FUCK... Where do we start?

Most people think skincare is about products. This episode is about everything underneath them. Today, we sit down with Utah Master Esthetician Emily to talk about beauty, confidence, self-worth, and why no amount of skincare can heal a mindset that’s working against you. From personal growth and heartbreak to the lessons learned inside the treatment room, Emily shares how her own journey shaped the safe space she now creates for women every day. We also dive into the cultural conversations sparked by The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives, the power of compassion, and why comparing your life to someone else’s will always leave you feeling empty.This is a conversation about healing, growth, and learning that true confidence isn’t something you buy. It’s something you build.Follow Emily at @yourestyemily

Some people's stories are about what happened to them.Sierra's story is about becoming themselves.In this episode, we talk about confidence, self-advocacy, learning to say no, and what happens when you stop living for everyone else's expectations and start listening to yourself.We dive into navigating modeling and content creation, the pressure of finding your place, and how easy it is to lose your voice when you're constantly trying to make everyone else happy.One of the most powerful parts of this conversation was talking about the impact the right people can have on your life. Not people who change you—but people who support you, challenge you, and help you become more of who you already are.This episode is about growth, boundaries, self-worth, healthy relationships, and realizing that even the hardest chapters can lead you exactly where you're supposed to be.As Sierra said, if life was a movie, the title would be Right Person, Right Place.And honestly? After hearing this story, that title makes perfect sense.🎙️ Full episode of FUCK…Where Do We Start? now streaming.Follow Sierra:📸 IG: @sierradoes.art

This episode is one of the most grounded and important conversations I’ve had so far.I sat down with Gina and we talked about veterans, health struggles, mental health, parenting, burnout, survival mode, and what it looks like to finally start putting yourself first after spending so much of your life taking care of everyone else.This conversation is honest, emotional, and incredibly relatable for anyone who’s ever felt exhausted from constantly carrying the weight of life while still trying to show up for others.We also talk about healing, identity, self-worth, and the reality that surviving something and actually living again are two very different things.This episode is powerful in a quiet, real way — and I think a lot of people need this conversation right now.Full episode of FUCK…Where Do We Start? 🎙️ now streaming!If you or someone you know is struggling with mental health, please reach out to your friends, family, doctors or 988.You matter.

This episode is for the people trying to build something bigger than themselves.I sat down with Grapefruit & Thyme and talked about the real side of building a business — the fear, the risk, the self-doubt, the growth, and what it actually takes to keep going when things feel uncertain.So many people see the final product without realizing the amount of hard work and personal growth behind it.This conversation is honest, motivating, emotional, and incredibly real.Full episode of FUCK…Where Do We Start? 🎙️ now streaming! Don't forget to check out their cute coffee shack as well!📍1603 Stratford Ave, Salt Lake City, UTOpen THUR/FRI 7AM-2PM & SAT-SUN 9AM-2PM📍145 S Pleasant Grove Blvd Ste B, Pleasant Grove, UT 84062🌐 grapefruitandthyme.com 

This episode was recorded almost a year ago… and listening back to it now feels a little surreal.This conversation was with someone who was once one of my closest friends, and even though life looks different now, I still think there’s something really special about capturing moments in time exactly as they were.You can hear the history, the comfort, the chaos, the honesty — all of it.Sometimes old conversations hit differently when you’ve grown since them.Full episode of FUCK…Where Do We Start? 🎙️ now streaming ✨🖤

This episode honestly blew me away.I sat down with Dr. Serena Sterling — doctor, author, and creator of Satya, a dating app rooted in actual human behavior and genuine connection.But this conversation became so much more than dating.We talked about mental health, healing, psychology, relationships, self-awareness, and the deeper reasons people connect the way they do. The more we talked, the more everything started connecting — not just in dating, but in life.This episode is thoughtful, real, and one of those conversations that stays with you afterward.Full episode of FUCK…Where Do We Start? 🎙️ now streaming on SpotifyWant to check out Satya or join the waitlist? 👀https://www.satyadating.com/

This episode is really special to me.I sat down with my daughter for one of the sweetest, funniest, and most genuine conversations I’ve had so far on FUCK…Where Do We Start? 🎙️Between the chaos, random tangents, little life lessons, and pure honesty that only kids can bring — this episode became such a reminder of what really matters.Sometimes the most meaningful conversations aren’t the deepest or most dramatic… they’re the ones that make you slow down and just be present.This one is full of love, laughter, and a little bit of chaos — obviously.

This episode is a special one for me.I sat down with my longtime friend Taki — someone I’ve known since 3rd grade — and we had a real conversation about what it’s like to grow up feeling unseen.Taki has been diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder, but this isn’t a conversation about labels — it’s about being human. It’s about wanting to be understood, wanting to be treated like everyone else, and navigating a world that doesn’t always make space for that.We talk about identity, friendships, feeling overlooked, and what “normal” actually means.This one isn’t about speaking for him — it’s about listening.Taki TroungTikTok: @takister

Men's mental health.. why don't we talk about this more...This episode dives into the reality of being a man trying to hold everything together.Sitting down with Christan and Brandon, we talk about men’s mental health, the pressure to provide, and what it actually feels like to be a parent while trying to build something bigger at the same time.There’s this unspoken expectation to stay strong, stay focused, and keep going—no matter what’s going on internally. But what happens when that weight starts catching up to you?Brandon opens up about navigating childhood trauma, depression, and the internal battle that comes with becoming the man you always knew you could be. From fatherhood to building an AI company from the ground up, he shares what it really looks like to put in the work—mentally, emotionally, and in real life—when no one else sees it.We get into the balance between showing up for your family, chasing success, and not losing yourself in the process.Because it’s not just about doing it for them…it’s about learning how to do it for you too.Christian didn't know he was going to be on this episode!you never know what could happen here. Guest Spotlight:Christian — Single father, full stack web developer focused on modern technologies and emerging trends. Trauma survivor. Christian has a big heart and a strong passion for helping others. From the lowest of lows, he's here. Still fighting. If you only knew the strength.Instagram: @cbmoninstaWebsite: www.christianbmartinez.comBrandon Harris — Father, husband, and AI founder building in one of the fastest-moving industries today. Open about his journey through trauma, depression, and self-discovery, Brandon brings a raw and honest perspective on what it really takes to become someone you’re proud of.Instagram: @stridesystemsaiWebsite: www.stridesystems.netReal conversation. No filters. Just the truth.

My first in-studio guest episode… and we really just said “fuck it, let’s go there.”Let’s meet the woman who just made history, Candace McBride! • Small business owner • body positive activist • queen of claw games & daddy issues ❤️Candace McBride has lived a lot of life — addiction, sobriety (4+ years), motherhood, relationships, rebuilding everything, and figuring out who she actually is now.We talk about all of it — the real, the messy, the stuff people don’t say out loud.Also… she got hit in the face with a basketball by Zac Efron.So yeah. This episode has range. Follow Candace!Instagram: @candacefaye14 @cuffedbycandace Email: [email protected]

Going no contact with your family is a different kind of heartbreak.Not because you don’t love them… but because loving them was destroying you.And somehow, after everything… you still end up being the villain in their version of the story.In this episode, I talk about what no one really prepares you for— the guilt, the silence, the lack of accountability, and the emotional weight of choosing yourself when it means losing people you never thought you would.This isn’t polished. This isn’t perfect. This is just where I’m at right now.If you’ve ever had to walk away to protect your peace… you’re not alone in that.🎙️ Podcast: FUCK… Where Do We Start New episodes: real, raw, and unfiltered conversations about life, trauma, healing, and everything in between

We’ve all heard the phrase: “If he wanted to, he would.”But is it always that simple?In this episode, we’re talking about effort in relationships, the difference between genuine interest and bare minimum energy, and how confusing modern dating has become. When someone is really into you, you shouldn’t have to decode their behavior like it’s a secret message.So let’s talk about it… because sometimes the real question isn’t “If he wanted to, he would.”Sometimes the question is:Why are we accepting so much less than that?

Sometimes life falls apart before it falls into place. In this episode, I’m talking about those moments when everything feels chaotic — relationships are messy, your career feels uncertain, you’re questioning every decision you’ve ever made, and you’re wondering if you’re completely screwing up your life.But what if that chaos is actually the moment before everything changes?This episode is about being in the uncomfortable middle… the part where nothing makes sense yet.

At some point in life, many of us realize something uncomfortable — some people never actually knew us. They only knew the version of us that fit their expectations.In this episode, Ashley talks about what happens when you stop shrinking yourself to keep the peace. The moment people say “you’ve changed,” the grief that can come with outgrowing relationships, and the freedom that comes from finally being honest about who you are.Growth can disrupt the roles people expect us to play — and not everyone is ready for that. But becoming more authentic is not a flaw. It’s evolution.If you’ve ever been told you’re “too much,” “too different,” or that you’ve “changed”… this conversation might hit home.

Life doesn’t always fall apart in obvious ways. Sometimes it quietly shifts beneath your feet until you wake up one day realizing everything feels uncertain.In this episode, Ashley talks about the messy middle — the confusing space between who you used to be and who you’re becoming. The loneliness, the growth, the fear, and the unexpected beauty of rebuilding your life when nothing feels stable yet.If you feel like you’re figuring life out in real time… this episode is for you.

At some point in life, you realize something that kind of hits like a truck… you’ve been living your entire life for everyone else.Trying to be the good daughter, the good partner, the good parent, the good employee. Trying to earn love, approval, and acceptance from people who may never give it.In this episode, we talk about the moment that realization hits — when you finally stop performing for everyone around you and start asking yourself what you actually want.We’re getting into people-pleasing, guilt, boundaries, and the uncomfortable but powerful process of choosing yourself.Because the truth is… once you see it, you can’t unsee it.And that’s where everything starts to change.

It’s late. I should be asleep. But my brain wouldn’t shut the f*ck up.This is a quiet, solo episode — no big lesson, no perfectly wrapped ending. Just me, sitting with the thoughts that show up after everyone else is asleep. The ones about burnout, grief, feeling behind, being strong for too long, and wondering when it’s finally your turn to rest.If you’re listening in bed, exhausted but wide awake, spiraling through old memories or future worries — this episode is for you. You’re not broken. You’re not alone. And you don’t have to have everything figured out tonight.Just breathe. We’ll figure it out eventually.

Hiiii. Allow me to re-introduce myself, join us for the crazy ride coming on SEASON 2! 🖤🖤

This one’s for the people who’ve done the work…The ones who’ve fought to love themselves, built themselves back up with tape and glue and still find themselves wondering why they’re never enough for the people they care about.In this episode, I open up about the gut-punch of self-worth.. when you know you’re enough, but the silence, the ghosting, the distance from others makes you question everything. I talk about what it feels like to love deeply, show up fully, and still feel unwanted. About shrinking yourself, waiting for the text that doesn’t come, and trying not to beg for love you know you deserve.If you’ve ever sat with that ache 😞 the one that feels like “What else do I have to do to be enough?” You’re not alone. Let’s talk about it.🖤

In this solo episode, I discuss the hardest kind of grief..losing a friend you thought would be there forever. I talk about loving someone platonically and romantically, the pain of reaching out and getting silence, and the brutal ache of waiting for a response.I also address my own accountability, the things I wish I’d done differently, the words I never said, and how grief lingers even when someone’s still alive. This episode is for anyone who’s lost someone without a goodbye. 😞🖤

Raising my son alone.. the grief, strength and pure heartbreak of our reality. ❣️

I’ve been MIA… I’ve missed you though. ❣️

This one’s deep I know… but the reality of this is real. Let’s learn how to trust ourselves again. I love you ❣️

Trust is so fucking hard to rebuild. Let’s talk about the reality of realllllly wanting to trust someone, but just can’t.. ❣️

Something that’s been weighing heavy on me.. I never feel good enough. Can you relate? Let’s fuckin talk about it. ❣️

Judge me all you want for this one. I knooooow I’m not alone on this, just have the balls to talk about it ❣️ if you relate hmu so I don’t feel so alone 🫠🙃

Feeling like you ALWAYS care more? Let’s rant about it ❣️❣️ I know it’s long babe, just stay till the end 🫠

Grieving the relationship you’ll never have with your younger siblings? Knowing that this wasn’t your choice.. but the choice of others. Let’s talk about it ❣️

This one is definitely a rant. Honestly, unfiltered, I’m tired of this shit rant. Let’s talk about why people can talk the talk, but not walk the walk. ❣️

Stuck in a toxic marriage and just need a push? Press play ❣️

Do you suffer from high-functioning anxiety? Let’s talk about it ❣️

Dealing with a chronic illness? Let’s talk about how shitty it is to get diagnosed 🫠

Are you a self-sabotager? Let’s talk about the joy that is. ❣️

Are you deep into loneliness? That’s normal. Let’s talk about how it feels to have fucking no one to turn to. ❣️

Do you have CPTSD or know someone who has it? Let’s talk about the real raw truth of what it’s like to live with. ❣️

Stuck on a cycle of negative thoughts? Let’s talk about it. ❣️

Do you feel alone a lot of the time? Let’s dive into the difference between being alone vs. being fucking lonely! ❣️

Let’s talking about the raw and real truth of loving an addict. ❣️

Are you tryin to break these generational curses? Let’s talk about how fucked up this shit is. ❣️

Hardcore grieving the life you thought you’d have? The one you wished for growing up? Let’s talk about the trauma it gives us when you didn’t grow up with the parent you needed. ❣️

Toxic step-parent? Let’s see how that really fucks us up in the long run. ❣️

The Divorced, Bitter & PettyDivorced parents that hate each other? Let’s dig deep and dive right in ❣️

Stuck on what to do when your life is a revolving door of shit? Let’s talk about it ❣️💋

Time to learn about that childhood wound. Let’s dive in and trauma bond together ❣️

Ever wonder what the difference is between boundaries and toxicity? Don’t worry babe, let’s break it the fuck down together.❣️

Do you have a narcissistic parents? Let’s talk about the level of trauma that gives us 😅

Family Trauma: Just Because We’re Related Doesn’t Mean I Owe You Shit. I mean pretty self explanatory 🤷🏻‍♀️❣️

Trauma made me a savage… but lowkey fucked me up 🫠🙃 Let’s talk trauma?

Are we dating or are you just wasting my fucking time? The real raw truth about modern dating ❣️

Tales from the toxic: The most unhinged shit we’ve ever put up with. ❣️💋😅