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Into Ambivalenne
by Ambivalenne
A forty year woman stands at the crossroads of her life. Travel alongside her as she audio-journeys into an unknown future.
Episodes
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14. What Does It Mean to Be Free?
Over a couple of days of walking in stormy weather, visiting the river, and playing at my piano - I record myself riffing on the topic of freedom and exploring what a right relationship to constraints and limits might be. I share a song I wrote about breaking out of “learned helplessness” and…
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13. Roses and Worms
I jumped back into my audio journey after taking a nine month break. I was in dire need of a companion today as I faced down my messy basement, and the feelings of shame and overwhelm that predictably show up whenever I am down there. And guess what else showed up? Roses and worms. Not the...
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12. Our Lady In Waiting …And Of Resurrection
In this episode I explore the inexplicable math of 1 big juice life = many small deaths along the way. Scenes from the film My Neighbor Tortoro come up, along with a Mother Mary oracle card, plus more details about that recently unearthed journal I wrote at 17. I am shocked to see my young self...
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11. Making Claims
Sitting in the car at my son’s soccer practice I hit record: I talk about coming across a journal I wrote the summer I turned 18, and the feelings that came up when I learned that my mom recently read it before giving it to me. Thoughts around privacy, personal space, and sovereignty come up, and…
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10. Yin Yang Jung
In this episode I give updates on: my recent gym membership, a music contest, and a mediation training that got cancelled. I also reflect on how Yin dominant Ive become since motherhood, and how I’m simultaneously 1) desiring more Yang in my life 2) appreciating my Yin even if the larger culture...
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9. Good Inside
Is Spring actually here? Glimmers of new life are suddenly, and oh so subtly, emerging in the barren landscape - both within me and out. A sudden upsurge of energy is rippling across multiple domains of my life at once - and think a song is partially responsible. I sing it at the end.
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8. I Will Still Be Singing
This short journal entry is a gasp of breath in a season of more sinking than swimming. This a claim. A promise. A blessing.
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7. Lake of Snow
I begin this episode beseeching the four directions, and the above and below, to lend me their wisdom and energy for the journey ahead. The most amazing synchronicity unfolds and I find myself encountering both a figurative and literal lake of snow - and the lesson leaves an imprint.
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6. Song of the Sea Anemone
Losing my keys - and proverbial mind - on the way out the door this morning, puts me face to face with one of my ugliest complexes. I attempt to investigate this shadowy material, and in the process stumble upon a very healing image of a tide pool and the movement of an anemone within.
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5. For the Grandmothers
Today is my grandma’s birthday! I manage to put together a dazzling fruit plate and a 1920s shoulder corsage (styled after an old photograph of her mother) for a surprise brunch. What is this very special love between us? I am struck by how good it feels to live out my life when Gma is in the...
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4. Stone by Stone
Today was a day of reconstruction. First I dish the tea on my in-laws on the way to a coffee date with my MIL. Is our relationship something we can salvage? Afterwards I head to the river with my dog and find I need to re-build my prayer circle.
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3. In Search of a Unicorn
I wade into the darkness of a very hard morning, and the next day reflect upon the unicorn tapestry hanging in my entryway. This recent Amazon purchase inspires a deep dive into medieval art history - and I’m left pondering what it might mean to hunt down and contain my life energy.
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2. Holding Opposites or At Least Trying To
At the rivers edge I offer up an explanation of my name, there is an unexpected dog encounter/fight while mid podcast, I talk while driving home and then I finish up in my kitchen, reheating coffee and exploring the medicinal wisdom of my favorite movie Black Stallion
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1. At the Crossroads
Life transitions are hard and lonely. Join me on a walk with my dog as I do my best to introduce myself and my circumstance.
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ABOUT THIS SHOW
A forty year woman stands at the crossroads of her life. Travel alongside her as she audio-journeys into an unknown future.
HOSTED BY
Ambivalenne
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