The Lose Control Podcast
by Matty Isola
On The Lose Control Podcast, we explore what happens when we stop clutching for control... and start trusting the pull. Because life doesn’t just ask us to let go—it pulls us under. Into grief. Into love. Into silence. Into seasons that don’t make sense on paper but are perfectly designed to shape our becoming.Submergence is the paradox: we sink in order to rise.We dissolve in order to become whole.The invitation isn’t to drown. It’s to surrender.To be undone. Unnamed. Unraveled.Because underneath the surface is where transformation gets real.It’s dark there. Pressurized. Sacred.But that’s the birthplace of peace—not the manufactured kind, but the raw, rooted kind. The kind that breathes under weight.Lose control—not as defeat, but as initiation.Because what if peace isn’t found in holding it all together…but in letting yourself fall apart on purpose?On this show, we don’t glorify drowning. We honor the dive.We talk about the courage it takes to fall beneath the ego. To be
Episodes
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"The Quiet That Changes You"
“The Quiet That Changes You” There’s a moment in every journey where the noise finally fades… and what’s left is the truth. This episode is built for that moment. The Quiet That Changes You is a solution‑based compilation — a curated collection of the language of the heart. It weaves together...
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Unfolding, Unapologetic & Unfinished ft: "SIMPLY KATIE"
Episode Title: Simply Katie — Unfolding, Unapologetic & Unfinished Series Theme: A Paradox to Positive, Peaceful Living Guest: Katie (aka Katie B, Katie W, Katie U) Sobriety Date: September 23, 2005 Episode Summary This week, we sit with a woman whose story doesn’t just echo through the rooms—it...
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"Boardrooms Barrooms and Blurred Boundaries" ft: Ted Bauer
Today’s guest is someone who hasn’t just lived through life’s seasons—he’s been shaped, shattered, and spiritually reassembled by them. From Catholic boyhood and altar steps to the chaos of addiction and unspoken wounds… From the reckless rebellion of youth to decades lost in boardrooms…
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"Our submergence is our transformation"
Submergence is not our end—it's how we begin again. On The Lose Control Podcast, we explore what happens when we stop clutching for control... and start trusting the pull. Because life doesn’t just ask us to let go—it pulls us under. Into grief. Into love. Into silence. Into seasons that don’t…
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Recovery in Action - Limited series - "Resentments" ft. Chris Lane
Resentment is a slow poison—one that corrodes the spirit, erodes peace, and traps you in a cycle of stagnation. It festers, feeding off unspoken wounds and unfinished battles, making you more bitter, more disconnected, more imprisoned in your own mind. And the truth is, no one else suffers as…
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Episode 2 "Prison to Poipubeach.com" Ft: Roz
Rosalynn Bourgeois, known as Roz, was born and raised just outside of Washington, DC, in PG County, MD. Growing up as a minority in a tumultuous household, she constantly felt the pressure to fit in and seek attention, especially with her parents embroiled in constant conflict. Roz identifies as…
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Episode 1: "Pain was the admission" ft: Brian Ready
Brian Ready is not just a national recovery advocate, speaker, and motivational coach—he is a beacon of hope and transformation. A devoted father to three beautiful daughters and a loving husband to his wife, Kimberly, Brian embraces the privilege of working alongside her every day, united in…
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Episode 33 Special Guest - A bunch of drunks "We, was the problem"
I must be willing to do whatever “anything” looks like to help another alcoholic. This means offering unwavering friendship and fellowship, and assuring him that if he genuinely desires to get well, I will do anything to support him on his journey. The bond we create is founded on trust, empathy,...
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Episode 34 Special Guest: Margery Bailey "Hissy Fit...Find Your Breath"
Margery Bailey's life is a gripping saga of resilience and profound transformation. Born in Sacramento, CA, she approaches her 50th birthday with a story that speaks to the depths of human struggle and the triumph of spirit. Raised in a turbulent alcoholic Irish Catholic household with two…
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Episode 32 Special Guest: Matthew Parsley "I didn't want to say YES - I couldn't say NO"
This week’s special guest is Matthew Parsley. Born in Long Beach, Long Island, and raised in Dillon, South Carolina, by his grandmother and great-grandmother from the age of six, Matthew's early life was deeply influenced by a religious and spiritual household. Church provided solace, but his...
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Episode 31 Special Guest: HYPE "Ramen noodles out of a hubcap"
Hype's story is one of unimaginable pain and redemption. Born in prison, he faced a life of hardship from the very beginning. At 11, he witnessed his mother's death, and by 12, he endured relentless physical abuse. In a desperate act of self-defense, Hype set his abuser on fire, leading to a...
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Episode 30 PART 3 Special Guest: Ashleigh & Lance Cline "This is the life I prayed for"
Introducing our special guests this week: Ashleigh and Lance Cline – “This is the life I prayed for.” Ashleigh and Lance's story began in 2019 when they connected through the Any Length Recovery Facebook page. At that time, Ashleigh was just four months out of prison, starting to rebuild her…
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Episode 29 Special Guest: Chris Lane 2 cases - 2 handles - 2 days "Oaks Recovery saved my life"
Chris Lane, 35, was born in the small town of Rumford, Maine. At the age of five, he moved with his parents to the rural parts of Columbia and Lexington, South Carolina. Growing up, Chris witnessed most of his family either battling addiction or navigating recovery. Following this difficult…
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Episode 28 PART 2 " It's always the Mexican restaurants! " Special Guest Ashleigh Cline
Ashleigh Cline is a certified peer support specialist at Westview Behavioral Health. After a turbulent road filled with addiction, trauma, and significant personal loss her story has transformed dramatically from one of despair to one of resilience and post-traumatic growth. Her twelve-year…
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Episode 26 " A glimpse at a solution
This week’s conversation is with a small group of people interested in understanding my design for living. The conversation is raw and honest, and not everyone may be receptive to it. This is the beauty of choice. We no longer have to live our lives concerned about others’ opinions and…
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Episode 27 PART 1 " We're talking about behaviors" Special Guest: Lance Cline
Lance Cline hails from the heart of Maryland. His childhood was shaped within the nurturing yet challenging environment of Recovery, as both of his parents have been steadfast in their Recovery journey for over 40 years. This unique upbringing instilled in Lance a deep understanding of the...
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Episode 25 Part 2 Jamar Ryle "I was trying to fill that void" Honesty Openminded Willingness
Jamar’s journey is a vivid illustration of the human spirit’s capacity to endure and triumph. It speaks to the courage needed to face one’s demons, the unwavering determination to reclaim one’s life, and the rediscovery of hope and purpose that fuels the path to recovery. His transformation is a...
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Episode 24 Part 1 Special Guest: Jamar Ryle "I was trying to fill that void", Honesty Open-minded Willingness
Jamar’s odyssey to recovery commenced on March 17th, 2018, a date etched in his memory as the beginning of a profound transformation. His narrative is a harrowing tapestry woven with threads of deep-seated depression, excruciating pain, and an overwhelming sense of hopelessness and worthlessness....
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Episode 23 " What can I put into the stream of life" Special Guest: Roger Layne
This week’s special guest is the returning Roger Layne from Week 2. Roger will delve into his extensive knowledge and experience with the virtues of Stoicism and the 12 principles of the twelve steps. These principles emphasize living a virtuous life, focusing on what is within our control, and...
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Episode 22 "Help Other People Everyday" H.O.P.E. Special Guest April Parker
April Parker grew up in Indian Land, South Carolina, often escaping her tumultuous home life by playing outside, reading, and pretending to be a teacher. Despite being molested by her siblings and ignored by her parents, who were preoccupied with her father’s alcoholism, April excelled in…
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Epsiode 21 Special Guest: Seth Vallet "From Hallucinations to Halos"
Seth Vallett’s life has been a rollercoaster of highs and lows, a symphony of triumphs and struggles. Born in the heart of Macon, Georgia, he emerged from a close-knit family—a tapestry woven with love and resilience. As a teenager, Seth danced on the edge of existence, drawn to mind-altering...
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Episode 19 "When we get it...We gotta keep doing it!" GOD...COUNTRY...GUNS
Gerry Kelly: A Journey Across Oceans Gerry Kelly, a man of seasoned years and weathered spirit, traces his origins to the cobbled streets of Dublin, Ireland. Born under the watchful eyes of the Emerald Isle, he carried dreams as fragile as the morning mist. But destiny, that elusive weaver of...
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Episode 18 Broken pieces: "We turned our pain into passion." Special guest: Lacy Spivey & Jesse Franklin
Jessie Franklin and Lacy Spivey: A Journey of Redemption and Resilience Jessie Franklin and Lacy Spivey’s intertwined lives, marked by addiction and separation, ultimately led them back to each other. Their story serves as a beacon of hope for others, demonstrating that even in the darkest…
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Episode 17 "I don't know how to NOT move forward" Special guest: Julie Cole
Julie’s Journey to Authenticity INSTAGRAM: Julie_Cole_Coaching / [email protected] Julie Cole sat in the dimly lit room, her fingers tracing the edges of her sobriety coin. Twenty-six years. It felt like a lifetime and a heartbeat all at once. The room was filled with others—strangers who had...
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Episode 16 "Before I knew it." Special guest: Jodi Friend
Jodi’s Journey: From Darkness to Hope Jodi’s path through addiction, recovery, and the pain of loss has been an arduous one. The weight of shame and guilt rests heavily on her shoulders, yet she remains resolute in her quest for strength and sobriety. Despite enduring immense heartache, Jodi...
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Episode 14 " Then I was introduced to sub levels 1,2&3" Special guest Russell Marchese
Russell Marchese’s story is indeed a profound narrative of hope, resilience, and the enduring power of faith and love. It’s a story that resonates with many who have faced similar battles, and it serves as a beacon of light for those still navigating the path of recovery. The journey of...
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Episode 15 "In my pain, I really found my purpose" Special guest Rachel Jackson
Rachel’s profound journey to freedom is indeed a testament to the human spirit’s resilience and the transformative power of recovery. Born into a challenging environment, she faced her struggles head-on. Rachel’s journey from dealing with an eating disorder and substance abuse to becoming a…
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Episode 13 - 3 Pillars to a Peaceful Balance
3 Pillars to a Peaceful Balance: Mindfulness / Meditation: Practicing mindfulness and meditation can help you cultivate awareness of the present moment, reduce stress, and enhance overall well-being. Consider incorporating mindfulness techniques such as deep breathing, body scans, or guided...
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Episode 12 "A Journey of Resilience & Purpose" Special Guest: Gerry Coleman
JOURNEY OF RESILIENCE AND PURPOSE From the rolling hills of Pennsylvania to the warm embrace of the South, Gerry’s life’s journey has been anything but ordinary. At the tender age of 10, his family’s move to Irmo introduced him to a world where Gerry’s biracial heritage was as rare as it was...
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Episode 10 "Even when the odds are insurmountable" -Special guest William McCauley
William A. McCauley, a Certified Peer-Support Specialist affiliated with The Courage Center, has not only embraced this title but also woven it into the very fabric of his identity. His journey is one of resilience, transformation, and unwavering commitment to recovery. For over 25 years, William...
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Episode 9 "I no longer carry the Iron Cross of shame" - Special Guest Matty I
Matthew’s Journey: From Darkness to Light Matthew’s life was a tempest, a storm that threatened to drown him. As a child, anger clung to him like a shadow, and he struggled to find his place in a world that felt alien. But the universe had more trials in store for him. At the tender age of six,...
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Episiode 8 "My Defects Became My Assets" - Special Guest Amber Frazier
Amber serves as a peer support specialist at a recovery community organization and she serves on the South Carolina Harm Reduction Coalition Political Affairs committee. Harm Reduction is a health centered approach that focuses on public health and safety. Examples of harm reduction we use in...
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Episode 7 "Discipline is My Foundation" - Special Guest Norman Ferris
Norman Ferris born and raised in upstate NY, and even though he considers his childhood a good one, he found himself very self-conscious, and a very sensitive person. Norman was a good athlete in high school and loved working with horses. “My first drink qualified me as a drunk. Working with…
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Episode 6 "Peace Like No Other" - Special Guest Nansi N.
Nansi is an outgoing person, so her soul that shines through her eyes. Without hearing her story, you would never understand the trials and tribulations she endured to make it to where she is today. Nansi was in active addiction since she was 16. She started with alcohol, which so many assume is...
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Episode 5 "The Arrow that Pierced My Ego" - Special Guest Jessie Franklin
Jessie Franklin is a beacon of recovery and resilience. He embodies resilience, compassion and unwavering commitment to recovery. Jessie's journey is one of triumph over adversity, and his purpose lies in guiding others toward healing and hope. Jessie is a native of Lexington, South Carolina and...
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Episode 4 "His Willingness To Walk By Faith" - Special Guest Josh Bone
Josh Bone was born and raised by his grandparents in Dallas, NC. He attended college at UNC Chapel Hill where he studied psychology and creative writing. Working in the bar and service industry, he began to struggle with alcoholism and addiction. After navigating over a decade of active…
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Episode 3 "Perception and Mindset" - Special Guest Matty I
This is a "storytelling" episode. You will hear Matty I speaking to a group of recovering addicts and alcoholics. In this 1/2 hour show listen to some of Matty's journey, with a focus on becoming the person you were meant to be and how he has been walking that path. He says, "Never say you can't…
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Episode 2 "What Is Your Perception" - Special Guest Roger Layne
In this conversation, Matty, Chris and Roger share their experiences and insights on overcoming challenges and achieving personal growth through mental toughness and self-improvement. They emphasized the importance of living in the present moment, embracing emotions, and cultivating gratitude.…
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Episode 1 "I Am Responsible" - Special Guest " Big C"
In this first episode of The Lose Control Podcast, host Matty I and good friend Chris Acciardo talk about some of their moments in life that were the lowest, yet they used those dark days as a means to turn life around. Listen in, we think you may hear your own story in ours.
About this show
On The Lose Control Podcast, we explore what happens when we stop clutching for control... and start trusting the pull. Because life doesn’t just ask us to let go—it pulls us under. Into grief. Into love. Into silence. Into seasons that don’t make sense on paper but are perfectly designed to shape our becoming.Submergence is the paradox: we sink in order to rise.We dissolve in order to become whole.The invitation isn’t to drown. It’s to surrender.To be undone. Unnamed. Unraveled.Because underneath the surface is where transformation gets real.It’s dark there. Pressurized. Sacred.But that’s the birthplace of peace—not the manufactured kind, but the raw, rooted kind. The kind that breathes under weight.Lose control—not as defeat, but as initiation.Because what if peace isn’t found in holding it all together…but in letting yourself fall apart on purpose?On this show, we don’t glorify drowning. We honor the dive.We talk about the courage it takes to fall beneath the ego. To be
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Matty Isola