Living Fiction

Xanthe reels from the trauma and also their loss of memory, doubting their sanity. They suffer through flashbacks. Meanwhile, Kirra's rumour is spreading throughout Savannah, with people parroting it whenever it's convenient. Xhaxhollari, trying to do damage control, enlists the help of Kirra's supposed alter/twin brother, Apollo. This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2021/10/08/willful-amnesia-march-of-2016/

Struggling to heal from the events of the previous spring, Xanthe concentrates on returning the attic to its proper status as a communal space. Vali uses an impressive myriad of excuses not to return his stolen territory and Arkady stands up for fairness. It's a valiant and tumultuous battle to ensure freedom from construction-papered windows that ends up revealing the stability (or lack thereof) of Xanthe's friendship with Rowan. This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2021/10/29/powers-in-the-attic-late-october-of-2019/

Dumptruck and I talk about DID, the fallout following the dramatic way I discovered I had DID, how they accidentally ruined my life when they were 11 years old, and how they were the first one to tell me that I had DID. The first one I remember, at least. So! We have done away with aliases as far as the perpetrators. From now on, Ash is referred to as Rowan. Asra is referred to as Sage. March is referred to as Val or Vali.

After discovering from contradictory documents, the household (plus Zara, for some reason) confront March on his lies to get to the bottom of his manipulation once and for all. This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2021/09/03/the-confrontation-september-of-2019/

I finally break up with April. Cotton comes to the rescue, David Bowie is somehow involved, and Kaspar stops hinting and announces their intentions for me. There's also comparisons to Byron, Gatsby, and Gone Girl, because of who I am as a person. This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2021/08/20/a-cold-and-broken-hallelujah-january-11th-2016/

Xhaxhollari and Xanthe sit in Xanthe's clocktower and have a discussion to recount the time when the inworld, constantly manipulated by the likes of April, tried to self-destruct out of sheer stress. A nightmare that few can remember, but that changed everything. Massive TWs for this. And I'm sorry about the weird staticy thing that happens sometimes? I honestly have no idea how to prevent that. This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2021/08/13/worth-salvaging/

While Xanthe plans to break up with their abusive ex, the system's gatekeeper edits the email draft and ensures a way to maintain communication for the benefit of the system as a whole. Under the impression that the ex is a system that is changing hosts, Xhaxhollari convinces Xanthe that they're cutting their ex off for good while he simultaneously negotiates an olive branch. This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2021/07/21/both-break-up-emails-in-full-circa-2015/

Aberle's premature launch leads to an unsatisfying confrontation. As things intensify, the red construction paper windows continue to haunt me. I finally decide to drop the bombshell of the year. Also, this contains bloopers because I apparently can't say the word Condescension,which many would argue is my middle name. Enjoy! This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2021/07/30/head-like-a-hole-september-of-2019/

Xanthe plots how to rid their friends of April's possession-like influence, inspired by the Oscar Wilde biopic. Meanwhile, Xhaxhollari goes behind Xanthe's back to preserve the connection between the 'two worlds.' This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2021/07/21/the-long-game-xhaxhollari-autumn-of-2015/

Discover the suggestability of systems and how it works! Aberle comes to visit and discovers our unsettling and unbalanced household dynamic. March finds out new and exciting ways to grow out of Ash's shoulder! This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2021/07/09/aberles-premature-launch-september-of-2019/

Sparrow reads "plans change" and gets increasingly drunk and delirious at the idea that Ash wanted to move our queer asses to the country for goats. And the kid also roasts myself for like a whole half hour, enjoy. This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2021/06/24/plans-change-august-of-2019/

My playing Bioshock Infinite gives me a new existential complex. Both the inworld and outerworld continue to deteriorate as I become delirious with fatigue. Kaspar introduces me to astrology and I meet 'Kieran', April's 'dead twin.'  Why does my life have so many dead twins?  This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2021/07/02/undone-late-summer-of-2015/

Averaging on one dramatic breakdown a month, March doesn't disappoint with this generous round of drama! Hear about the grievous injury he sustained while tackling me, how his car expertise comes into play, and how Ash deals with conflict! Or, uh, doesn't. This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2021/06/01/i-see-bone-july-of-2019/

Xanthe's resentment towards April leads to drunken mishaps. Meanwhile, the inworld turns much more violent. Xhaxhollari is contacted by an unlikely soul. This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2021/06/03/just-as-real-as-you-summer-of-2015-xhaxhollari/

As the situation becomes dire in Faerie Land, I realise that my move from Savannah to Rochester must take place sooner than expected. Hear my first impressions of Rochester, how delirious I am going on 50+ hours of no sleep, and how Ash was playing favourites. This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2021/04/23/goodbye-savannah-june-2019/

Xhaxhollari speaks out about the horrifying April 27th, as well as explain his origins and why he's always tried so hard to protect us. Meanwhile, we trauma-dump on Cotton about what's been happening to us. Equal parts trauma and hilarity, folks! This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2021/04/09/xhaxhollari-may-of-2015/. The briefly referenced blog discussing April's control over the inworld is here: http://living-fiction.com/2020/10/10/dealing-with-romeo-and-koji-an-innerworld-coming-of-age-story-2014/

The episode March doxx'd me to try to stop from happening! March continues his abhorrent behaviour by claiming that his obsession with Ash is an autistic trait, abandoning them at an airport, and threatening to move out and fuck them over on rent. Ash responds to this by wanting to marry them? Learn all about this, how I impregnated them astrally, and more in this week's episode of the Living Fiction Podcast! This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2021/03/12/march-madness-married-may-of-2019/ Also, if you want to check out the novel I mentioned, it's available on https://www.lulu.com/en/us/shop/cl-zeitst%C3%BCck/lost-chaos/paperback/product-1y8kqq67.html?page=1&pageSize=4. 

The worst day of my life, until 2020! Tensions rise between April and I when Avery goes missing. I try to break up with April and this has Devastating consequences. This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2021/03/26/leading-up-to-april-27th-2015/

Cotton and I discuss my abusive relationship, Gone Girl, name-drop many great bars and restaurants in Savannah, and get progressively drunker with proclamations of undying bromance. A must-listen!

A snapshot as to how the outerworld can effect the inner-- especially when April has her grubby little hands all over it. This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2021/03/05/jak-o-lantern-an-inworld-story-winter-of-2015/

Ever hear of a meetcute involving murder? Also, Xanthe attempts a Czech accent while quoting Kaspar, to the delight of everyone who needed a laugh today.  This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2021/02/12/how-i-met-kaspar-an-inworld-story-2014/

Find out how a new member added to the polycule ends in melodramatic chaos. You'll laugh, you'll cry, you'll learn how Not to cover your windows! It also tells the dark story of what happened on the same day the infamous "Post-Op Beach Photo" was taken. This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2020/11/06/march-madness-red-construction-paper-and-redder-flags-april-of-2019/ and http://living-fiction.com/2020/12/28/march-madness-may-16th-2019/.

I'll still continue the 'April Saga', but now, begins a new plotline. The Crosman Saga. This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2020/10/20/march-madness-prelude/

We go back in time to the era of the Yaoi paddles, Vampire Knight, and lack of verified profiles. Discover how April put us off anime!

My brain's reaction to the 30-Day suicide challenge! This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2021/02/19/did-and-the-dnd-timeout-winter-of-2014-2015/

In the wake of my abusive relationship turning physical, I turn to alcohol to cope and leave the most legendary voicemail I've ever left. Also, April decides to threaten me. This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2021/02/06/out-of-spite-fall-of-2014/

Harrow reads a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2021/01/22/d-i-d-and-relationships-with-singlets-2021/ from his POV and adds his own commentary. His first podcast-- be nice to the kid. He's also quite hilarious. -Xanthe

I start to explore polyamory and oh boy is THAT a mistake in the eyes of my jailer. My inworld further reflects my personal drama in startling ways. This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2021/01/10/moth-to-a-flame-autumn-of-2014/

April explores her gender identity and I suffer through mine. It's a dark era all around. Also, I lose my mind laughing about twice this episode. This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2020/12/17/engendered-tensions-2014/

I went back to Ohio for my brother's wedding and also decided to hit up one of those who have known the system and my abuser the longest. We get progressively drunk throughout this episode so it's sure to be a fun-filled hour of hijinks and trauma! Casey's pronouns are 'they/them.' 

This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2020/11/28/mutually-assured-destruction-savannah-2014/

This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2020/10/10/dealing-with-romeo-and-koji-an-innerworld-coming-of-age-story-2014/ If you're having trouble remembering the cast's names, refer to this! http://living-fiction.com/inworld-stories/

My first couple of months dating April as well as my first and LAST convention with this 'Bridezilla of Cosplay.' This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2020/09/25/pros-and-cons-september-2013/

My first relationship, further self-discovery, and how I damned myself to win an argument. This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2020/08/28/southern-victorian-gatsby/

My experience waking up in Neb's body and life and learning that I was, in fact, a different person.  This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2020/08/24/awake-late-2012-to-early-2013/

Xanthe's debut as the threatrical 'devil' on Neb's shoulder. And also, the effect April and homelessness were having on Neb, which would eventually lead to the changing of hosts.  This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2020/08/17/burning-moon/

TW: Suicide, catfish, toxic friendships.  This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2020/08/14/you-know-what-they-say-april-showers-bring-may-hem/

TW: unreality, grief, gaslighting, hallucination? This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2020/08/07/a-cinematic-illusion/

TW: Religion and light family issues.  This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2020/08/10/cult-bait/

TW: Abuse, yelling, gaslighting, group mentality, privacy invasion, being kicked out, harassment.  This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2020/09/15/august-4th-5th-2020/

The day before all of the tension in my house had exploded as Asra shares personal conversations, it's decided that I have to save one of my remaining partners with my budget and budget alone, and Ash struggles to explain to me that they physically had sex with someone I had apparently made up.  TW: Brief mention of suicide, yelling, accusations of lying, gaslighting.  This episode is also available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2020/09/09/leading-up-to-august-4th-2020/

Living Fiction is now in audible form! And it's not just me cackling at my own bizarre life for a half hour straight! This is a memoir of how I discovered that I have Dissociative Identity Disorder, formerly known as 'Multiple personalities.' I'm not here to educate, only to tell a tragically and hilariously true story of manipulation.  This episode is originally available as a blog post: http://living-fiction.com/2020/08/03/example-post-3/