Mediocre Thoughts

Episodes

1. 67

   Ep 67: Mindspace update (67676767)

   Idk man ive been thinking things and i need to talk about said things

   Sep 23, 2026

   29m
2. 66

   Ep 66: 6th anniversary!

   we're back! (i think) (i hope) (i'll always come back eventually i think) cover art is a picture of the moon and stars (or more possibly planets actually) taken from the night before

   Jun 18, 2026

   21m
3. 65

   Ep 65: 2025 review

   uuwauawauuawuau 3 more days to 2026. i hope you're having a good time. i hope you had a good year. i hope next year is good for you. i hope you don't feel hopeless or helpless.

   Dec 28, 2025

   55m
4. 62

   [nellie travels?] Ep 64: solo travel blabbery

   i should really update spotify episodes more often. this was uploaded on youtube on 8 dec 2025 lol

   Dec 28, 2025

   13m
5. 63

   Ep 63 the second last night of September

   I feel fat looking at myself in the video :/ ive been gaining weight cuz of my corporate job that makes me sit all day and takes away all my time which means i havent been working out as much as i want to anyway here's to the (almost) end of q3 and hopefully less weight gaining and more gym going...

   Sep 29, 2025

   27m
6. 62

   Ep 62 i dont remember what happened here

   recorded this after going to a concert by myself for the first time in my life 3 weeks ago, dont really rmb what i talked about

   Sep 4, 2025

   33m
7. 61

   Ep 61: belated 5th anniversary!!!

   honestly i've never delayed publishing an episode for so long before (i think) lol recorded this almost 2 weeks ago?? to be exact 10 days ago. welp. things are happening in my life and i am so excited to see where life takes me. i hope it's a good place. i think my mom's proud of me. she said i...

   Jul 28, 2025

   26m
8. 60

   Ep 60: graduated from therapy

   had this uploaded on youtube last month lol but only uploading on spotify now (28 july) cuz i wanted to upload the next episode teehee is this my procrastinating on posting podcast content era who know anyway life has been pretty interesting to say the least. there will always be good moments and...

   Jul 28, 2025

   18m
9. 59

   Ep 59: life updates & big questions

   Comment down below 1. What makes a person likeable 2. How do you tell if someone has people skills 3. What is the meaning of life :>

   Mar 9, 2025

   30m
10. 58

    Ep 58: 2024 recap!!

    Recap of the yearrrrrr. Crazy how things have changed along the year. Thanks for being here. I love you all. vlog that I mentioned: https://youtu.be/S1cWUtgQe_Q?si=TImRzT1txa9W-_tW

    Dec 21, 2024

    28m
11. 55

    [SUTD Features #2] Ayman the KaGOAT

    Conversation with Ayman! :D

    Nov 5, 2024

    1h 37m
12. 54

    [SUTD Features #1] three bodies talking about three-body

    WE ARE THREE BODIES. AND WE HAVE A PROBLEM.

    Nov 2, 2024

    1h 23m
13. 57

    Ep 57: updates

    Mid-Sept to mid-Oct life updates? I honestly don't remember what I said in this episode oop this is the first time I'm uploading not immediately after recording.

    Oct 20, 2024

    17m
14. 56

    Ep 56 do you remember

    the 21st night of September d: Welcome to September y'all. Final month of the third quarter. Hope everyone's doin ok.

    Sep 9, 2024

    19m
15. 55

    Ep 55: sometimes

    This episode is called sometimes because at one point i said sometimes a lot d: Also i cant edit the cover pic for some reason :(

    Aug 1, 2024

    20m
16. 54

    Ep 54: early 4th anniversary episode!

    IT’S BEEN FOUR YEARS CAN YOU BELIEVE IT I CANNOT. Anyway as always this is just life updates and recent emotions and thoughts d: i don’t have good content anymore my life is my content now d: this episode’s picture is the sunset from today when i left work! Life has been great and i have been...

    Jun 25, 2024

    24m
17. 52

    Ep 52: ?

    General life update!

    May 31, 2024

    24m
18. 51

    Ep 51: do you understand

    I couldn’t fall asleep so I made this episode for you.

    Apr 30, 2024

    10m
19. 50

    Ep 50: 12 March 2024

    50th episode!! But also not really cuz not all episodes are numbered lol anyway just a life update. Cover of the episode is a picture from today that I took when I left my room for the first time today in the afternoon to go for class. Super sunny and clear day.

    Mar 12, 2024

    15m
20. 49

    Ep 49: 5th September 2023

    :3

    Sep 5, 2023

    28m
21. 48

    Ep 48: belated third anniversary

    Three years since the start. Thank you for existing.

    Jul 12, 2023

    14m
22. 47

    Ep 47 a memoir, a eulogy, a biography, a memory

    This has been an episode that I have been working on forEVER. You have no idea how long this episode has been in writing because I also have no idea how long it has been. I think it’s possible that it has been at least a month. Which is very long compared to the writing of the other episodes in…

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    Feb 23, 2023

    17m
23. 46

    Ep 46: superficial distractions

    What happens when you have too much free time and went down a rabbit hole of CGP Grey videos and think about life too much and feel existential and nothing has meaning because nothing matters but why does nothing matter and why does liking everything lead to a same predicament as liking nothing....

    Sep 11, 2022

    24m
24. 45

    Ep 45: asking.

    It has been a while and I welcome myself back. Photo credits to the one and only: James Webb Space Telescope (JWST)

    Jul 28, 2022

    9m
25. 44

    Ep 44 I’m gonna die living.

    A collection of short episodes that aren’t full episodes but I want them to be recorded anyway. In case you didn’t notice the title for this one is a play on “die trying,” which is something often used to show determination. Am I determined? I don’t know, but I know that I love you.

    Jul 10, 2022

    10m
26. 43

    Ep 43 2nd year.

    It’s been 2 years. Can you believe it. You have to. Thank you so much for being here.

    Jun 26, 2022

    17m
27. 42

    Ep 42 dreams of purity

    Existential emotions that stem from surreal experiences. “Why is being happy so happy?” I don’t know how to tell you, I hope you can be able to not tell me :) HAHAHA IM SO WEIRD

    Jun 18, 2022

    5m
28. 41

    Ep 41: 累不是借口，是理由。

    Translation: Being tired isn’t an excuse; it’s a reason. Once again we are back! With life updates! :> hope you’re doing good :D

    May 14, 2022

    8m
29. 39

    Ep 39: Don’t live too cautiously.

    but also don’t live too carelessly. “Balance and moderation is key.” I forgot what made me write this title.

    Apr 23, 2022

    7m
30. 38

    Ep 38: what if the mean was at the end of the spectrum

    I wonder if anyone can actually get what I’m trying to say from the title haha if you kind of guessed it I applaud you :> here have some applause *clap clap clap* Talking about a tweet about a tumblr post I saw recently because I have no idea how tumblr works. The post is about how “applying for...

    Mar 31, 2022

    13m
31. 37

    Ep 37: a seven-year-old shirt, a past source of comfort

    I recently realised I’m still wearing a t-shirt I got when I was 13. I turn 21 this year. 7 is a third of 21. I am in existential shock. Welcome back to another episode of random shit.

    Mar 19, 2022

    10m
32. 36

    Ep 36 虽然没有意义但我不想消失

    Disclaimer: All of this is the bullshit going on in my head. Do not take this seriously. Take everything with a grain of salt. I repeat, DO NOT TAKE ME SERIOUSLY. I just realised after recording the episode that I didn’t explain anything about the title. Basically I don’t want to disappear…

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    Mar 9, 2022

    15m
33. 35

    Ep 35 feelings and Dead Poets Society

    Recent emotions and feelings from rewatching Dead Poets Society for the third(?) time. I should have an episode done for Dead Poets Society given how much it changed my life. So here it is. An episode. A recollection, for it is simply a recollection of feelings from the past. Also as I’m writing...

    Feb 26, 2022

    8m
34. 34

    Ep 34: existential crisis

    Once again we are back with an existential crisis. I am talking bullshit. The only reason you should listen to this is if you care about me a lot. Like genuinely. Otherwise you’re gonna be bored as shit and this is just gonna be a waste of your time. Everything is a waste of time. The only time…

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    Feb 8, 2022

    20m
35. 33

    Ep 33: a quarter-life crisis-reflections on “Introducing Descartes”

    Happy 2022! I hope this year goes well for everyone. This is some random stuff written at the end of last year, and reflections on reading a book I bought on impulse after reading a third of it at a bookstore with a homie :>

    Jan 2, 2022

    11m
36. 32

    Ep 32: a convo between two viewers of BoJack and NGE

    TW: depression, self-harm, suicide (just a little tho) Spoiler Alert: BoJack, Neon Genesis Evangelion Talking shit. Got disconnected twice. Thrice? But yes. Here it is. Another guest. The same guest actually, but in another episode. There's gonna be some weird parts that jumped a bit cuz we got...

    Dec 30, 2021

    1h 36m
37. 31

    Ep 31 proof that we exist

    Finals are over. I’ve missed you. This episode is basically me having an existential crisis. Take this ride with me.

    Dec 17, 2021

    24m
38. 30

    Ep 30: revelations with the assistance of alcohol

    😉😏🥴😂🥳

    Dec 4, 2021

    19m
39. 29

    Ep 29: November 2021

    Final day of November, happy birthday to a very good friend of mine. There is nothing to be done.

    Nov 30, 2021

    7m
40. 28

    Ep 28: emotions from the present

    “Trust me when I say nothing matters. Trust me when I say you matter to someone.”

    Nov 12, 2021

    2m
41. 27

    Ep 27: U.W.U.

    Unique. Weird. Unorthodox. I wonder if anyone could guess that’s what I meant. It me reading poetry I’ve written. Cuz I feel overwhelmed by the amount of talent I’m surrounded by in uni. And it’s 4:51am and I’m so dead for class tmr but at least I had fun recording! (: and life is too short to be...

    Oct 6, 2021

    33m
42. 26

    Ep 26: what it means to want more

    I just realised I don’t actually answer the question. But here are thoughts after having my first humanities class in university and watching Kurzgesagt’s latest video: Can YOU fix climate change? Here’s the link: https://youtu.be/yiw6_JakZFc

    Sep 24, 2021

    7m
43. 25

    Ep 25: 15092021

    In case you miss my voice. Literally. I just talk about what my life is like now. There is nothing to learn, and there are no thoughts. So once again, thank you for listening to Mediocre Thoughts.

    Sep 15, 2021

    13m
44. 24

    Ep 24: a convo between two people who don’t really know stuff

    TW: very very slight mention of suicide and some mental health stuff From inequality in educational opportunities for Malaysian students to how social media can be bad for you. I present to you: a conversation between two people who have no idea what they’re talking about. Take everything with a...

    Aug 14, 2021

    1h 42m
45. 23

    Ep 23: greed

    Talking about why I think greed is the worst among the seven deadly sins. And also some of my desires. Also this is the first scripted episode in a while so yay.

    Aug 9, 2021

    16m
46. 22

    Ep 22: thoughts.

    You can fall asleep to this episode. I know I can.

    Jul 15, 2021

    23m
47. 21

    Ep 21: a convo about love between two very single people :’)

    First episode talking with a friend!! ft. Henniferly aka the person who made all this possible by recommending to me this app that I use to make my podcast :3 (subscribe to her YouTube channel :3 https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCQqSbPmUuu_9alc3lGwa19Q/featured) first episode in third person view...

    Jul 12, 2021

    1h 15m
48. 20

    Ep 20: my eulogy (2021)

    Okay so the first time I said “titled” my pronunciation was kinda off and it BUGS ME SO MUCH but I don’t have the skills to edit it and this was kind of a spur of the moment thing so editing it feels inadequate :’D a more accurate description: me talking after finishing my second watch of The…

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    Jun 26, 2021

    35m
49. 19

    Ep 19+18: I’m so glad you’re alive.

    To my 19th follower: this is for you even though I don’t know who you are and you probably don’t know who you are either!(cuz y’all can’t see the follower count right)(also jk it’s for everyone I just like giving numbers meaning d:) The episode 18 part of the script was written in the span of a…

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    Jun 21, 2021

    12m
50. 17

    Ep 17: life is hard and I am soft

    Grandma went back to her house so I have a room to myself again therefore I feel obligated to make an episode. Once again this is me bullshitting my way through time. Nothing is easy, everything is hard, but I promise it gets easier with repetition. Your brain is capable of amazing things.

    Mar 12, 2021

    13m