses unpack and processing. Honestly, I might need professional help with this one...
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Diary Entry: Gluten Free Check In
Welp… it’s been close to a month and it’s been an adventure. I had a hard time and was feeling a little down on myself recently but I talked with my doctor and have been trying really hard so I decided to be proud of myself instead. I finally am finding some anxiety relief in this transition and...
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Diary Entry: Copings Skills
I have been very frustrated with myself for handling some high stressors in my life the last couple of weeks and my year this year is about taking care of myself and fostering relationships so… I was frustrated. I have a lot going on and my family is struggling with something that we always know…
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Diary Entry: Empath and Medication
Today I wanted to share my experiences with taking anxiety medication and depression meds in the past. I had an epiphany recently that I felt like made sense and aligned with the type of person I’m growing into. Join me in the anxious rambles of sharing my experience and discovering things about...
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Diary Entry: Letting go, healing, and growth mindset
The path to where I’m at has been a long one!! It took me an inordinate amount of time to left go of this pent up anger and begin to heal. I felt like a fraud that people would comment on my positivity and “happy-go-lucky” attitude when I felt it was all an act. I had this mask on where I was...
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Diary Entry: Happy New Year
I fully intended to jump back in by discussing growth and growth mindset and how I realized something I’d done in a past friendship that I could have done better… however! My mouth and soul needed something else! I have been at my breaking point with my disease this last month or so and…
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Diary Entry: Processing (crying) Through a Rough Several of Days
It’s been a rough couple of days. I didn’t want to post tonight but I think I needed to talk through some of my fears and feelings. It’s a lot of crying and some seriously triggering vibes but today’s episode is definitely more for me.
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Diary Entry: The Money VS Resources Meltdown of Second Trimester
As our second trimester is starting and my kids are growing, I’m in need of new and (in general) more resources for them. Starting in a brand new classroom threw me for a loop. I severely underestimated how much money classroom games and resources cost. It was time to get some more resources and...
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Diary Entry: A Triumph Over My Crazy Body
I ran my first 5k and I wanted to share. My body definitely wanted something else but this time I was going to win. I had a painful but super fun experience and can’t wait to do it again! I may or may not have overshared but what else is new! My body is definitely a conundrum but we live with…
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Diary Entry: Beautiful Badass
I’m on cloud nine right now. Before I had a rough hormonal dip at the end of September I realized how far I’ve come and just how truly proud of myself I was. However, hormonal depression took over and pushed me into fraud zone feelings but I processed on my own and tried to ride out the dip to…
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Diary Entry: A Letter to my Best Friends
Hopefully I still have y’all after putting you on blast but… I’m so freaking proud you of! I’m so blessed to call you my friends! I’m honored to share in your journeys through this crazy thing we call life. You three are a huge reason I am the person I am and I can’t wait to share that forever! I...
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Diary Entry: Parenting through Poverty and Checking My Privilege
Parenting doesn’t always come with a book. Parenting through poverty, especially, does not seem to come with a book. I’ve watched so many parents struggle through how to take care of their children and maintain safety for themselves (and their families). Sometimes I seriously struggle to allow…
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Diary Entry: Healthcare is Failing Us
After hearing several situations come up in the last couple of weeks on medical needs being met and some personal issues not being dealt with… I’m fed up with healthcare. I know it’s a sticky road and I’m ignorant in a lot of areas but someone may explain it to me if they have more information...
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Diary Entry: I love you, and I miss you
September 11th hits different for us. I never really processed a lot from today and I think it finally decided to boil over. You were a huge inspiration for me and I hope I can make you happy! I hope I’m giving your memory the energy and fight you gave.
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Diary Entry: Ending Friendships, Setting Boundaries, and Picking Me
Something I’ve always struggled with is picking myself in a situation when I know it’s not healthy or safe for me. It took me a lot of red flags to finally acknowledge there was truly a problem. Sometimes even when it hurts, it’s best to just let things go. Setting boundaries and allowing people...
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Diary Entry: Analysis of Mood Swings
Hangry? Sad? Mad? Home sick? You don’t know? Yeah, well, me either! I used to hate my mood swings. I used to be very embarrassed by them but I’ve learned to love these little boogers! I walk through my process of accepting my mood swings and addressing the root cause. Sometimes, it sucks to spend...
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Diary Entry: Reasons Unknown, Struggling!
It’s been a rough several days. I’m struggling a lot with my inabilities. I’m struggling a lot with forgiving myself and allowing myself a break. I’m frustrated with the ignorance around chronic pain disorders and disability. I’m not solving any problems today but I definitely feel a little…
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Diary Entry: Ramblings of an Anxiety Riddled Teacher
The brain fog is real today!! I’m stressed about being stressed and stressing over meeting my kiddos needs. I can’t help but laugh but sometimes rambling is the only way to process through all of the “fires” in my head. I just want to be the best teacher for my kiddos and support my friends but I...
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Diary Entry: Rough Week Breakdown
This past week was a rough one for me. Between school, chronic pain, and anxieties kicking my ass, I didn’t know if I would make it to Friday. Rationally, of course I knew I could push through but my body was trying very hard to make the rational out to be wrong. I am frustrated with my body and...
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Diary Entry: Recovery After Abuse/Trauma
Abuse and trauma does not always present itself in a way we can realize. Sometimes it takes going through abuse or trauma to recognize all the unhealthy. Sometimes it takes talking about abuse and trauma to recognize what you could have seen or reg flags. We can now recognize boundaries that we...
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Diary Entry: Feeling Trapped but Coping Through It!
For a very long time I’ve struggled with feeling trapped and not self-sabotaging or creating more problems. Today, I had an anxiety win! I was able to process and articulate my way through the anxiety of feeling trapped. Being able to process through this and not having to solely depend on my...
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Diary Entry: Anxieties and Eating Disords
Sometimes we all know that anxiety can get the best of us. Especially when there are some past issues that like to rear their ugly heads. I’ve been struggling recently with having a relapse of my eating disorder because of medical barriers that I have in place at the moment. I know with…
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Diary Entry: Pregnancy Experiences and Emotions Surrounding Other’s Experiences
I had a visitor tonight!! My bestie came to unpack some feelings around our pregnancy experiences and now how we can sometimes struggle with the excitement of other pregnancies. We had struggles with pregnancy in our own ways but now we’re getting to be Aunties more and more!
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Diary Entry: Teacher Panic Moments- Back to School (explicit)
Back to school season is here and this teacher is freaking out. I just want it to be a good year but I have so much more to get done before my kiddos get here. I have so much to look forward to but I needed a freak out moment. Anxiety is on high but it’s going to be a great year!!
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Diary Entry: to Period or Not to Period (THAT IS THE REAL QUESTION)
Join me in trying not to weird myself out by talking PERIODS. Mine, specifically… And the fact I know nothing about my body. Reproductive disorders can be frustrating. And while I thought I just needed to goofily complain, I found I did need to process a frustrating and hurtful emotion. Grief....
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Diary Entry: Disturbing Your Peace, Finding Our Way to a Solution
Imagine someone’s name pops up on your phone or you hear their voice and you immediately get angry… that’s what I mean by disturbing your peace. Join me in unpacking my feelings towards people disturbing my peace and how to find a solution to giving them the power to control my emotions. It is a...
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Diary Entry: Fat Phobia, A Story of Recovery
Today’s episode is wholeheartedly about being fat phobic towards myself. There’s a lot of unpacking of my weight journey. I’ve struggled with eating disorders for several years and it’s taken a toll. I’m working on it and I’m trying to be better about forgiving myself and letting myself be…
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Diary Entry: “Dark” Humor: the Coping Mechanism from Inappropriate Land
You ever made a comment about something in a social situation and realize it was totally inappropriate or not PC? Yeah, that’s 95% of my life! Sometimes my trauma response can definitely come off as crude and joking about serious things can seem insensitive, however, for me it’s not meant to be...
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Diary Entry: Being Turned “On”
It’s not like that! Get your mind out of the gutter! (Don’t worry, I internally giggle every time I say it too!) Join me in unpacking my frustrations with my body and my ability to be… I want so much to care for the world but my body, and therefore my mind, is just not there right now! Is it...
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Diary Entry: Roe V. Wade, Personal Unpacking
I did some research. I reviewed some opinions. I have some thoughts. Roe V. Wade being overturned has given me a lot to think about and unpack. Roe V. Wade gave me a choice. It allowed me an option, but now? What is next? Worries. Fears. Control. Depression. Health. What clue next? Join me in...
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Diary Entry: Journey to “Motherhood”, Aunt/Auntie/TT and Beyond
Explicit. I curse a lot in this one. With Mother’s Day past us, I’ve been extra in my feels. Last week I wasn’t ready to process all these emotions but today, I was ready to start. Loss of the chance to become a “normal” parent is hard. Loss of a child is hard. It takes strong women to provide...
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Diary Entry: To My Ex, I’M SORRY
Explicit content ahead! Today is a hard day for me but I’m not ready to unpack that, however, something did happen this week that I felt I needed to share and apologize to some people that did their best to love an unloveable girl. Self-esteem and a need for validation caused me to make some piss...
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Diary Entry: The Power of Music
How healing is music!? Pretty freaking healing, for me at least! I’m very thankful for the moment music brought me today and I had to share!
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Diary Entry: Perception is KEY
Have you ever noticed that when you try to tell someone what is upsetting you and they get defensive?? I discovered the reason why. Perception. Healing and unpacking is important but in order to do that, we have to realize our interpretation is not always someone else’s.
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Diary Entry: “Taboo” thoughts and SUCKING at it!
Come join me as I unpack my conundrum that is my need to be a “50s housewife” and my found independence! Or more so, me processing new relationship boundaries, giving myself a break, and just me being my goofy self!
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Diary Entry: Processing miscarriage and loss… not something I thought I still thought I needed
TRIGGER WARNING: 🦋 Miscarriage is way more common than we want it to be. If you look at all the women you know, there’s a good chance at least one of them has lost a child. When I lost my child, I thought I’d dealt with it. I thought I was okay, until I wasn’t. I was angry and carrying toxic...
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Dairy Entry: Catholic Wiccan, the oxymoron that I can’t wait to enjoy
The ramblings of the last several months. I’m back baby! New adventures, new discoveries! My journey through life, one interesting moment at a time.
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Survivors Guilt Meltdown... the tears... the anxiety... a solution?
Sometimes we just need to vent. Sometimes we just need someone to say it’s okay. Sometimes we just need to process through our feelings. Survivors guilt is REAL and it’s not always pretty. A struggle is a struggle is a struggle! Accept yours and it’s okay if that’s all you can do.
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Crazy... or crazy exhausted!? Let’s be honest its probably both!
Just your weekly update of the crazy, ridiculousness that is my life and my disease riddled humanness!
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I’m freaking hilarious and I know it! Welcome back to the crazy!
Welcome to season 2! I’m back with a vengeance as I tackle my first year of teaching and balancing life post mental “vacation”! Talk about mental health, life updates and how funny I am! 😂😬
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We All Shit in the Hall... It’s Time to Clean it up, I Suppose. Phone Tree, Anyone?
I’m an absolute mess and feeling a little bit like a hypocrite. We all go through slumps in our healing process and we can all sometimes feel like a victim of our circumstances. Usually I tell you it’s how you choose to handle those and keep on surviving but today, I’m struggling. I feel like I’m...
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Real people answer 7 real HARD HITTING questions about relationships!
This week I wanted to mix it up a bit by “taking it to the streets” so to speak. I asked seven relationship questions to dozens of people and summarized the results. What are your thoughts and answers to the questions? Do you agree? Do you have any other advice or comments?
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Gun in your hand.. pills on the floor. Suicide is as normal as the grass is green!
Trigger warning 🚨🚨 Suicide is not as uncommon as you might think. It’s a real issue facing all facets of people. This episode is about my battles with suicide and my mental health check in. You’re not alone and I’m here for you. I may not have it all together but we can be “crazy” together!
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I Don’t Like Twinkies! Learning To Love Myself and Focus on Health!
Join me in addressing the crazy topic of BODY ISSUES! I don’t often hide the fact that my curves are my friends but I still struggle with loving myself and keeping my confidence high. Society is changing to support women of all shapes and sizes but for some of us, the damage is already done....
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I AM NOT A “PUSSY”! Triggers: knowing them is best.
Triggers do not make us less than. They do not make us weak. Having a struggling mental health is not bad. Join me in discussing my triggers and my areas of growth as I use myself to explain how knowledge is power.
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I AM NOT A LEPER! (breaking down PMDD)
Today join me in learning more and sharing even greater about the disorder prementstral dysphoric disorder (PMDD). It’s what defines the crazy inside me, not entirely but I’d like to blame something! I breakdown the disorder as I’ve processed through it with defining it, causes, symptoms, risk...
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Just Call Me the Queen of “Crazy”
Welcome to Diary of Crazy! This is my podcast about living with and overcoming my trauma and it’s side effects. This episode is simply an introduction to who I am and my passion for why I want to do this show. I tell my story and invite you to listen. I’m just your typical girl trying to save the...
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ABOUT THIS SHOW
Life can be hard let alone coping with all it has to throw at us. As a survivor of sexual assault, the side effects can be quite strenuous. Join me in my journey of rediscovering the happy, go lucky version of myself with the raw and uncut chronicles of surviving PTSD, PMDD, GAD, and disability or more loosely referred to as “Crazy”!
HOSTED BY
Briana Harris
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Life can be hard let alone coping with all it has to throw at us. As a survivor of sexual assault, the side effects can be quite strenuous. Join me in my journey of rediscovering the happy, go lucky version of myself with the raw and uncut chronicles of surviving PTSD, PMDD, GAD, and disability or...
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