How I Met Jesus

Send us Fan MailWhat if your need for control… is actually fear?In this episode, I explore the deeper reason behind control— and why we hold onto it so tightly. Control tries to keep you safe. Trust is what sets you free.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailWhat if you’re not “preparing”… just trying to control everything?In this episode, I share how my need for clarity was actually a form of control—and why that’s been holding me back from taking action.You don’t need full clarity. You just need to begin.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailHave you ever planned something in your head… so many times… that you felt like you already did it?In this episode, I share a pattern I’ve been noticing in myself— overthinking everything before taking action. And in the process… using up all my energy before I even begin.This episode explores the deeper reason behind overthinking— the need for control, safety, and certainty. Because maybe you’re not lazy. Maybe you’re just trying to protect yourself.And maybe the goal is not to think less, but to trust more. To take one small step— before your mind talks you out of it. Because you don’t have to think it through perfectly to begin. You just have to begin.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailWhy is it so hard to choose… even when you have options?In this episode, I share what it really feels like to be stuck between paths— and how I’m learning to move forward without a perfect answer.You don’t have to choose perfectly. You just have to choose honestly.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailHave you ever felt like you know what to do… but still hesitate?In this episode, I explore why we struggle to trust our own voice — and how that’s connected to fear, past experiences, and faith. Through personal experiences, I explore how that pattern was formed — and how it quietly keeps us stuck in cycles of hesitation, doubt, and overthinking.It’s hard to trust yourself when you’ve been trained to doubt yourself.But what if learning to trust yourself is not about relying on yourself alone…What if it’s about learning to trust what God has already placed within you? You don’t need to be certain. You just need to trust enough to begin.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailHave you ever felt like you know you can do something… but you still don’t?In this episode, I reflect on a deeper truth I’ve been facing — that what’s been holding me back is not a lack of ability, but fear. Fear of failure. Fear of being seen.  Fear of being judged. And sometimes… even fear of success.Fear doesn’t remove your gifts. It just convinces you not to use them. This episode is about recognizing fear for what it is — not truth, not identity — but something we’ve learned to protect ourselves.Maybe you don’t need to feel ready to begin. You just need to see what’s been holding you back.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailIn this episode, I share how childhood experiences can shape the way we see ourselves — and how we learn to suppress what once came naturally. You were never too much. You were just in places that didn’t know how to receive you.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailHave you ever felt like you have something inside you… but you’re not fully using it?In this episode, I reflect on the story of Peter the Apostle — someone far from perfect, yet chosen and used in a powerful way.Through his story, I began to ask a deeper question: What if the issue is not that we lack gifts, but that we’ve been waiting too long to use them?I share my own experience of holding back — waiting to feel ready, confident, or “good enough” — and how that waiting quietly kept me from stepping into what I already have.You don’t need to become someone else to use your gifts. You just need to stop hiding them. Maybe the question is not “Am I ready?” but “Am I willing?”Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailIn this episode, I share a difficult season in my business journey—losing accounts, money, and partnerships—and how it impacted my confidence and mindset. More importantly, I reflect on what these experiences taught me about failure, growth, and self-forgiveness. If you’re navigating setbacks, self-doubt, or the fear of trying again, this episode offers a perspective that may help you move forward with more clarity and compassion.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailFor a long time, money was how I measured everything — my success, my value, even my life. But even when I had more… it never felt like enough.In this episode, I share a personal shift I’ve been experiencing — from chasing money to questioning what I was really looking for all along. Through honest reflection, I talk about anxiety, expectations, and what it feels like to have less… but finally feel more at peace.I made more money before… but felt less peace.Maybe money was never the real goal.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailWhat if money was never the real goal?In this episode, I reflect on a personal turning point — from chasing money as a measure of success, to discovering a different kind of fulfillment.Through recent experiences, I share how my relationship with money has been shifting — from pressure to peace, from “never enough” to “just enough.”I thought money would make me feel enough… but peace was what I was actually looking for. Maybe real success is not about how much we have, but how we live with what we have.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailI got baptized on Easter.But this episode isn’t just about what happened— it’s about why it mattered.For a long time, my life was driven by pressure, control, and a quiet fear of not being enough. I thought if I worked harder and pushed more, I could build the life I wanted. But something inside me was always tired.In this episode, I share my journey—from relying only on myself, to slowly experiencing God in the quiet moments, and finally choosing to surrender and step into a new life.Baptism, for me, is not just a ritual. It’s a declaration. A decision to leave behind fear… and learn to trust God.If you’ve ever felt tired, anxious, or like you’re carrying everything alone— this episode is for you.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailIs it wrong to want money?In this episode, I explore the quiet tension between faith and financial desire — the part of us that wants to build, grow, and create… and the part of us that feels uncomfortable about it.Through personal reflection and a powerful family story, I begin to uncover how our beliefs about money are often shaped long before we realize it — through history, fear, and what we’ve inherited.Sometimes we don’t just inherit resources. We inherit fear. Maybe the question is not whether money is right or wrong, but what we’ve been taught to believe about it.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailIn this episode, I open up about something I’ve carried quietly for a long time—my fear around money.It’s not just about numbers, income, or stability. It goes deeper than that.I share where this fear really comes from—growing up in an environment shaped by pressure, uncertainty, and unspoken expectations… and how those experiences still influence the way I think, work, and even make decisions today.If you’ve ever felt anxious about money, even when things seem “okay” on the surface… If you’ve ever questioned your worth because of your financial situation… This episode is for you.We’ll gently explore the roots of that fear— and begin to see it with more compassion, not judgment. Because healing your relationship with money is also part of healing your heart.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailWhy does money feel so heavy… even when we have enough?In this episode, I reflect on the quiet anxiety I’ve carried around money — the pressure to earn more, the fear of not having enough, and the constant need to feel secure.Because sometimes, it’s not really about money. It’s about what we believe will happen if money is not there.When money becomes our safety, uncertainty begins to feel like a threat.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailWhy does it feel like the things we truly love don’t always make money… and the things that make money don’t always feel meaningful?In this episode, I reflect on the tension between passion and survival — the desire to follow what we feel called to do, while still trying to stay financially secure.Through personal experiences and honest questions, I explore the deeper struggle behind money — fear, control, and the need to feel safe.Maybe the real question is not about money, but about what we’re asking money to give us.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailWhat if you don’t have to prove your worth anymore?In this episode, I reflect on the shift from striving to be enough…to finally living from the truth that you already are.After exploring unworthiness, fear, and identity, this episode is about release — learning to stop performing for love, and start living from a place of being already loved.You are not here to earn your worth.You are here to live from it.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailIf I already understand where my unworthiness comes from…why is it still so hard to change?In this episode, I explore the tension between awareness and transformation — why old beliefs can still feel real, even when we know they’re not true.Through personal reflection, I share what it looks like to slowly unlearn what was never true, and begin to trust a different truth.Just because something feels true doesn’t mean it is true.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailWhere does the feeling of “not enough” really come from?In this episode, I reflect on how unworthiness is often not something we were born with — but something we learned.Through personal stories and childhood memories, I explore how early experiences, family dynamics, and unspoken messages quietly shape the way we see ourselves.Many of our beliefs about our worth were formed before we even understood them.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailHave you ever been loved… and still felt uneasy?In this episode, I reflect on a pattern I began to notice in my own relationships — how fear, insecurity, and unworthiness can lead us to push love away, even when we deeply want it.Sometimes it’s not that love is missing. It’s that we don’t know how to trust it. Sometimes we don’t push love away because we don’t want it.We push it away because we’re afraid it won’t stay.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailHave you ever been loved by someone… and still felt like you didn’t deserve it?Or found yourself questioning a relationship, not because the other person did something wrong — but because something inside you felt uncertain?In this episode, I talk about a deeper layer of unworthiness — the kind that shows up in relationships.Sometimes it looks like insecurity.Sometimes it looks like overthinking.And sometimes, it quietly shapes how we receive — or even push away — love.I share personal experiences of how this feeling has appeared in my life, from moments of hesitation and self-doubt, to patterns I didn’t fully recognize until recently.But more importantly, I talk about what I’m beginning to learn:That love is not something we have to earn.And our worth is not defined by whether someone chooses us or leaves us.As I continue growing in my faith, I’m learning to see love — and myself — through a different lens. A lens where worth is not based on performance, comparison, or approval, but rooted in the love God has already given.In this episode, we explore:How unworthiness shows up in relationshipsWhy we sometimes question love even when it’s realThe connection between insecurity and the need to prove ourselvesWhat changes when we begin to understand our worth through God’s eyesIf you’ve ever asked yourself, “Am I really worthy of love?”this episode is for you.You are not worthy because someone chooses you.You are worthy because you were already loved first. Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailHave you ever felt like you weren’t enough — even when everything on the outside seemed fine?In this episode, I open up about a quiet but persistent feeling I’ve carried for years: unworthiness.It’s not always obvious. Sometimes it shows up in subtle ways — in the way we hesitate to speak up, the way we question whether we deserve love, or the way we shrink ourselves around people we think are “above” us.Through a recent experience and a conversation with a mentor, I began to see how deeply this belief has shaped my life — in relationships, in work, and in how I see myself.But as I continue growing in my faith, I’m learning to see myself through a different lens — not through performance, comparison, or achievement, but through God’s love.Because in God’s eyes, worth is not something we earn.It’s something we are given.In this episode, I share:How unworthiness quietly shows up in everyday momentsThe deeper root behind “not feeling enough”What changed when I began to see myself through God’s perspectiveA simple daily practice that’s helping me rebuild a sense of worth from withinIf you’ve ever questioned your value — in love, in work, or in life — this episode is for you.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailFor a long time, I believed I knew exactly where my life was supposed to be.California represented opportunity, energy, and possibility. After moving to the United States from China, I spent several years there and assumed that it would eventually become my permanent home.But life took an unexpected turn and brought me to Kansas.At first, Kansas felt temporary — quieter, slower, and very different from the life I imagined for myself. I kept telling myself that one day I would return to California.And eventually, I did.But after spending two months in Los Angeles again, something surprising happened. Instead of feeling inspired by the city’s energy, I felt overwhelmed by the noise and constant motion. And in the middle of that experience, I realized something I hadn’t expected:My heart felt more at peace in Kansas.In this episode, I share the story of returning to Kansas City and the deeper questions that came with that decision — questions about success, identity, cultural expectations, and what it truly means to listen to our own hearts.Sometimes peace doesn’t come from chasing a bigger life.Sometimes it comes from learning to listen to the quiet voice inside us — the place where God may be gently guiding us.If you’ve ever struggled with where you belong, what success really means, or how to discern God’s direction in your life, I hope this conversation resonates with you.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailFor most of my life, I believed a simple formula:Work hard → prove your value.Become strong → then you will be safe.Succeed → then you will be respected.But recently, while reading Ephesians 2, I realized the gospel reveals a completely different order.Not effort first, then value.But being loved first, then identity.In this episode, I share how that realization challenged the way I’ve lived for many years. Letting go of control sounds beautiful in theory, but in practice it can feel frightening. If we stop relying only on our own strength, will we become weak? Will we lose motivation?Through conversations with trusted pastors and my own spiritual journey, I’m beginning to understand that trusting God doesn’t mean abandoning effort. Grace doesn’t cancel growth — it changes the foundation of growth.Instead of striving to prove our worth, we begin growing from a place of being loved.If you’ve ever struggled with control, pressure, or the feeling that you must constantly prove yourself, this episode may resonate with you.Because surrender is not giving up responsibility.It’s releasing the illusion that everything depends on us.And learning to walk forward in faith — one step at a time.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailWhen I first returned to Los Angeles, I was overwhelmed by uncertainty. The cost of living was high, my livestream business was starting from zero, and many days felt discouraging.In this episode, I share the story of that season — rebuilding a business, working long nights, facing slow growth, and learning to live with uncertainty.A simple sentence from a friend changed how I saw that time: “Maybe instead of saying I’m waiting, say I’m learning.”This episode is about patience, faith, and the quiet seasons of life when progress feels slow but something deeper is still happening. Sometimes waiting is not wasted time. Sometimes waiting is where growth begins.If you are in a season of uncertainty, I hope this conversation reminds you that you are not alone.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailAfter years of questioning my worth and searching for love in the wrong places, I began to realize something important: much of my identity had been shaped by fear, expectations, and old stories about who I was supposed to be.In this episode, I share the journey of reclaiming my identity — not from success, approval, or past wounds, but from a deeper understanding of who I am in God’s eyes.What happens when we stop trying to prove our value and begin to receive it?This episode reflects on how faith can reshape the way we see ourselves, and how reclaiming our identity is often the first step toward living with freedom, courage, and peace.Because sometimes the most powerful transformation in life begins with one quiet realization:You are not who the world told you you had to be.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailToday is my birthday. In this episode, I share a deeply personal story about my relationship with my mother.For many years, I carried the belief that she had abandoned me as a child. That belief shaped how I understood love, relationships, and even how I saw myself.But through reflection, prayer, and an honest conversation with her, something began to change.I started to see my mother not only as “my mother,” but as a human being — a woman who was also navigating her own struggles and limitations.This episode is about misunderstanding, healing, and the quiet power of compassion.Sometimes forgiveness doesn’t come from changing the past. Sometimes it begins when we finally understand the story behind someone else’s life.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailIn this episode, I reflect on a childhood memory that shaped my relationship with conflict and boundaries.As a child, I learned that saying no could bring punishment, and that staying quiet was often the safest way to survive. That lesson stayed with me long into adulthood, influencing how I handled relationships and my own voice.This episode explores how early experiences shape our patterns — and why learning boundaries is often part of a deeper healing journey.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailWhy is it so hard to say no?In this episode, I share a painful realization: for most of my life, I was more afraid of disappointing others than losing myself.Growing up, I learned to keep the peace, soften my needs, and avoid conflict at all costs. Being “easy” felt safer than being honest. But that habit followed me into adulthood, shaping my relationships, my decisions, and the way I showed up in the world.Through a difficult turning point, I began to understand something deeply uncomfortable — sometimes keeping the peace means abandoning yourself.This episode explores the fear behind people-pleasing, the moment I realized boundaries were necessary, and why learning to disappoint others can be the beginning of learning to live truthfully.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailIn this episode, I share a season of my life when I stopped trusting my own feelings.After a painful conflict in both business and relationship, I found myself suppressing anger, doubting my instincts, and questioning my own reality. On the outside, everything seemed to continue as normal — the business was running, life was moving forward. But inside, something had quietly collapsed.I began to realize that suppressing anger doesn’t make it disappear. It turns inward — becoming self-criticism, exhaustion, and eventually even physical illness.In this episode, I reflect on the hidden cost of silencing ourselves, and how losing our voice can slowly lead us to lose ourselves.Sometimes the hardest part of healing is not facing others — but learning to trust our own feelings again.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailIn this episode, I share a deeply personal story about a season when fear quietly shaped my decisions — especially in love and business.After meeting Jesus, I thought life would feel safer. I believed faith would protect me from major loss. But instead, I discovered something unexpected: fear doesn’t disappear. It changes form.I talk about the moment I almost lost both a relationship and a company, how fear disguised itself as “logic,” and what I learned about identity, security, and surrender.This episode is about recognizing when fear is driving your life — and learning to pause before it makes your decisions for you.If you’ve ever stayed somewhere out of fear of losing everything… this conversation is for you.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailIn this episode, I share the moment that changed how I understand prayer.Watching a pastor pray for a homeless mother, I realized prayer isn’t about perfect words or spiritual performance. It’s about presence. It’s about honesty. It’s about love.I used to feel awkward praying — sometimes all I could say was, “God… I’m tired.” But slowly, prayer became the place where I stopped pretending and started being real.If you’ve ever wondered whether you’re “doing prayer right,” this episode is for you.Maybe prayer isn’t something you master.Maybe it’s something you surrender to.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailFor most of my life, I didn’t just feel alone — I felt unchosen.In this episode, I share how my understanding of love began to change after encountering Jesus. Growing up in China during a complicated cultural season, I quietly formed the belief that love had to be earned — through performance, strength, and achievement.But what if love isn’t something we fight for?What if we are already chosen?This episode is about healing the part of me that believed I had to prove my place — and discovering a love that didn’t require performance.Not dramatic.Not loud.Just steady.A quiet healing from the inside out.If you’ve ever felt unseen, unworthy, or quietly alone — this one is for you.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailI didn’t go to Dallas to find God.I went because I couldn’t stay in my life anymore.What began as a simple weekend escape — a ten-hour drive to visit a friend — became something I never saw coming.In this episode, I share the story of that trip:the quiet exhaustion I carried,the unexpected invitation to church,and the moment something inside me broke open.There was no thunder.No dramatic voice from the sky.Just a presence.A peace.A love I had never known before.This is the story of how I thought I was running away…and discovered I was being led somewhere my heart had been searching for all along.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailFrom the outside, everything was moving forward.A new country.A growing business.A relationship that felt full of possibility.It looked like the start of a beautiful new chapter.But beneath the momentum… small cracks were forming.In this episode, I share what it felt like to be building a life that appeared strong — while slowly losing my voice inside it.How ambition can mask exhaustion.How love can blur self-trust.How success can quietly coexist with insecurity.Because sometimes, life doesn’t fall apart all at once.It unravels quietly —even while everything seems to be just beginning.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan MailFrom the outside, my life looked strong.Capable. Independent. Successful.But beneath the surface, I was carrying a quiet exhaustion —the kind that sleep doesn’t fix.In this first episode, I share the story of who I was before faith found me:a woman striving, achieving, holding everything together…yet silently wondering:If I stop being strong, will anything hold me?This is not just a story about religion.It’s a human story — about ambition, loneliness, self-reliance,and the hidden cost of always being “the strong one.”If you’ve ever felt lost without realizing it…this episode is for you.Support the showEmail: [email protected]: @elenaswenyu