Guess I'm Still here

In this episode, we pick up after a significant relapse that led to a psychiatric emergency and a short hospitalization. Miles talks about some of the practices that are supporting him now and the gradual realization that there may not be a “magical cure” for what he is dealing with. The conversation opens into deeper themes of acceptance, the difficulty of being supported without being fixed, the impact of parental care that can unintentionally become pressure, and the emotional work of allowing someone to be where they areIf you or someone you know is struggling with depression or thoughts of suicide, please reach out to a mental health professional or someone you trust. You’re not alone.Call or text the Suicide & Crisis Lifeline at 988 (available 24/7)Visit nami.org for support and resources through the National Alliance on Mental Illness

Depression doesn’t work on a timeline.So, a year after our first episode, we’re back. We talk about everything that’s happened since: medication changes, TMS treatment, OCD, intrusive thought loops, and the exhausting search for certainty.Miles opens up about exposure therapy, social anxiety, obsessive thinking about the future, and the realization that some of what he thought was depression may actually be OCD-driven anxiety. Along the way, we talk candidly about fear, shame, vulnerability, and what it feels like to get stuck inside your own mind.More than anything, this episode is about continuing the conversation.If you or someone you know is struggling with depression or thoughts of suicide, please reach out to a mental health professional or someone you trust. You’re not alone.Call or text the Suicide & Crisis Lifeline at 988 (available 24/7)Visit nami.org for support and resources through the National Alliance on Mental Illness

In this first episode of Guess I’m Still Here, we sit down for an unfiltered conversation about the breaking point that led Miles to come home from college in the middle of a mental health crisis. We explore what was really happening behind the scenes—depression, disconnection, the shame of not being able to “push through” and the painful gaps in understanding that can show up in even the most loving parent-child relationships.This episode sets the stage for our series, capturing how we got here and why we’re opening up these conversations about mental health. In future episodes, we’ll explore the ongoing work of healing, the challenges of navigating support and autonomy, and speak with mental health experts to better understand what helps—and what doesn’t—when someone you love is struggling.If you or someone you know is struggling with mental health:Call or text the Suicide & Crisis Lifeline at 988 (available 24/7)Visit nami.org for support and resources through the National Alliance on Mental IllnessReach out to a therapist, counselor, or trusted support personYou’re not alone. Help is available.Music Credit:Burn, Burn, Burn by Zach Bryan,* and performed by Miles Miller. *Used with appreciation for its honest, emotional resonance. Please support the artist wherever you listen to music.