Thanks For Digesting!

in my life experience, perfectionism is my main form of self-avoidance. i've avoided putting full effort into my creative projects to protect myself from failure & making mistakes. because i so tightly associate all my creations as extensions of me, i would internalize failure & making mistakes in these areas so damn hard, then see those things as reflections of me too. i've been using perfectionism as a facade to avoid taking the risks of getting completely dirty & failing. however, i think the only way that failure can be completely avoided is if you never try... but if you never try, then you never tried. i've always been excited to try, but i haven't been ready to fail, & without being ready to fail, i will never be truly ready to try. giving as much love, care, energy, time, & intention as i hold into the things i give a fuck about feels colossal & failing would devastate me. everything i put into myself WILL go into my creations (music, art, mixes, podcasts, etc.)... but WHEN? consistency dawg, because it won't be linear & it will be unpredictable, but it will also get easier with time & continuous effort. is that why they say "show up *especially* when it feels hard,"? but it's so deep for me. all of this is deep to me, it really fucking is. as the person i am today, failure to me now looks like not trying. so i'm starting, trying, and i invite you to try to. together, we'll see wtf gets created🔮topic timestamps:•0:09 - What's existing right now / intro•3:30 - Podcast backstory / context•5:35 Perfectionism topic intro•6:11 - Perfectionism•7:10 - Trying, mistakes, standards, & failure(thinking pause from  9:10-9:45) •9:45 - Where do these fears even come from?•11:06 - I'm not doing this fearlessly, so what did I choose to change?•16:41 - My current/updated standard for myself (16:05 - "being open, open! f*ck!" not a topic, just my favorite line of the session)•19:19 - My new definition of failure & how I'm actively doing things alongside my fears (fear of failure & fear of making mistakes)•27:36 - My invitation to you•29:08 - You are allowed to give yourself permissionsocials:Email: [email protected] 💌YouTube: ⁠Thanks For Digesting!⁠ & Mercury Ulia Instagram: @juul.uliaTikTok: @mercuryuliaBandcamp: bandcamp.com/mercuryulia Spotify: Mercury Uliasong of the day: 'amber' by alaska reid

Thanks For Digesting! by julian gonzalez - Episode 01 included topics: - why i remade and released a song i wrote when i was 14 - choices i made for julian & for mercury ulia - why i previously did not want to release this song (fear of being seen, fear of success, 2024 music industry) - a lil more "𝑺𝒐𝒑𝒉 - 𝑨𝒍𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒏𝒂𝒕𝒆 𝑽𝒆𝒓𝒔𝒊𝒐𝒏" by Mercury Ulia = ALIVE, RELEASED, AVAILABLE, HEREEEE - https://open.spotify.com/track/5qxEWvKelEzmZRJQLfcgmM?si=4a39f60b63b447c6 Mercury Ulia: 𝘀𝗽𝗼𝘁𝗶𝗳𝘆: https://open.spotify.com/artist/7xzzufmVBLKRJYsTNBJCj8?si=zQiIY5loQe2tDzkmFA8kDg 𝗶𝗻𝘀𝘁𝗮𝗴𝗿𝗮𝗺: https://www.instagram.com/juul.ulia/ 𝘀𝗼𝘂𝗻𝗱𝗰𝗹𝗼𝘂𝗱: http://soundcloud.com/mercuryulia 𝘁𝗶𝗸𝘁𝗼𝗸: https://www.tiktok.com/@mercuryulia?is_from_webapp=1&sender_device=pc 𝗳𝗮𝗰𝗲𝗯𝗼𝗼𝗸: https://www.facebook.com/share/DoRnBxiUMH52qPQx/?mibextid=LQQJ4d 𝗲𝗺𝗮𝗶𝗹: [email protected]