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PMDM
by JMC COLLECTIVE
"Private Memoirs of a Desperate Man" (PMDM) is a candid and introspective podcast sharing personal musings, insights, and reflections on life, offering listeners a raw and unfiltered glimpse into one's thoughts and experiences.
Episodes
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Father Chose Bike Trip Over Daughter's Wedding
Yo, what’s going on everybody? Welcome to PMDM – Private Memoirs of a Desperate Man. I’m Felix Arroyo, and today we’re diving into a story that’s got all the elements—family, money, entitlement, and a whole lot of real talk. So, check this out: a dude drops over $22,000 on this destination…
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Stop Giving Advice No One Asked For
This one’s short. No deep dive, no lecture, no kumbaya moment. Just something I needed to get off my chest: Stop giving advice nobody asked for. Seriously-don’t be that person. We all know them. The one who hears a conversation and suddenly thinks it’s a TED Talk audition. Whether you’re a man,...
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The Death of Hulk Hogan and the Public’s Cold Shoulder
In this return episode of Private Memoirs of a Desperate Man, host [Your Name] reflects on the recent death of wrestling icon Hulk Hogan and the divided public reaction that followed. Some mourned the loss of a cultural legend. Others rejoiced or resurfaced past controversies. This episode…
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Why Men Just Sit In The Car After Work
Why do so many men sit in the car after work—engine off, music low, just... sitting? In this episode of Private Memoirs of a Desperate Man, we explore a daily ritual that’s become an emotional survival tactic for countless men. This quiet decompression after work is more than just a pause—it’s a...
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This Is Why Incel Culture Sucks!
In this episode of Private Memoirs of a Desperate Man, I’m not holding back. I’m calling out incel culture for what it is - trash. It’s toxic, it’s misleading, and it’s warping how too many young men see themselves and the world around them. I’m speaking as a 46-year-old Puerto Rican man who was...
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Hey, You're Built For This!
I didn’t just survive—I evolved. In this episode of Private Memoirs of a Desperate Man, I’m talking directly to the part of you that’s been doubting, second-guessing, or flat-out forgetting who the hell you are. “This Game Is Yours” isn’t just a title—it’s the truth. You’ve fallen. You’ve...
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Don't Put Your Key In Other People's Pockets: Why Handing Over Your Life's Keys Destroys Dreams
In this raw and reflective episode of Private Memoirs of a Desperate Man, host Felix C. Arroyo takes us deep into the metaphor of keys—the dreams, passions, and potential we’re each born with. What happens when love turns into frustration? When compassion fades into bitterness? We often start...
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Fellas, Please Don't Do That
Welcome back to Private Memoirs of a Desperate Man. I’m your host with the most, and today I’m diving into a topic that needs to be addressed more often—workplace behavior, respect, and the outdated "locker room talk" mentality that still lingers in 2025. This episode poses some powerful…
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Hollywood Hand-Me-Downs
Disney is back at it again with another live-action remake, this time with Snow White—and the internet is divided. In this episode of Private Memoirs of a Desperate Man, I break down the controversy surrounding the film, including Rachel Zegler’s casting, changes to the classic story, and the...
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My Wife's Reality Check Transformed Me
My wife knows me better than I know myself sometimes, and her recent reality check hit hard. She pointed out that I don’t take on projects anymore—something I used to love. And she was right. That realization sparked a shift in me, leading to a full-blown mission: transforming my garage into JMC...
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We Can Learn Something From Will Smith
Will Smith has been through it all—public scrutiny, backlash, and the infamous Oscars slap. But through it all, he keeps showing up. In this episode, I dive into Will Smith’s journey post-slap, his resilience, and his upcoming album Based on a True Story (dropping March 28). What drives a man to...
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Post Pandemic Rudeness: Is This The New Normal?
Why Is Everyone So Rude Now?Lately, it feels like basic manners have gone out the window. No greetings, no patience, just a whole lot of bad attitudes. Is this just how things are now, or did something shift after the pandemic? In this episode, we break down why people seem ruder, less patient…
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Young Man, Young Man- Advice for Young Fathers
Becoming a father for the first time is one of the scariest and most transformative moments in a man’s life. In this heartfelt episode of Private Memoirs of a Desperate Man (PMDM), Felix C. Arroyo shares personal insights and advice for young men stepping into fatherhood. From the fear of the...
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What Is Your Standard In Life?
How you do anything is how you do everything. In this episode of Private Memoirs of a Desperate Man, I break down the power of having a standard—not just in the big moments, but in every aspect of life. I start with a personal failure (my unorganized garage) and explore how a lack of standards in...
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I Had a Black Cloud Over My Head—Until I Did This
For years, it felt like a black cloud followed me everywhere. Everything that could go wrong did go wrong, and I lost faith—not just in God, but in everything, including myself. It took me a long time to find my way out of that darkness, but when I finally did, everything changed. In this episode...
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Is It Ever Really Too Late? The Truth Revealed
In this episode of Private Memoirs of a Desperate Man, Felix C. Arroyo dives into the myth of "it's too late" and explores the fears and pressures we face as we age. Whether it’s comparing yourself to others or grappling with unrealistically strict timelines for success, Felix reflects on the...
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Less Is More: The Power of Simplicity
In a world obsessed with doing more, Felix C. Arroyo, host of Private Memoirs of a Desperate Man (PMDM), explores the value of doing less—but doing it better. In a recent episode, he reflects on his personal journey through podcasting and content creation, realizing that his attempts to juggle...
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Friendships Fading Through Time and Distance: A Loner’s Perspective
Friendship changes as we grow older, and for many men in their 40s, time and distance can quietly erode the bonds that once felt unbreakable. In this deeply personal monologue, I reflect on my lifelong tendency to be a loner, how that has shaped my friendships, and the realization that maybe—just...
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The Dismantling of DEI: What They’re Not Telling You
The fight over Diversity, Equity, and Inclusion (DEI) has reached a critical point. With the Department of Education under pressure to remove DEI programs—or risk losing federal funding—the stakes couldn’t be higher. But what does this really mean? In this episode of Private Memoirs of a…
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The Closing Window: Time, Fatherhood & The Fear of Running Out
As I watch my kids grow—my oldest now in their twenties, my youngest just starting their journey—I can’t shake this feeling. That window of time I once thought was infinite? It’s closing. In my mid-40s, I see the shift happening before my eyes. The generation before me is aging, the generation...
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The Mirror Test: Beyoncé’s Grammy Win Exposes a Deeper Truth About Us
Beyoncé’s historic Grammy win for Cowboy Carter isn’t just about country music—it reveals something much deeper about who we are as a people. Why do we struggle to celebrate success, especially within our own communities? Why do we box ourselves in while demanding the freedom to evolve? This...
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Buried in the Noise: Kendrick Lamar, Power, and the Real Conversation We Should Be Having
Kendrick Lamar’s Super Bowl halftime performance flipped the expectations of Black Americans in White America on its head—challenging the norm and going against the grain in a way that I truly respect. His symbolism was powerful, bringing attention to real issues—issues we should be talking…
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PMDM | Underdog: The Philadelphia Eagles' Super Bowl Victory and the Power of Perseverance
In this episode of Private Memoirs of a Desperate Man, we dive into the inspiring journey of the Philadelphia Eagles as they defied the odds to secure a monumental Super Bowl victory. Their story serves as a powerful metaphor for overcoming adversity in our own lives. We explore how embracing the...
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PMDM | Becoming: Legacy in Motion
In this episode of Private Memoirs of a Desperate Man, I dive deep into the cultural impact of my upbringing as a Puerto Rican, exploring how my parents, family, and childhood experiences shaped the creative mindset I have today. Growing up as the only boy in a hardworking household, I witnessed...
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PMDM | The Long Cold: Surviving Brutal Winter Shifts as a Dock Worker
For 11 years, I worked as a dock worker at FedEx Freight, grinding through brutal shifts in an unheated warehouse, where the cold wasn’t just a temperature—it was a test of endurance. During the winter season, we layered up, battled freezing winds, and huddled wherever we could find warmth. Our...
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PMDM | Imposter Syndrome: "The Struggle, The Lessons, The Breakthrough"
Imposter syndrome is the voice in your head that tells you, ‘You don’t belong here.’ In this deeply personal episode of Private Memoirs of a Desperate Man, I unpack what it feels like to wrestle with self-doubt, even when you know you’re capable. From my struggles with stepping out of my comfort...
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PMDM | "Balance: Embrace the Journey"
Join Felix C. Arroyo, host of Private Memoirs of a Desperate Man (PMDM), as he shares powerful life lessons to kick off the new year with purpose and resilience. In this episode, Felix dives into the importance of building strong relationships, embracing failure, and mastering accountability to...
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PMDM | The Healing: Reflecting on Grace and Growth
In this heartfelt episode of PMDM, Felix reflects on the second anniversary of his father's passing. Through an emotional monologue, he shares the journey of grief, the importance of forgiveness, and lessons learned about cherishing relationships. With personal anecdotes, unexpected moments of...
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PMDM | The Quiet Pivot: Choosing a New Path
In this episode of Private Memoirs of a Desperate Man, host Felix explores the idea of "The Quiet Pivot"—those subtle, unassuming moments where we decide to change direction and transform our lives. Felix shares deeply personal stories about embracing growth, reevaluating goals, and letting go of...
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PMDM | THE RAIN | SOMETIMES YOU FIND PEACE IN THE DOWNPOUR
Have you ever taken time to actually listen to the rain? To pay attention to how still it really is even though it's consistently pouring down from the sky? It resonates with me and in this episode I share just why.
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PMDM | Money, Hustle, and Freedom: Our Pursuit of Financial Independence
In this episode, Felix reflects on the complex and relentless nature of money and its role in our lives. From the grind of earning to the challenges of saving, spending, and investing, money is an ever-present force, constantly shaping our daily actions. Felix acknowledges the evolution of money,...
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PMDM | FRACTURED | WHAT DO WE DO NOW WITH AMERICA STILL DIVIDED?
In this episode of PMDM ('Fractured'), host Felix C. Arroyo dives into the deep societal rifts revealed in the wake of Donald J. Trump's election victory. Felix explores the intricate tapestry of American identity, discussing the fears, hopes, and divisions that characterize our era. Through...
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PMDM | TAPESTRY | HOW THE SEASONAL SHIFT RESONATES WITH ME
Felix reflects on how the autumn season is a time of personal rebirth and creativity. Set amidst the backdrop of his father’s birthday and wedding anniversaries, he explores the deep emotional connections tied to this season. Through evocative storytelling, Felix delves into how these memories,...
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PMDM | Collide | How Past Lessons Can Shape Our Present and Future
In this deeply personal episode, I take a step back to reflect on the journey of growth, the lessons we learn from our past, and the ongoing challenge of balancing love, accountability, and grace. Life doesn’t always fit into neat, black-and-white lines—sometimes the past and present collide in...
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PMDM | The Dream |The Meaning Behind Recurring Dreams
In this episode, I dive deep into the mysterious world of dreams, focusing on recurring themes and the emotional impact they can have. I share a particularly vivid dream where I return to my childhood home, encounter a family I’ve never met, and a mysterious voice at the top of the stairs.…
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PMDM | Go GHOST | Stay Focused and Trust the Process
In this episode I share why staying focused on your task even when it starts to seem like it's the wrong decision can be the best thing you can do. At the end of the day it's all about perseverance within the scope of who you are and what you're comfortable with.
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PMDM | Maya Angelou Said... | Some People Can Kick Rocks
In this episode, I’m diving deep into one of those moments where patience runs out and people show you exactly who they are. Maya Angelou once said, “When someone shows you who they are, believe them,” and man, was I reminded of that today. I talk about the frustration of trying to stay grounded...
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PMDM | Frustration
Some days don't work out how I planned and it kills my drive. An interview did not go the way I wanted and I share my frustration.
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PMDM | Playing Chess
Kick back and relax with me in this episode as I chat about the laid-back art of strategic productivity. Picture it like a lazy Sunday chess match—no stress, just smooth moves and smart planning. Music by "Karl Casey @ White Bat Audio" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g6hY7dB54bc&t=640s
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PMDM | Pensive Perspective
As usual I am in deep thought, this time about childhood and my sisters. Music by "Karl Casey @ White Bat Audio" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g6hY7dB54bc&t=640s
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PMDM | The Shift
There is a big shift with JMC and I'm excited for the future. Music by "Karl Casey @ White Bat Audio" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g6hY7dB54bc&t=640s
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PMDM | Total Eclipse of My Time
I just feel that, with today's solar eclipse, I wasted some time... Music by "Karl Casey @ White Bat Audio" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g6hY7dB54bc&t=640s
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PMDM | 45
Turning 45 has brought to a familiar place of nostalgia and pensiveness. Music by "Karl Casey @ White Bat Audio" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g6hY7dB54bc&t=640s
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PMDM | Quantum Leap
My children have been putting me through the emotional ringer. I feel like I'm moving through time in so many ways... Music by "Karl Casey @ White Bat Audio" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g6hY7dB54bc&t=640s
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PMDM | Mind Over Foolery
There are times when negative vibrations try to shake the foundation of which you've built your house on. Wooooooooossssaaaaaahhhhh! Music by "Karl Casey @ White Bat Audio" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g6hY7dB54bc&t=640s
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PMDM | Ancestral Mathematics
Have you ever thought about what your ancestors were thinking or going through? This may give you some perspective about your significance in this life. Music by "Karl Casey @ White Bat Audio" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g6hY7dB54bc&t=640s
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"Private Memoirs of a Desperate Man" (PMDM) is a candid and introspective podcast sharing personal musings, insights, and reflections on life, offering listeners a raw and unfiltered glimpse into one's thoughts and experiences.
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"Private Memoirs of a Desperate Man" (PMDM) is a candid and introspective podcast sharing personal musings, insights, and reflections on life, offering listeners a raw and unfiltered glimpse into one's thoughts and experiences.
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