Garden of Becoming
by Nallieli Santamaria
A podcast about becoming more whole, integrated, and alive.Through conversations with somatic practitioners, scientists, and artists, we explore how your nervous system holds trauma, how your sense of self shapes what you allow yourself to want, how your relationship to language and voice shapes your reality, and how your relationships to sex, money, and self-worth shape your capacity to live, love, express, and receive more fully.Each episode offers practices that bring you back into relationship with yourself.Come as you are. Emerge more fully you.
Episodes
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Beyond Words: How Creativity Helps You Understand and Express What You Feel | Gloria Jensen
Have you ever felt something deeply but struggled to find the words for it? Or found yourself so caught up in your head that you've lost touch with what you're actually feeling? In this episode of The Garden of Becoming, I sit down with Gloria Jensen, a coach and healing artist who uses…
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Don’t Cancel Them, Sing Them Back In: Community, Conflict & Repair | Aviv Asis
What does it take to find our way back to one another? What happens when we hurt each other, make mistakes, or find ourselves on the outside of a community we once belonged to? And how do we take responsibility for the harm we cause without losing compassion for ourselves or for the people we...
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What Matters: Love, Death & the Sacredness of Being Human | Dr. Jared Dupree (Jared WholeHEART)
What if heartbreak isn’t a sign that love has failed—but an invitation to love more deeply? What if love can remain real even when two people can no longer fully meet one another? And what if allowing something to end can be an act of love in itself? In this episode of The Garden of Becoming, I…
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The Father Wound: Why Men Struggle to Feel, Receive, and Be Vulnerable | Darragh Stewart, PhD
What happens when the voice of the man who raised you becomes the voice you carry inside yourself? Maybe you learned early on that mistakes weren't safe. Maybe you became the one who never asks for help, never lets your guard down, or feels like you always have something to prove. Maybe anger…
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Making Love with Life: The 13 Kali Practice for Savoring Beginnings, Endings, and Everything Between | Crystal Dawn
What if you could make love with life—even when life isn't going the way you want it to? What would it mean to meet change, uncertainty, endings, and even suffering with curiosity instead of resistance? In this episode of The Garden of Becoming, I sit down with Crystal Dawn, a non-dual shamanic...
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How to Stay Grounded When Love Makes You Anxious | Jannaé Rice
Do you ever abandon yourself in relationships? Maybe you overthink every text. Maybe you ignore the knot in your stomach because you don't want to seem "too much." Maybe you keep chasing after someone even though you know you don't feel emotionally safe with them. And the worst part… maybe you…
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When Money Gets Emotional: Love, Family & Business | Sarah McCrum
Are you actually available for more money? Most of us think we want more money. But what happens when more money actually arrives? Do you feel relaxed enough to receive it? Or do you immediately feel the need to control it, hold onto it, justify it, or worry about losing it? In this episode of…
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How Do I Become the Person I Want to Be? 3 Spirals of Intentional Living | Hendrik Lasse Berberich
Are you living by choice—or by conditioning? Who we become isn't shaped only by what happens to us. It's shaped by the stories we believe, the emotions we inhabit, and the habits we practice each day. In this episode of The Garden of Becoming, we sit down with Hendrik Lasse Berberich, author of…
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Learning to Trust Yourself Again: Healthy Love After Years of Self-Abandonment | Celeste Gonzalez
Do you want fantasy... or do you want reality? Most of us think we're searching for love. But often, what we're really chasing is intensity—the rush of being chosen, the chemistry, the certainty that this person will finally make us feel whole. But what if healthy love feels completely different?...
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Is It Possible to Have Sex Every Day After 30 Years of Marriage? | Matilda Gregersdotter
Is it really possible to enjoy sex every day after 30 years of marriage and raising four children together? For most couples, that sounds unrealistic—if not impossible. But for today's guest, that's exactly how she and her husband have lived for the past 18 years. In this episode of The Garden of...
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5 Stages of Conscious Leadership: Entrepreneurship as a Spiritual Path | Dane Tomas
Most of us think of entrepreneurship as a way to make an impact, earn a living, or pursue our purpose. But what if building a business isn't separate from your spiritual path? What if it's one of the deepest forms of it? In this episode, I sit down with Dane Tomas—artist, entrepreneur, and...
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How Psychodrama Transforms Workplace Conflict and Builds Trust | Kevin Thomas
What if the biggest obstacle in your relationships isn't the other person... It's the limits of your own perspective? Whether we're in conflict with a partner, a family member, a colleague, or even ourselves, we naturally experience the world through a single point of view. We explain, defend,...
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Your Longings Lead You Back to Who You Really Are | Ceylan Kara
What if the life you're meant to live doesn't begin with a plan—but with a longing? Most of us have learned to dismiss our deepest desires. We call them impractical. Selfish. Unrealistic. We convince ourselves they don't matter—or that following them will cost us the people we love, the life…
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The Future You Is Calling: Expanding Your Identity to Create the Life You Want | Natanya Bravo
Why do we keep chasing the life we want… while unconsciously resisting it at the same time? Most of us believe the reason we don't have what we want is because we're missing the right strategy, more confidence, or one more breakthrough. But what if the biggest obstacle isn't a lack of…
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Can You Let Yourself Receive? Expanding Your Capacity Through Breathwork, Energy, and Pleasure | Elaine Yonge
How much of life can you actually receive? Most of us think we want more: more love, more joy, more intimacy, more abundance. But what if the real question isn't what we're reaching for, but how much we're able to hold? Our capacity to receive is deeply connected to our capacity to feel. When…
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Reclaiming the Parts of Yourself You Left Behind: The Trade We Make for Love | Francesca Gentille
Who did you have to become to be loved? Most of us make an early, almost invisible trade — belonging for authenticity, love for self-abandonment. And the parts of us we exile in that trade don’t disappear. They go underground. Where they quietly shape our patterns of desire, conflict, and...
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No Sex. No Porn. No Distraction. What Men Discover When They Stop Escaping Themselves | Hans Morgenstern
Most of us don’t realize how much of our lives are shaped by subtle forms of escape. Scrolling. Reaching out. Seeking validation. Even the way we relate to attraction and connection. But what happens when all of that is taken away? In this episode of The Garden of Becoming, I sit down with Hans...
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Moving Through Rage, Grief, and the Parts That Struggle with Forgiveness | Reverend Carlton Teabout
Forgiveness is one of the most challenging—and transformative—practices on the path to inner freedom. I sit down with Reverend Carlton Teabout of the Agape International Spiritual Center to uncover what it truly takes to forgive using the 3 Pillars of Forgiveness. In this vulnerable conversation,...
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Money & the Subconscious Roots of Scarcity | Michelle Masters, NLP
Most of us think about money in terms of bank accounts and budgets — but the story of your financial life runs much deeper. It’s shaped by beliefs, family loyalties, and unconscious patterns you may not even realize you’re carrying. In this episode of The Garden of Becoming, I sit down with...
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Embodied Leadership: When Mind and Body Finally Align | Aaron Kleinerman
In this episode of The Garden of Becoming, I sit down with embodiment teacher and leadership guide Aaron Kleinerman to explore the practice of embodied leadership—the integration of mind, body, emotion, and presence. Aaron shares how many of our reactions and relationship patterns are rooted in...
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Your Voice & the Courage to Take Up Space | Kris Meyers
Most of us think about our voice only in terms of communication. But the voice is also vibration, breath, sensation, and emotion moving through the body. When we learn to work with sound consciously, it can become a powerful way to release stored emotions, reconnect with pleasure, and reclaim…
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How Adolescent Wounds Live in Your Adult Relationships | Dr. Stacy Ellis
Adolescence is one of the most formative—and often most misunderstood—chapters of our lives. It's the time when we begin asking the deepest questions of identity: Who am I? Where do I belong? What parts of me are safe to show the world? But for many of us, those questions were answered under...
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3 Days Alone in the Desert: What a Vision Quest Reveals About You | Lars Borgmann
What if the person you've been performing your whole life isn't actually you? In this expansive conversation, Lars Borgmann — a therapist and vision quest guide with nearly 30 years of experience leading people into radical solitude — shares what happens when you strip away every mirror, every...
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Taboo as Medicine: How the Desires We Hide Might Be the Ones That Heal Us | Shadi Terra on Shamanic Kink
Reclaiming Power and Wholeness Through Shamanic Kink In this conversation, Shadi Terra invites us into a ceremonial approach to BDSM that transforms what's considered taboo into sacred technology for healing. We explore how conscious power exchange, role play, and sensation can offer the nervous...
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Choosing Love in a Fractured World | Bruce Lyon
In this profound conversation, Bruce Lyon explores why the collective crisis we’re living through may not be collapse—but initiation. We talk about psychological death and rebirth, the cost of avoiding transformation, and why humanity may be facing a threshold it can no longer postpone. This...
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What Actually Makes Love Last | Laurie Handlers
Chemistry gets you in. But it doesn't teach you how to stay. Most people believe if they find the one, happily ever after is automatic. Then reality hits: you're repeating family patterns, don't know how to communicate when triggered, and feel too ashamed to ask for help. Laurie Handlers, founder...
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When Meditation is Not Enough: Depth Hypnosis & Healing Trauma | Juliana Sloane
In this nuanced and grounding conversation, Buddhist teacher and depth hypnosis practitioner Juliana Sloane explores why not every wound responds to stillness—and why not every wound needs more intensity. Some experiences require co-regulation, discernment, and tools that work beyond the…
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Why Orgasm Feels Just Out of Reach: Rewiring the Nervous System for Pleasure | Usha Rose
What if the pleasure you're seeking isn't about better techniques—but about teaching your body it's finally safe to surrender? In this deeply personal conversation, Sex and Relationship Coach Usha Rose reveals why your nervous system—not your arousal level—determines your capacity for pleasure....
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Anxiously Attached? Here's How to Heal It | Dr. Elizabeth Willis
Have you ever caught yourself reaching for your phone at 2 AM, needing to know if they still care? Or rehearsing the same conversation over and over in your head, convinced if you just say the right thing, they'll finally understand? In this conversation, Elizabeth Willis breaks down what anxious...
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Stress is the Messenger: How HRV Reveals What’s Happening in Your Nervous System | Mike Zoun
What if stress isn't the problem—but how you've been taught to respond to it is? In this conversation, Mike Zoun breaks down why chasing calm keeps you stuck. Through heart rate variability (HRV) measurement and somatic practices, Mike reveals what your body has been trying to tell you all along:...
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Jealousy, Nervous Systems & Desire: What Ethical Non-Monogamy Can Teach Any Relationship | Briana Cribeyer
In this deeply embodied conversation, sacred sexuality facilitator Briana Cribeyer reveals why our relationships trigger our youngest, most wounded parts—and how to practice showing up as adults in love. Whether you're monogamous, non-monogamous, or single, this episode offers revolutionary...
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How EMDR Rewires Trauma | Dr. Rachelle Kammer
In this transformative episode, Dr. Rachelle Kammer introduces us to EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing)—a powerful therapy modality that works with your nervous system to release trauma stored in your body, not just your mind. Rachelle explains how EMDR can access unconscious...
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Bibliotherapy: How Writing Can Set You Free | Dr. Ravi Shankar
Have you ever felt defined by your worst moment? Like one failure, one mistake, or one traumatic experience has become the story of who you are? In this raw, honest conversation, I sit down with Pushcart Prize-winning poet Dr. Ravi Shankar to explore how writing can literally set us free—whether...
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How Language Shapes Your Reality | Hendrick Lasse Berberich
What if the words you use every day are creating the life you're living—for better or worse? In this conversation, coach and organizational development expert Hendrik Berberich reveals how language functions as technology, shaping not just what we communicate, but the reality we experience."...
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What Happens When We Die? An Astrophysicist's Journey from Existential Fear to Peace | Dr. Margot Brouwer
What does it mean to be human in an endless universe? And how do we find meaning when science seems to have declared God dead? In this profound conversation, Dr. Margot Brouwer shares her personal journey from childhood panic attacks about death to becoming an astrophysicist—and ultimately...
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How to Turn Your Triggers into a Map for Transformation | Aaron Mandelbaum
What if the thing triggering you right now is actually a gift? What if shame, guilt, and fear around your body aren't personality flaws—they're just human patterns you can interrupt? In this raw, honest conversation, Aaron Mandelbaum—philosopher, tantra facilitator, and transformation…
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Forest Bathing Can Reset Your Nervous System (Just 20 Minutes Outside) | Andrea Jaramillo, RN
What if the healing you've been searching for isn't in another app, book, or wellness trend? What if it's literally growing all around you? In this powerful conversation, I sit down with Andrea Jaramillo - a public health nurse, certified forest therapy guide, grief and ceremony holder, and…
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Men's Work: Shame, Armor & the New Masculinity | Blake Zealear
In this powerful conversation, men's work facilitator Blake Zealear opens up about the unique challenges facing men today and the transformative power of authentic brotherhood. What You'll Learn: Why most men struggle with feelings of inadequacy and constant comparison The difference between…
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Reclaiming Your Voice Through Poetry | Meredith Heller
Join us for an intimate conversation with poet and author Meredith Heller as she shares her powerful journey from homeless teenager to guide helping women worldwide reclaim their authentic voices through poetry. We explore how writing serves as deep medicine for the soul, transforming our...
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Fear is Stuck in Your Body – Here's How to Heal It | Karlijn Kouwenhoven
Have you ever known exactly what you need to change but felt unable to actually do it? This conversation with transformation facilitator Karlijn Kouwenhoven reveals why traditional approaches often fall short and how working with your emotional body creates lasting change. Karlijn left her...
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Your Chronic Tension Is Stored Trauma : Release It with Somatic De-Armoring | Rahi Chun
With Rahi Chun, Somatic Sex Educator & NeuroAffective Touch Practitioner What if the tension you carry isn't something to fix, but wisdom your body is trying to share? In this raw and transformative conversation, Somatic Sex Educator Rahi Chun explains why your body holds onto emotional…
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Welcome to the Garden of Becoming!
Welcome to the Garden of Becoming! Weekly episodes invite you into soulful conversation with healers, artists, and embodied guides exploring transformation, trauma healing, conscious sexuality, spirituality, creative expression, and the raw magic of being human. We speak to the things that move...
About this show
A podcast about becoming more whole, integrated, and alive.Through conversations with somatic practitioners, scientists, and artists, we explore how your nervous system holds trauma, how your sense of self shapes what you allow yourself to want, how your relationship to language and voice shapes your reality, and how your relationships to sex, money, and self-worth shape your capacity to live, love, express, and receive more fully.Each episode offers practices that bring you back into relationship with yourself.Come as you are. Emerge more fully you.
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Nallieli Santamaria
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